SpadesVersusHearts Posted August 19, 2007 Posted August 19, 2007 Hi guys, How are you all? I'm new to these forums, but have been lurking around for suggestions for over an year. I wanted to first thank you guys for such a wonderful community and thank you for taking your time to read this. Well, just to give the very basics of my question, I was wondering if any of you had hid secrets from your current girlfriend or boyfriend regarding your past with others. It's not like I had intercourse or sexual intimacy with anyone in the past, but I had fooled around with someone before my girlfriend. It doesnt seem like a huge deal but I was dumb enough to tell my girlfriend that I did not like anyone before her and that she was my first kiss, etc. which IS true because I had not kissed anyone on the lips before her. But anyways, on with the story. You guys might think im a retard for lying to her, but she was a pretty insecure and jealous gf. We were both young back then, but now we're both into our mid 20's. Basically, im saying we were both immature and irrational. I didnt want to tell her because of one reason: At that current point in time, I really had forgotten about it. It just didnt mean anything to me and when I was with my girlfriend, everything was about her. I was kind of obsessed with her, and loved her a great deal. But now that I have remembered it, I feel guilty for not telling her. What I did with the previous female was just kissing on the cheeks, necks. Allowing her to touch me not in my private spot(Sorry if this is too graphic), and I just touched her private spot (Kind of rubbing it) twice with her pants on, kind of FOOLINGLY touching her (as in a joke and rubbed for a very short amount of time). This was back when I was 15. Which was a long time ago. I liked that girl, but was using her more to get over my depression because of my parents. I used her basicalyl as an escape.. but she would never allow me to kiss her lips, though I have had tried. Anyways, I feel guilty for lying to my girlfriend, and I realyl do regret it. But we had previous drama that allowed her to make me seem like a very big ******* and a jerk that lies all the time. But I do not do anything anymore. Previously I didnt do anything regarding cheating or ****... but the trust was so hard to get back, and I really didnt mean it to be anything else for this small incident. It's been over 7 years... But I still feel guilty. This girl is also our mutual friend, and has did some damage to our relationship because I had talked to her before about my current gf, but she spilled everything. However, she did not tell my current gf anything regarding this issue. So what do you guys think? Sorry if this is so long, I tried to keep this short. Thanks for reading, please give me feed back because I have trouble sleeping, and feel like a super ass.. but please.. Thanks.. PS: I feel like a ******* for doing this, trust me. this also took me lots of courage to post this and my thoughts. So if anyone could please help me out, I would truly appreciate this. Thank you guys.
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