Pixie-Minx Posted June 24, 2007 Posted June 24, 2007 hey im not really sure what to say other than....i cant cope anymore.. i nearly did something so stupid last night.. i even wrote the note. i think i just cried myself to exahustion and fell asleep in the end. my ex is tearing me apart, and he doesnt even know it, he is spending time with both the women he cheated on me with. He is so easily being so nasty to me, when 2 weeks ago i was the love of his life..he has mentally abused me so much i cant see out of the fog that has surrounded me. I feel like its all my fault, like i drove him to hate me, that im not good enough, i know somewhere insie me it wasnt my fault, but i cant help feel it was. Its killing me literally, i havent eaten in weeks, i want out of this pain.
funkybassplayer Posted June 24, 2007 Posted June 24, 2007 Oh my god, you know i was feeling crap for two days after getting stronger, now i feel ok again. I did send an email, but very buisness like regarding a cheque. no slush stuff. look you cant think like that, is he worth it? how old are you? Young.....come on dont give in this slimball is not worth a decent girl like you. you can email me if you want bsharpduo'msn.com your not alone on this. i felt like topping myself too, a women 3 kids i loved a way of life i was going to be part of, and she takes it from me and hands it all to someone else. Come on om winning slowley, you have to. BE STRONG these people will get whats coming to them, be sure of that......................
sb129 Posted June 24, 2007 Posted June 24, 2007 YOu guys, I know it hurts, and I know it feels like this pain will never ever go away. But it will, I promise it will. One day you will realise that you are better off without these people who abuse your feelings, and you will be ready to find someone new who treats you with the love and respect you deserve. I have been where you both are now, and I can now look back and think, whew, thank god I am not with THAT LOSER anymore. My ex mentally abused me...... Being away from him was like a fog lifting. Give yourself time, this feeling will come. Look after yourself, and please, if you feel suicidal, post here or call someone. Don't give that loser the satisfaction. You are worth more than that.
Author Pixie-Minx Posted June 24, 2007 Author Posted June 24, 2007 yeah i was the same but its just hit me.. finally realised what happened, im seriously crippled over with the pain in my heart. im 23, added you to my msn, if you wanna chat?
funkybassplayer Posted June 24, 2007 Posted June 24, 2007 Hey sb129 I know that i went through some real bad times with my ex, and i really wasnt happy in the relationship, but somehow these people who emotionally drain you seem to be the ones that we crave after most in a break-up. Why do you think? Im interested. I mean if your g/f says that i should be over my dads death because i was down on v.tines day (day he died) (one tiny thing she did out of loads) Why the hell should i miss her!! They move on to people like victims. They at first are wonderful then 3 months later when your sucked in your hear things, and they change, but its too late by then, your in it, and then they dump you!! Cheeky Bitch! Her loss....................
sb129 Posted June 24, 2007 Posted June 24, 2007 My ex BF treated me like ****E. And I kept going back and back for more until I couldn't do it any longer. FBP, like you, I developed a very close bond with my ex's child, I knew him from 4months old until 15months. He had even started to say my name, and come to me for comfort. But it wasn't a good enough reason to stay with someone who made me so miserable. Trust me, you will feel better. Stay strong, stay NC, and keep posting here, you are not alone.
alasia Posted June 24, 2007 Posted June 24, 2007 Pixie don't even consider harming yourself over that loser (and that's what he is if he dumped you). My ex treated me badly, I did stuff to him too but even though I'm still so gutted over the split and wish we could work things out, I've never thought about 'doing something stupid' - ever. My ex just isn't worth it; it really is his loss and if your ex wants to spend time with the 2 women he cheated on you with, then let him - eventually he'll drop them when he gets bored of them and then there'll be two more women feeling stupid and used. Just be glad you got out of it when you did; you'll get over your hurt and anger, those 2 women have it all to come. I know it all sounds like words to you at the moment, and forgetting an ex that hurt you badly is easier said that done, but you will eventually - I've literally only just (in the past 2 days) started to believe what I've just written here - in the past when I've typed out these kinds of messages, it's been to help the other person and then I went back to sobbing in a corner, eating ice cream and dreaming up ways to get my ex to come back to me! Now I'm truly feeling like HE wasn't worth MY time, not the other way around.
