lost0604 Posted July 31, 2007 Posted July 31, 2007 well i took some time off of work being that i work with my MM and i was trying to end things and felt being on these sites only kept it alive for me in a way at times so i'd take the 2 week break from here also...i missed you guys and need to catch up...and am loving the recent posts...all very interesting... so my outcome of the 2 weeks? horrible...we sucked...and saw eachother quite a bit...i think a lot of it was initiated by fear...at least for me...as soon as i felt he might let me slip away i reached out...we were both to blame for this failure...the last 4 days of the 2 weeks we did nc...figured it's all we had left..my first day back to work we once again failed miserably by the end of the day. I am trying to come to realize this is pointless...and he isn't doing anything to be with me even though he says he wants to...our time together now usually consists of me saying that over and over again...not sure why he even wants to talk to me these days...he doesn't want to let me go yet isn't doing what it takes to be with me...he calls himself ridiculous and psychotic for not just figuring this out and doing what he needs to do...but what good is that doing? anyway that is my update...still trying to walk away but finding it soooo hard...i am doing better than i ever have in the past so that says something i guess...we'll see...but i have goals and i strongly feel this R is now drifting me further away from them....
TogetherForever Posted July 31, 2007 Posted July 31, 2007 Welcome Back Lost!!! Hang in there. If you decide to keep your relationship going or let it go. Hang in there. (((((((((Lost))))))))))
GreenEyedLady Posted July 31, 2007 Posted July 31, 2007 well i took some time off of work being that i work with my MM and i was trying to end things and felt being on these sites only kept it alive for me in a way at times so i'd take the 2 week break from here also...i missed you guys and need to catch up...and am loving the recent posts...all very interesting... so my outcome of the 2 weeks? horrible...we sucked...and saw eachother quite a bit...i think a lot of it was initiated by fear...at least for me...as soon as i felt he might let me slip away i reached out...we were both to blame for this failure...the last 4 days of the 2 weeks we did nc...figured it's all we had left..my first day back to work we once again failed miserably by the end of the day. I am trying to come to realize this is pointless...and he isn't doing anything to be with me even though he says he wants to...our time together now usually consists of me saying that over and over again...not sure why he even wants to talk to me these days...he doesn't want to let me go yet isn't doing what it takes to be with me...he calls himself ridiculous and psychotic for not just figuring this out and doing what he needs to do...but what good is that doing? anyway that is my update...still trying to walk away but finding it soooo hard...i am doing better than i ever have in the past so that says something i guess...we'll see...but i have goals and i strongly feel this R is now drifting me further away from them.... What are your needs? I think you should focus less on what he is doing, and more on what you are doing...You shouldn't be letting him keep you from your goals... Decide what it is you want and need and then go from there...Don't sacrifice yourself, your career, your goals...EVER...
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