dragonfly07 Posted September 1, 2007 Posted September 1, 2007 I am having a very difficult day. I am starting to feel like I have wasted so much of my time. I was involved in an abusive relationship for over a year. After that was over I spent some time trying to get myself back together. Unfortunetly, my next relationship was with another abusive man. We stayed together for about four years. Right after that was over, I got involved with someone who over our 6 year relationship didn't know if he was in love with me, didn't know if he wanted to be with me. Then I got involved with my most recent ex. The first year, he really wanted to be with me, but I kept saying I needed time to heal, I wan't able to give myself completely to him, because my heart wasn't whole and i didn't feel like it was fair of me to be with him. I kept breaking up with him, but coming back because I missed and loved him. I just never seemed to be ready. Since we officially broke up in Jan, we have been back and forth, but now, after a few weeks he gets angry with me and just stops talking to me. i feel like he is just trying to get some sort of revenge. Everytime I start to get really comfortable and happy, he just goes away. I was just sitting here thinking that so much of my life, nearly 1/3 has been in unfufilling relationships. I feel like I have wasted so much time. The ex said he was going to talk to me soon, but I just don't know if I want to give him another chance, even if he wants it. Which is hard because I love this guy. I just don't think I can give him another chance to hurt me. What do you think?
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