Don't know which one to keep

[Potato]

A little over three years ago my life had gotten complicated. I was offered a job 1200 miles away so without telling anyone, not even my family, I silently slipped away, hoping to start anew. For the next 6 months or so I lived quietly, alone. Eventually I started to feel lonely and one night stopped at a club that I passed everyday on my way to work.

 

There I met two women, A… and E…, who insisted that I come back the next week which I did. Over the next 3-4 months I became a regular every Friday night, becoming friends with five women who were regulars, A…, B…, C…, D…, and E…. Then suddenly, without notice, the club was closed, which upset me as I didn’t know how else to contact my new 5 friends.

 

So, I started going around to other clubs in the area with the hopes that I would run into one of them. As time passed I started to think that perhaps they really weren’t my friends, that my imagination had just gotten the better of me. I ended up meeting two others, F… and G… and began hanging out with each alternately.

 

One day I ran into C… who was really excited about seeing me again. She became insistent that we have sex which we did. After the act she told me that she had a boyfriend who she planned on marrying soon so not to expect anything more between us – that she only had sex with me because she knew that given the chance she would regret it if we didn’t.

 

The next week I ran into A… which was even better as she had been my favorite. 55hgShortly after, coincidently, all on the same day, all separately A…, F…, and G… all expressed a desire to get naked with me. The problem was that F… and G… were married and A… lived with a boyfriend and had a lesbian lover on the side. For the next few months I had affairs with these three women.

 

Then A… told me that it was too emotionally draining carrying on with three people, that she needed a break. Strangely, the next day I met H… who worked with F… who introduced us. H… was single and wild and free and quickly filled the hole in my life left by A….

 

Then I ran into B… and D… who turned out to be lesbian lovers, which I hadn’t known. Explaining the joy they had gotten out of my company when we originally hung out at that first club, they invited me back to their place….

 

A couple of months later, while with H…, I couldn’t complete the act, because I kept thinking about A…, and how much I missed her. So I left and went directly to see A… who was obviously in a bad way and turned me away. I decided I needed a break and didn’t see anyone for like a month.

 

Then I ran into J… who I had met when I was hanging out with A…, B…, C…, D…, and E…., but we had never really talked or anything. She was extremely tomboyish so we wrestled around a lot. At a local bar there was a T&A contest which I got her to enter and campaigned for her and she won $300 and all the free drinks she wanted for the next week. For a couple of weeks we partied like there was no tomorrow until the police came and took her away. To this day I don’t know why, just some vague parole violation.

 

By then F… wanted to continue our affair which I was happy to comply. At the place where we regularly went to meet, I met K… who was friends with F…, A…, E… and L. Though we only had two sexual encounters, we became really close and spent a lot of time together over the next year.

 

Then I met M… and it was pretty intense for a couple of weeks until she told me that she sometimes thinks about getting back with her ex. I told her that it was okay because I sometimes think about A…. After that she didn’t want to talk to me anymore.

 

Hanging out with K… all the time got me to thinking about being part of a couple which I hadn’t been for many years. To this end I met N…. I chose her, in part, I think, because she reminded me of A…. It started okay until her roommate, a woman, informed me that they were lovers and would do what ever she needed to do to keep me from ruining it. However, hanging out with N… I met her friend P… who turned me on like no other.

 

Soon after, I needed a break and broke off all contact with everyone for a month or so. Then I started hanging out with a social group that included Q… and R…, both of who came onto me rather quickly and forcibly, which I took full advantage of. After several weeks of this; I was at a party and both Q… and R… were coming onto me. They started arguing, squaring off like they were going to fight. Then out of the blue M… showed up. She didn’t say anything, just looked at me, so I walked out the door grabbing her hand on the way. Like the first time it was intense but short lived.

 

I then started up with F… again as well as hanging out with K… and L…. Then I ran into E… who told me that back when I was hanging out at the first club, that she and the others engaged in friendly competition, shared notes, in attracting my attention, my affections. Before the night was over, I had had relations with all five of my original friends in this town – and validating my original feelings about these women, that I wasn’t just fantasizing.

 

Then K… moved away. More than anyone, it was K… that I talked to and confided in. With her gone I felt lost. I turned to E… but then she too soon moved away. But before she left, A… kept coming up in our conversations, got me to thinking. So I went and found A… again and she was so very, very happy to see me. For a couple of weeks we spent all our free time together. I decided that if I was to be a couple with anyone, it was to be her. One day she just disappeared. It didn’t bother me so much because I just knew that she would come back in her own time.

 

Weeks passed and the next thing I knew I was alternately hanging out with F…, Q…, R..., G…, L…, M…, and three new ones S…, who was single and T…, and U…, who were married, with M… being the one I pursued most as she, and thus our relationship, being highly volatile, thus exciting. For a few months I was awash in women, with as many as three a day, and absolutely losing my mind.

 

One day A… came back and I lost interest in all the others except F… and U… who had become more as friends then lovers. Both were married. A… insisted that there were no others in her life and we became a couple. About 4 months later I ran into N… and P…, went and partied with them (no sex, no romance, just friends). While doing so I met V…. When I first saw V… it was like I already knew her, like she was all the girl friends I ever had. She hugged me ever so tightly. But I was in love with A… and nothing came of it.

 

Two months later A… had a breakdown of sorts. She has always been emotionally fragile which adds to her charm. But her car suffering from catastrophic failure and her cat dying all in the same week pushed her over the edge. She is now 2000 miles away staying with her mother, till she can face the world again. Once every other week or so I get a message from her saying how much she misses me with plenty of xo’s. It’s been almost five months and I don’t know if she’ll ever come back, even though her stuff is still here.

 

In the meantime I’ve been hanging out with V…, as friends. Lately she has been sitting real close. Yesterday she kissed me and it felt really good. But I’m confused because I still love A…. From the beginning A… has always been my favorite and I’ve looked at all the others by comparison. I wonder if it is just first love syndrome, you know where one tends to remember their first love in a higher light – just because it was new. In a certain aspect A… is like a first love. With all the others, I knew, in the back of my head that whenever A… came around that she would always come first. With V…., I’m not so sure. It’s in the way A… always smiled when I was around regardless if we were looking at each other or not; was always telling everyone how wonderful she thought I was. V... is becoming like that too.

 

Comments, advise?

[quankanne]

sounds like a real alphabet stew you got going there, mister! :laugh:

 

 

silliness aside, from personal experience I've learned that sometimes, your mind will insist this is the person you love, and you swear that you hear your heart echo the sentiment. Even when you meet the person you are meant to be with …

 

give this new girl a chance. You may discover things about her that "mesh" with you in a way that your first love never did, and you may come to a realization that she is where you're meant to be, not some girl your mind tells you to hang on to because you feel she epitomizes what you want most.

[Lostgurl]

Skit Skat Skoddle Doot, Flip Flop Flee... I'll beat you to the top of the cocoanut tree.... Wow, you sure have your hands busy.

 

If i were you, I would stay away from all the members of the alphabet that have other husbands, female lovers, boyfriends girlfriends or all of the above.

 

If it's a serious relationship that you are looking for, then yes, you would need to stop fooling around with all of the above, if it's just fun that your looking for, well... you still have w,x,y,& z to meet up with.

 

As for A, does she still have said boyfriend and female lover? If she does, my advice for you would be to forget about her and move on. Even if she did break up with her bf & gf to be with you, there would be trust issues for you because she cheated on her lover(s) with you.

[I love hot men.]

My advice is to stop hanging out with tweeked out trash. Stop going to the strip clubs.