he broke up with me...

[Dani_babii]

over a week ago, my boyfriend broke up with me after a year and a half relationship. i was a complete mess bcos it did some what come out of nowhere. I'm doing ok now, bcos we are still staying friends, even though that will take some time to get used to. As of right now, im not sure if we will get back together, although deep down i feel like we both know we want to. I'm pretty sure he does just bcos of things hes said to me and some of our friends, but he just doesn't want a relationship at this point in time, which i do understand. "I still love the **** out of her and I do think about her all the time.I'm not giving up on her by any means and she will always be a part of my life. I'm just at a point in my life where I wanna do what I want when I want and trying to do that while being with her right now isn't fair to her and I feel like it was causing her more pain than now." thats a part of a message he sent to my cousin on myspace. Hes said similar things to me also, but thats not the part im worried. i know that if were meant to be together, then we will be and nothing can get in the way of that. But there is something thats bothering me a lot... i asked him if there was someone else a few times and he assured me that there wasn't, i do believe him, bcos i really don't think he'd lie to me, he's just not that type of a guy, however there is just something weird about him right now, i've heard this from a few people. Somethings just not completely right. I "found" out that hes been talkin/texting this 15 year old chick a lot, lets call her "Allison", i know who she is and i know that hes friends with her (he works with her dad). I don't believe that hes dating her but i just find it weird that hes talking to her so much. Well this girl's cousin, lets call her "Rachael" added me on myspace and i didn't know who she was, so i messaged her a few times asking who she was, she wouldn't answer, so i asked my ex cuz i noticed she was on his too and hes like i don't know shes just some chick. Well i was still kind of annoyed that she wouldn't answer me (i guess i though maybe she was the other girl, but i did straight up asked him this and he promised me she wasn't) so without me knowing my cousin messaged "Rachael" and called her a slut and all this other stuff (lil funny lol), well "Allison" went crying to my ex and he texted me saying telling my cousin to lay off the girls, i asked him what she did, since i had no idea and he told me, i apoligized for what she said and he said he wasn't mad and forgave her. Fine, so i message "Rachael" apoligizing for what my cousin said to her, well the chick goes off, she didn't even care what my cousin said to her, i seriously messaged the girl twice asking who she was thats it, she turned it into a huge deal, so i texted my ex saying he better tell his friends to lay off, he texted both of us back to stop the drama, so i told him don't worry ill stop it. so i told her im not fighting with a 15 and 16 year old about something so stupid that doesn't even make any sense. It was the most retarted thing i don't know if they were just pissed off that he still considers me his best friend, since we all know "Allison" has a crush on him, hes 22 though, hes already told me, you know there no way in hell im dating a 15 year old. i really don't know whats going on, i just find it all a little weird, very weird. Why did this chick go off on something that really doesn't make sense? i just feel like if were trying to work things out eventually we don't need these 2 getting in the way, you know what i mean? am i just making too much of a big deal about this? sorry for it being so long, i just needed to get it all out, i need some advice from an outside source. ANY ADVICE PLEASE?? or any thoughts on this situation, im so confused!!

 

Thxs,

Dani