kittensmittens Posted August 8, 2007 Posted August 8, 2007 I'm so tired of waking up and remembering all over again, every day. I'm so tired of waking up to nothingness and this horrible reality. It's not getting easier....time isn't really doing a damn thing for me. I'm tired of wondering where he is, what he's doing, does he miss me, has he found someone. If he were dwelling on me nearly as much as I'm dwelling on him, he would have called 1000+ times by now. It hurts too much. I wish I could stop wishing he'll come back. I think if I could just say to myself "he's NOT coming back and I don't WANT him to"....that would be that and I could move on. But no, I've got to sit around here like a big blob, clinging to this little shred of hope that maybe he'll see, just like all the other times, what an ass he was to someone he loves very much and come back. I sit here in disbelief that he would just LET things end the way they did.....but I really think that's just what he's doing. Someone I care about so deeply just doesn't give a **** about me anymore. I want to just throw him and this whole little episode of my life right out of my brain. Instead I think a little piece of my heart will always belong to him. It just isn't fair.
directx Posted August 8, 2007 Posted August 8, 2007 Keep hanging in there. Always feel free to vent here. I hope that helps at least. It's going to take time, and a lot of it. Please hang in there.
Yamaha Posted August 8, 2007 Posted August 8, 2007 I think if I could just say to myself "he's NOT coming back and I don't WANT him to"....that would be that and I could move on. You haven't accepted that it's over yet. You are still in the denial stage and you still have hope. I don't know how long you have been apart but it does get easier if you go on with your life. Break-ups are hard when one of you are still in love. He probably still thinks of you but I wouldn't beat yourself up over the why's and what if's. People change and you need to accept it or you will be missing out on your life. It really isn't about him but it is about you. Take the time you need to grieve and then put it behind you and never look back. It is his loss. You deserve better than him and by hoping and waiting you will miss out on that guy who does want to meet you and be your guy.
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