ahah2322 Posted June 24, 2007 Posted June 24, 2007 hey baby girl, please be strong. ive not been through that. but i felt like dying too (not literally but you get the point) after a mutual breakup. the situation must be much worse for you. vicarious i guess. ''i think i just cried myself to exahustion and fell asleep in the end.''- yes ive been through that although i pulled myself together after just 2nights and i hope you can do the same. not easy but please do so for yourself. seriously, you deserve much better. be strong and i know you will see the light soon. ''i haven't eaten in weeks'' please please eat.. gosh do take care of your health. good luck and be well.
vinadetta Posted June 25, 2007 Posted June 25, 2007 Hey, I read your post, and don't worry your not the only one who has been hurt like this, and what your feeling is very real, but you have to believe everyone when they say things will get better!!! It would be great if you posted an update and let everyone know how your doing today!!!! You deserve so much better, and you will find someone better than this!!!! Keep your head up, and know that you are loved by many people
azianpride143 Posted June 26, 2007 Posted June 26, 2007 It's true the pain will eventually fade away. The hard part about what you've been through is accepting what this person did to you and moving on. Yes one moment you were so much in love and in the next this person is a complete stranger. Don't fret. They say time heals all wounds. I've been in your situation before and know. What you need to find is some positive output for all the negative energy your feeling. Remember it's not the end of the world. You just need some time to grieve the loss. Pick yourself up and move on. There are plenty of men out there. So much better than this one.
Author Pixie-Minx Posted June 26, 2007 Author Posted June 26, 2007 Hey all, ok so update i went through the mill and back this weekend....spent time with my best friends and they helped me carry on...for somereason he wouldnt leave my head. i bought 300 pills and wrote the note out again, i even left my brother a list of number to call and what to say. but a friend happened to call me in the nick of time. yesterday i was ok, kept my head above water and avoided the overwhelming temptation to get on msn. then this morning i gave in, i checked his internet profiles....oh god stab through the heart, he posted the most loving pictures of him and this new girl everywhere! kinda black and white looking into the eyes shots, and kissing ones! they look so nice together....my god that hurt! i went mad..walked out of work and just drove an drove. I know i brought it on myself, but i guess i was just hoping things were dying down with him and her so i could contact him. but no he seems to be falling for her, he loves the chase and cos she is a busy young girl he gets it, with me we moved quickly and he wanted to see me all the time, and he got bored, when we backed off he would chase, now i feel bad for not having my own life! but then the first night in 2 weeks i did he met her! its only been 3 weeks since we split and 1.5 since he last said i love you. but he has cut me out of his life. spent all week saying im always here for u but deletes me off all his profiles! anyway i called him and he didnt answer, he text and said he was at work and couldnt talk, i asked when he was on lunch or if he could talk to me after work, after stressing for a few hours i realised nothing good will come of the convo......he doesnt care so when he called over lunch 3 times and text twice, i just watched it ring...do i answer to pain? i dunno i know i threw myself back to square one by seeing those pictures, but i also felt strong by letting him wonder. guess i just want what he said to me to be real.........bt it never was. The pain is too much, i let him back in for a 4th time, after he cheated......how can he have done this to me again!!
azianpride143 Posted June 26, 2007 Posted June 26, 2007 Well at least now you know how bad it feels everytime you try to connect. So the best way to avoid having to go through a painful episode is to stay away and avoid any contact with this person. They say once a cheater always a cheater. You need to wake up and smell the coffee. Your too young to be the fallback person. You need to get over this guy and move on. How many times does he have to hurt you in order for you to wake up? 4x geez. I think you've wasted enough tears for this guy. It's just not worth it.
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