Woman's Transformation

[Sand&Water]

Basically -well. Where do I start. This is a rather humiliating to put into words.

 

I am talking about . . . a woman's transformation from ugly duckling to a swan.

 

Subconsciously I do understand, contently understand, there are hundreds -if not thousands -of women that have experienced transformations throughout their childhood to adulthood periods.

 

But. But. Where do their identities go? A person's identity evolves with his/her physical changes. Right. Right. (?)

 

I have lately experienced this transformation -and quite frankly I am in fear most of the time. I am, still, the same person on the inside with my flaws and strengths. But my identity has taken a steep turn into a state of confusion, dismay and on some days pure innocence.

 

The stares, long stares, head turning, comments received from others -I don't know how to react, what to say, if anything at all. Am I a delusional person -or is it a combination of things -or is it my physical appearance. (?)

 

I don't like the attention, more specifically I tremble at the thought of getting my personality to fit together with my physical being. I don't know how to communicate with myself about this thing -is it a paradox. (?)

 

Sand&Water

[birdie]

it will pass when the winter arrives and you wrap up in shapeless clothes

[Lyssa]

I was very thin during my early teenage life and I was constantly ridiculed about it. After I finished high school, I started to change physically. I met ex-schoolmates or even some on Friendster and how surprised they were of my changes. Like you, I get head-turns (that can feel nice - sometimes), long stares (which I am never comfortable with!), compliments and such. All that made me feel really good about myself but I always remind myself that looks aren't everything and that it doesn't last long. As for my identity - it pretty much stayed the same. I may have changed physically but everything else about me, stays the same. I don't let it get to my head. I believe that God gave me what I have and he can easily take it away - same thing goes with wealth, health and everything else.

[Lizzie60]

Basically -well. Where do I start. This is a rather humiliating to put into words.

 

I am talking about . . . a woman's transformation from ugly duckling to a swan.

 

Subconsciously I do understand, contently understand, there are hundreds -if not thousands -of women that have experienced transformations throughout their childhood to adulthood periods.

 

But. But. Where do their identities go? A person's identity evolves with his/her physical changes. Right. Right. (?)

 

I have lately experienced this transformation -and quite frankly I am in fear most of the time. I am, still, the same person on the inside with my flaws and strengths. But my identity has taken a steep turn into a state of confusion, dismay and on some days pure innocence.

 

The stares, long stares, head turning, comments received from others -I don't know how to react, what to say, if anything at all. Am I a delusional person -or is it a combination of things -or is it my physical appearance. (?)

 

I don't like the attention, more specifically I tremble at the thought of getting my personality to fit together with my physical being. I don't know how to communicate with myself about this thing -is it a paradox. (?)

 

Sand&Water

 

What do you mean exactly? What were your transformations about?

Did you go under the knife?

[Lishy]

I have never had that problem, I have always turned heads hahhahahha

[Sand&Water]

RE:

 

Never-mind. You can't understand.

 

To Answer the Question: Natural transformation, not -and never in my life- under the knife.

 

Thank you all: Lizzie60, Lishy, Lyssa and Birdie for responding to my post.

 

Sand&Water

[Cobra_X30]

RE:

 

Never-mind. You can't understand.

 

To Answer the Question: Natural transformation, not -and never in my life- under the knife.

 

Thank you all: Lizzie60, Lishy, Lyssa and Birdie for responding to my post.

 

Sand&Water

 

Your almost poetic!

 

Until you accept yourself for who and what you are.... you will always have that gap!

[IpAncA]

I had that ugly look thru high school and started looking more mature when I was in undergrad. Probably around my junior year because I started doing more thing to myself like straighten my hair, etc.. I also started noticing that I was loseing my baby look and getting that mature look.

 

Then I looked REALLY good at age 24. There were times I didn't even recognize myself. Scary because I look like I did when I was a baby just older and more mature.

 

What a werid thing to witness.

[Saxis]

it will pass when the winter arrives and you wrap up in shapeless clothes

 

You know that's not true! It's just like Christmas gifts: If you didn't wrap them up, the mystery and appeal would be gone. Everyone likes to unwrap a little present every now and again!