purety1 Posted July 12, 2007 Posted July 12, 2007 Well I got online today.. although i should not have got on and tortured myself... I saw he now had California listed as his location. I just saw him earlier a 1030 this morning....he is officially leaving or has left. Part of me wanted to send him a message wishing him the best.. which would be the right thing to do... probably totally unnecessary. But then I started to cry.... feeling all the hurt.. he didn't even want to be my friend ..he has no use for me now....The one day I asked him to come over to talk to me.. he wouldn't even look at me. I know he is going to be happy out there but it still hurts...I cared about him.... I thought maybe if he cared about me a little he would have had the decency to at least want be my friend...maybe he just used me for sex and that was it. If he is still here tommorow I don't know what I am going to do.. to avoid crying...maybe I will just wish him well... maybe i will just walk past like I don't know him.. like he has been doing to me...God..this sucks! Help.
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