kali420 Posted July 17, 2007 Posted July 17, 2007 It's been awhile since I've last posted. Quick refreshment on my story...Dated an older woman I used to work with. She broke up with me because I was supposedly younger than she was by eleven years. Then, she hooks up with an old co-worker younger than I am. It was seven months after by the way. I had strong feelings for her and I was heart-broken. Still feeling a little sting to this day... Well, she works with all the friends I have made out here. She knew I still had a thing for her, as I told her about a couple months after we had broken up. Five months later, she hooks up with this guy. I knew I shouldn't be pissed at this guy, but, he is part of the equation. So, the people I hang out with like to hang out with them too. I ran into the co-worker at a beer festival that all my friends went to. I just didn't even go near him. I just kept my distance from they guy. I dance with a chic friend, and the dude comes up to us. I understand that the guy was trying to be cool. He reached out to shake my hand. I shook his hand. I don't know if I did it so that my friends wouldn't think I was an *********, or, if I did it because, I don't know why! Anyways, like I said, it was almost three months ago that I saw the two together. I talked with the ex. She said she didn't get into the relationship to hurt me. It was a long time ago that we had broken up. She adored me. etc. etc. It was the worst I have ever felt in my life. Up until this point I was getting over her again. Seeing her boyfriend made me feel ****ty again. My friends like the guy too. I can't make myself try to be friends with them. A friend of mine said, "Let's try to make this right"...he said, "If you think about it, it's not even him." I thought to myself that he is! He is part of the equation. Granted, they like each other, but, I feel like no one had any idea how I felt. I really don't know what to think, how to act, how to feel. I know it is over. I guess deep down inside I wish everyone would choose me to be friends with rather than her. Selfish I know. That's how I feel.
funkybassplayer Posted July 17, 2007 Posted July 17, 2007 You did the right thing by shaking his hand, and after it sinks in, you will be fine with it.
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