daterhater Posted June 26, 2007 Posted June 26, 2007 maybe you remember me: http://www.loveshack.org/forums/showthread.php?t=111256&highlight=daterhater&page=3 i have an update. i took advice of the people and really tried hard to work on my relationship. i avoided "bob" (the older friend of my boyfriend who i felt a connection with) like the plague. when i ran into him at a party the month after i made the thread, i made sure we were never in the same room at the same time. toward the end of the night, i was in the living room with a room full of people and tears started streaming down my face for no reason. i pretended to fall asleep just so i could bury my face in my arm. i still don't know what the heck was wrong with me there, but for some reason that was the beginning of forgetting "bob." i thought my relationship with my boyfriend would be perfect after that. engagement perhaps someday soon? i do love him afterall. last week i ran into "bob" again. he showed up at my boyfriend's house. i couldn't exactly leave. he reacted to seeing me by getting really nervous and figety. he and i immediately grabbed a beer. there's so much awkward tension there. it's like neither of us know how to react or what to say. as the day progresses, our nerves go away and we open up. we had so much fun, laughing and talking. but every now and then, we would look into eachother's eyes a second too long and both quickly turn away. i'm TRYING to be a good girlfriend, but you can't deny a connection with someone and this someone just happens to be an attractive guy. if he were a girl, there'd be no problem. at one point, my boyfriend and him were going to run to the grocery store. i said i was going to stay home. HE decided to stay home too. it was the first chance we got to really talk alone. he asked me about my family and hometown. i honestly have no idea how he feels or if he knows how great i think he is. i've caught him checking me out when i've walked by, but he turns away really quickly and looks down at the ground. it's all just really stupid. i secretly wonder if he's in love with me. and i don't mean that to be cocky. sometimes the way he acts seems like he really, genuinely cares about me. in conclusion..... now i can't stop thinking about him. he made me heart melt! so the only answer is to hopefully go the rest of my life without seeing him again. unless of course he turns out to be my soulmate. then i should marry him and have a baby and live happily ever after.
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