Jmina Posted July 21, 2007 Posted July 21, 2007 i sent my ex a msg asking if i had done something wrong..as earlier we talked about being friends and i thought we were okay, but then she backed right off. so i thought i had done something wrong to loose her trust..... my msg was a bit vague i guess and she replied with 'huh?' I left it, i didn't reply back as i chickened out and thought i wasnt strong enough to handle anything she was going to say. then she msgd me again 2 hours later saying "im confused about your msg, whats the problem?" so again i tried to ask if had done something wrong as things were much more peaceful before and then she turned her back on me and she replied with "you havnt done anything. i'm just over the whole thing by now! not really interested in a friendship either...not for a long long time n e way, if it gets to that! to be perfectly honest, ive moved on jas! ive left the heartache behind and am moving on with my life." personally i think if she had really moved on a)she wouldnt have even replied to my msg in the first place...and she was still thinking about it 2 hours later. b) if she was truly over it she would consider being friends i think she is over it while she cant handle it anymore. put it in the two hard basket and thinks if she wants later she can pick it up again. someone wise on here explain this:"not really interested in a friendship either...not for a long long time n e way, if it gets to that!" its like shes not interested in being friends but left it kind of open just incase she needs someone to fall back on? being me? unfair.. --------------------------------------------------------------------- if she came back to me wanting to be friends, she would have to prove it somehow and she would have to earn my trust back... but i doubt she will anyway... she does seem much happier now, im extremely glad for her. i love her too much to be in her life... i replied back with the msg "you cant place a time frame on grieving for any one person. whats the difference between your loss of ruth (her dearly loved nanna who she is still grieving over) and my loss of you.you will never understand but believe it or not i love you as a person as much as you love her truth be told and i have to grieve since your disappearing from my life. you made me feel small by saying youve gotten over it by now. dont compare your healing to other peoples. however i am glad youve moved on. wouldnt be right if both of us hadnt" she didnt reply.thankfully. i really do believe she loves me too. but in her own way. if she didnt care, she wouldnt have replied at all. and she wasnt nasty in her msg either...just to the point. i really do love this girl...i fell for a girl (im also a girl) unexpectedly...i believe i will continue on a life of hetrosexuality...but ill always love my first love forever. i loved her the moment i met her, and always will. and it kind of makes me happy. even though she appears to not love me. anyway. thanks for listening. any views at all would be really appreciated!! thankyou alot.
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