EYECANDY000 Posted September 9, 2007 Posted September 9, 2007 Tell me what you think of my situation Being alone is something that i fear the most, but I dont do anything about it. I dont go out much to meet new guys. And when I do I never open up to them. My whole theory has always been expect the least from people and you would never get disappointed, and always expect the negatives before the positives. Ive heard it so many times from friends that, that it not a healthy way to look at life. I am currently 25 years old and I can honestly say Ive only had 1 real relationship. Well, it was long distance, but i really cared for him. I find myself going after younger guys, who definately arent looking for a commitment. I can honestly say I have become comfortable with being single and not having to step outside of my comfort zone. My sex life you ask? Ive never really had a high sex drive, possibly because I never really felt any chemistry with the people I have been with, I have always felt like I am a booty call. And I can honestly say that is my fault. I have gotten accustomed to having intercourse with guys and just leaving during the middle of the night. Ive never felt the need to hug and cudddle, if were not together. But also I contradict myself because I am giving someone a part of me , but I dont want a guy to cuddle if were not official. I still cant figure that one out. Ok, so to fast forward, I met a guy who I constantly see on a every other day basis and I was attracted to him since day 1. I can tell he was attracted to me but never acted on it. and finally I asked for him number. Now we have been hitting it off really good. I mean we talk to each and text each other all day, and we at least make it a habit to speak to each other every day . We have been intimate twice now.and I can say that i have allowed myself to open up to him emotionally and sexually. Now, this guy i can tell he is the type who likes someone to persue him. Now , im always up for a little chase but if it lasts to long i will give up and move on . Which I think most people is like that. Now lately, he has started to cancel plans or just not even call at all. Now Ive ok'ed it , only because I feel like "who am I to question y he hasnt called , or where he was.I guess my pride has always made me look like a dummy. My theory, I feel the only reason Y i am ok'ing him to cancel is because I know he really likes me and hes just testing me. But in the long run I guess I just want to have him get really close to me and then I can give him a taste of his only medicine. I know it sounds harsh , but , thats how I feel. I read loveshack everyday at work and i read all the posts about "y hasnt he called" or "did i sleep with him to early"? I honestly have never felt like i cared . Ive never exactly cared if someone didnt call him after we had intercourse, I dont care if he never texts. Sometimes i just wonder " why the hell dont I care? and I know the only person that can answer that question is me, but i just have no clue! so guess to cap it off, what do u think of my personality, and my view on relationships
Yamaha Posted September 9, 2007 Posted September 9, 2007 How is your relationship with your family? Do you have any close friends that you confide in?
Author EYECANDY000 Posted September 9, 2007 Author Posted September 9, 2007 I am extremely close with my family, especially my mom.. My mom has always spoiled me since I was born lol.. and I dont have any friends. I had 1, but she left to work over seas.
Yamaha Posted September 9, 2007 Posted September 9, 2007 Ive only had 1 real relationship. Well, it was long distance, but i really cared for him. Can you give some detail on what happened in this relationship?
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