Aliddy Posted July 29, 2007 Posted July 29, 2007 You now have an inner peace.....because you are no longer trying to change your personality and behave in a way that is totally out of character....... You needed to do that FOR YOU and it will give you some comfort, and she may not respond, but that does not matter, you know deep inside, that the behaviour you display, is what makes you .. you .... There are some people who wont agree..... " You need to walk a mile in another person shoes ...... before you are in a position to judge " Suzanne :-)
Author funkybassplayer Posted July 29, 2007 Author Posted July 29, 2007 Hi Funk, You know I read all your threads and most of your responces. When I read them it was like you were saying to me "Boy, snap out of it". I would read what you put here and think "whats wrong with me"? Why is this taking so long? I just wanted to thank you for sharing your feelings. I know now that I am not crazy, Im human! Funk, I want her back so bad we were so good and on top of all this I lost a family I still love so much. Grandma (the head of the family) told me that despite all this I was family and they all loved me very much.This hurts as much as it helps. Another day without her. I wonder what shes up to, I wonder who she is with? I will have a good cry now. Thank you for that, you discribed how i was feeling, and we are only huma, not machines. Some people are, they can just switch off, and move on, i cannot, not can you or others. I think that losing a woman is one thing, and losing a family and a way of life is something else. My ex has been very selfish to me in the end, and im not thinkinh along the lines of gettibg her back as she has moved on, but she cant ask me to not be me, i cant just stop caring, cant do it, and nor can so many other suffering souls here. A good film to watch is Rocky balboa (rocky 6) its full of all this stuff that we are talking about, you know how you must do whats right for you, how to say just one more tome, i care. No one can ever put you down for caring, and if they do, but you did it for the right reason, then you will never regreat that last word or action, and one day your ex may think that yes you were a good guy, ok we all have faults, but the heart was there, and i want to be remembered as not some1 who turned his back, but some1 who showed the love i had inspite of being treated so selfishly in the end. I can never forget that, but i cant forget the other side of her, when she kissed me and held me, to the last day, the love was in her eyes, i know i could see it. She deserted me, and my feelings, but she felt she could have a better life with some1 else. I have no control over tha, as do ant of us here, but we can control what we do for ourselves. I dont mean to ramble on, but the more i write the more i get this all out. Im not self centered for the last 10 years, i devoted my lifew to ever1 else, so i feel i deserve to say my bit. i never in my life walked away from any1, and have always done my best, even if that was not good enough.
frd150 Posted July 29, 2007 Posted July 29, 2007 Thank you for that, you discribed how i was feeling, and we are only huma, not machines. Some people are, they can just switch off, and move on, i cannot, not can you or others. I think that losing a woman is one thing, and losing a family and a way of life is something else. My ex has been very selfish to me in the end, and im not thinkinh along the lines of gettibg her back as she has moved on, but she cant ask me to not be me, i cant just stop caring, cant do it, and nor can so many other suffering souls here. A good film to watch is Rocky balboa (rocky 6) its full of all this stuff that we are talking about, you know how you must do whats right for you, how to say just one more tome, i care. No one can ever put you down for caring, and if they do, but you did it for the right reason, then you will never regreat that last word or action, and one day your ex may think that yes you were a good guy, ok we all have faults, but the heart was there, and i want to be remembered as not some1 who turned his back, but some1 who showed the love i had inspite of being treated so selfishly in the end. I can never forget that, but i cant forget the other side of her, when she kissed me and held me, to the last day, the love was in her eyes, i know i could see it. She deserted me, and my feelings, but she felt she could have a better life with some1 else. I have no control over tha, as do ant of us here, but we can control what we do for ourselves. I dont mean to ramble on, but the more i write the more i get this all out. Im not self centered for the last 10 years, i devoted my lifew to ever1 else, so i feel i deserve to say my bit. i never in my life walked away from any1, and have always done my best, even if that was not good enough. Thanks. I defitetly lost a way of life. My roomate told me the other day that my life has now completely changed he is right but as you know this goes without saying. Alot of good has come from this. I am in better shape, career on track again (post break up it was bad), new faces in my life a new group of good people that care alot about me and most importantly my mum,sister and I have become closer. Somehow though, all of this is one notch down from having her back in my life.But im lucky to have all that i have,I know this. I recieved the check back for the engagement ring this last week. I cant bare to open it. Its a hell of alot of money but it will not buy me a porsche.I know i need to take part of the money and do something for myself.I never in a million years thought i would be returning an engagement ring. Special memory ruined. Funk, If there is one thing i do know its go with what your nature tells you. I cannot be an a** like others have told me.It's not in my nature.Your a good soul and good souls do good things.
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