poisoned213 Posted June 26, 2007 Posted June 26, 2007 [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]Jesus where do I begin…[/sIZE][/FONT] [sIZE=3][/sIZE] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]I was betrayed.[/sIZE][/FONT] [sIZE=3][/sIZE] [sIZE=3][FONT=Times New Roman]That’s really all that matters I suppose. The how and why and when don’t really matter, do they? What matters is that it happened. [/FONT][/sIZE] [sIZE=3][/sIZE] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]Sam and Davis were people that I trusted. Sure Davis had stuck his nose where it didn’t belong before but I didn’t really expect this. [/sIZE][/FONT] [sIZE=3][/sIZE] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]And Sam, well my god she just fooled everyone. How were we to know that this was a possibility?[/sIZE][/FONT] [sIZE=3][/sIZE] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]It was trust. Trust got me into this. I trusted them to be loyal to me. To be my friends and behave in a way friends behave. After all I never would have done something like this to either of them. It never would have crossed my mind. How am I supposed to place that trust in someone again?[/sIZE][/FONT] [sIZE=3][/sIZE] [sIZE=3][FONT=Times New Roman]So here I am, the victim of this disgusting situation. I freely use the term “victim” because I did nothing to deserve this. I have always been a good friend. Forgetful at times and perhaps even aloof at others but always loyal. I never did anything like this to anyone. [/FONT][/sIZE] [sIZE=3][/sIZE] [sIZE=3][FONT=Times New Roman]And how do I feel? What has been the effect of this whole surreal experience? [/FONT][/sIZE] [sIZE=3][/sIZE] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]I feel like I’ve been poisoned. Like every beat of my heart pumps a sickness through body and I can’t get rid of it. It’s eating away at me from the inside out.[/sIZE][/FONT] [sIZE=3][/sIZE] [sIZE=3][FONT=Times New Roman]So what happens now? [/FONT][/sIZE] [sIZE=3][/sIZE] [FONT=Times New Roman][sIZE=3]Honestly I don’t know. Naturally I keep going. I have friends and family to help me at any time. I know deep down that I’ll trust again. Who knows when but for now I have to figure this out. I go to sleep every night, eventually, and it’s there reminding me and keeping me in this pain. I wake up everyday and it might as well be next to me in bed, smiling it’s sadistic smile and greeting me with “good morning sunshine. Remember me? Don’t you worry about a thing. I’ll be with you all day so you don’t forget.”[/sIZE][/FONT] [sIZE=3][/sIZE] [sIZE=3][FONT=Times New Roman]And it does. If I leave or stay home or take a nap, it follows me like a dark cloud. Only when I’m with friends who are positive and try to make me forget for a while that my worst fear came true do I find some relief. It’s like they have a special aura about them that blocks my cloud and keeps me safe, at least for a while. [/FONT][/sIZE] [sIZE=3][/sIZE] [FONT=Times New Roman]At some point I’m alone again and the cycle continues.[/FONT]
Maags Posted June 28, 2007 Posted June 28, 2007 What did Sam and Davis do to you ? It's hard to know what I think and feel about your situation if I don't know it. Besides, there were some glitches in your post from the forums software. Please post more imformation without trying to get the fonts just right. Thanks
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