wwjd Posted August 26, 2007 Posted August 26, 2007 out of all the sub-forums on LS, this one is my house. i leave it for a few days, but i always come right back to it, like a boomerang. perhaps it's because i can identify the most with other fellow copers, i don't know, but the truth is that, for me, this place of LS is the one i can identify with the most. sometimes i read through the threads and i can literally feel the sadness, the pain, the hurt, the agony, the despair, and the anger of the people posting. it's as though the emotions are the most raw in this particular sub-forum, and well, we all know that can be a very beautiful thing, but also a very disheartening one. yesterday i had a little bit too much to drink, which wasn't the plan at all. i started to listen to the beatles as i often do when i'm feeling blue, and then, seemingly out of nowhere, the tears just came pouring down. i felt strange. i was sitting there, alone in the balcony, with only the light from my laptop illuminating that little corner. after a few sips of my drink, i lit a cigarette--you know--to add to the depressive atmosphere. i was just sitting there, taking small drinks and big inhalations, listening to the beatles and looping songs by paul mccartney, with big hot tears rolling down my cheek as i gazed up at the sky. the sky was pretty. the moon was almost full and it was shining ever so brightly. i started to tell myself that i wish i could fly up there, to the moon. if it really is made out of cheese, then i'd just be careful to try not to eat it all. the thought of being a part of something so beautiful is heart-warming. and then, as always, i started to think about my LS buddies. i started to think about some of the threads you guys have started, the desires you wish to be fulfilled, and the fears you wish you rid. it was then when i had a thought: i was going to send a certain someone a text message saying "yesterday." i was sure he would understand exactly what i meant. so i started to punch in the numbers when i heard someone--and i swear it was you guys--saying: "NOOO!!" so, i didn't, and instead, i had another thought: logically speaking, the person whom we are going to fall in love with next is alive and breathing at this very second. it has nothing to do with pre-determined fates or destinies, no; it's a fact. there is someone out there somewhere right now whom we will fall in love with. there is someone out there right now who, come some time, we will be posting about here, ranting and raving about how in love we are. there is someone out there, right now, who will someday hug us, filling our heart with warmth, happiness, and love. perhaps it has zero to do with destiny, but the truth is that, unless you are some truly unlucky sap whom will forever be miserable (just kidding!), there is someone out there right now who we are going to meet and fall in love with--just like we met and fell in love with our past loves. whether the next one will be "the one" or not is something we will not now until the end, but the one thing we should rest assured of is that there is someone . . . and maybe more than just one. so, the hope, however bleak it my seem right now, is still and forever will be there, so long as we let it. the only bad part, of course, is that we all wonder: "well, where is he/she?!?!?!"--sorry, guys: i have no clue. hmm . . . i wonder what they are doing right now. (this post is not nearly as depressing as i was thinking about it yesterday.)
Trialbyfire Posted August 26, 2007 Posted August 26, 2007 wwjd, please reread what you wrote. It's not a message of despair but a message of hope. It will happen again.
AriaIncognito Posted August 26, 2007 Posted August 26, 2007 Yeah, wow. Considering what you've been through in the past week or so wwjd, I'd think that post is pretty darned optimistic. It made me feel optimistic, both because I know how badly you were feeling such a short time ago, and because I totally understand and empathize and want to believe all that you said as well. Kudos to you, it was a great post, and one that I hope many copers read.
This_Too_Shall_Pass Posted August 27, 2007 Posted August 27, 2007 Good job on not text messaging him, WWJD. And you're getting it right. He is definitely not the last person you'll ever fall in love with. I don't believe there's anything like the concept of "The One and Only" love. There are plenty of potentially great matches out there for every individual. It takes a longer time for some of us to meet them, that's all.
CrazyPanda Posted August 27, 2007 Posted August 27, 2007 true it's not as depressing but I think it ended well though:). It takes a while for us, the broken hearts, to realize there is someone else out there that will love us and we can love back as much as the last relationship we were in. I'm still trying to understand that but sitting at the house every night doesn't really help out with finding that person. I think the only time we can understand that there is someone else out there for us is when we are ready to accept our last relationship for what it was and go out to meet a new love.
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