snookiebow Posted August 14, 2007 Posted August 14, 2007 20 years ago my highschool boyfriend of 2 years broke up with me. The following summer he said he missed me and wanted me back. I loved him and missed him terribly so I went to Kansas where he was living. He said he loved me, we made love and lost our virginity. He said he would call me, he never did. He moved to Colorado and I had no idea how to find him. I was heartbroken. I tried to go on with life. Dated others, eventually married and had 4 kids, but every now and then I will have a good cry over my first love. I found out he moved back to our home town, married someone else. Funny she looks like me, blonde hair, blue eyes, in education. I know I'll never be with him, unless, he loses his wife and I lose my husband. I found his cell phone number on the internet and I have had this urge to call him. I haven't talked to him in 20 years. I really want him to know how bad he hurt me. I didn't even get a chance to have my say. At times I wish I could go back in time and make things different. I was very happy with him. My girlfriend said I might hear something I won't like. He has already broke my heart. What else can he do, but hang up on me. I guess I am looking for a long over due explanation and apology. Some say let by gones be by gone. I can't get over it. I've tried the counseling. I know I still love the guy I knew in high school and he is a different person, but I think I will feel better if I can get this out and have my questions answered. Should I call him or not? snookie
madgun68 Posted August 14, 2007 Posted August 14, 2007 Hi snookie, In my opinion, you might as well call. If you've tried counseling and are still carrying this around after 20 years, then this cannot do any more harm than carrying around the feelings that you have for so such a long period of time. Your girlfriend was right, you might hear things you may not like.. Be prepared to hear the worst. Call. Get this out of your system and let go.
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