yergawd Posted August 15, 2007 Posted August 15, 2007 Let me start with I have a ridiculously busy life. I am a full time student, work 40hrs per week, have an 8yr old with C.P. to take care of, and a GF with 2 kids of her own. I don't spend as much time with my GF alone as I would like, I don't mean sexually no complaints on that, for the most part. But the other day I said I would work crazy hrs during the week so we could have a day off together (with all the kids but you take what you can get). I expected some kind of positive response but got "damm1t" I asked her what was up and finally drug out of her she had a lot to do and would not get it done. Keep in mind I had spent the day cleaning and working in the yard leaving her with a tiny list (6 things would take maybe 2 hrs total less if I helped). I had decided to go to work, I didn't like the idea of being at the bottom of a "huge" list when I was putting myself out to spend time with her. I ended up getting violently sick that night and decided to recoup that day anyway. So I did stuff around the house away from her, the whole time wishing I would have gone into work. Made for a miserable day for all of us. This would not even be an issue except if I go out with my friends for a few hrs (If you've read my other posts you'll remember I am giving up a lot of things in order to keep her comfortable) I get a major guilt trip from her about how precious our time together is. Or, I am a night owl she is not, if I go downstairs to exercise or watch a movie again major guilt trip. It's not even like we are cuddling, she can't get comfortable sleeping like that she just turns her back and lays on her side of the bed and I'm left there wide awake and bored. But she insists she can't sleep if I am not there. I love spending time with her I just get the feeling, I don't know how to describe it. Maybe I just wanted to vent. I don't know does this seem odd to anyone else?
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