kirikat Posted August 30, 2007 Posted August 30, 2007 Oh lord, I got the "Im apologizing, but Im NOT a bad person so maybe we can be friends someday" letter today. (IE: "Please let me off the hook and don't be mad at me because someday I'd like to sleep with you again") If we had been friends to begin with, how this ended, and how badly it ended never would have happened. He's still "confused". Now, hearing from him isnt really a surprise, because I cast a goodbye spell yesterday - but, its making my heart hurt, and my stomach hurt - I want to respond, but I really think I need to wait until I am cold to do it. I'm glad he is feeling guilty. He deserves to feel guilty. Send me some good thoughts, because I dont want to be sad!
Author kirikat Posted August 30, 2007 Author Posted August 30, 2007 I'm not going to send the response, because I think he should stew in his own juices for a while. Besides, not getting an immediate response from me will be a new experience... But, since I cant shut up - I'll post the response here. Ale... I read your letter. You know, its still all about you. I hope the magical day when you suddenly become a man happens soon, because a life that is all about you is not really a life worth living. You never were my friend - so what makes you think we can be friends in the future? This was something you never understood, and the one thing I so desperately tried to teach you. Love is not based on things that happen in the movies - it is not about the high you get that makes you want to be together every moment. Love is based on friendship - because the rest is nothing more than infatuation, and infatuation always fades. If you do not learn this... what will happen is this: You will decide it is time to settle down. You will "fall in love" with the first appropriate woman. After a year, the infatuation will fade, and then - you will be miserable. And worse, you will make her miserable. I loved you NOT because I wanted a future with you, but because I can see underneath all your imbecility, and I saw a sweet and innocent soul, and you brought out the things in me that I most love and miss and hide - my own innocence, and my own sweetness. As to trying it for a year - NO, Ale, you didnt. You never commited to being my friend. If you had, it all would have come out differently. We would have parted, eventually - but love would have remained. And we would have been there to dry each others tears. And for god sake, until you learn to love children, please - do NOT have one of your own. Because NO child deserves a father who is not crazy for children. I mean, look how well you turned out with parents who weren't crazy about you. I know you love your family, but parenthood means raising men. And somehow, as much as you love them, they failed to raise a man... they raised a child.
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