kali420 Posted June 24, 2007 Posted June 24, 2007 [COLOR=black]I have never been an emotional type of guy. After my ex dumped me, I have been. I broke down crying about two or three times since then. Not necessarily for her. She is part of the euation though. Yesterday for example, I was just chatting with my brother on the phone and all of a sudden started crying. I feel like such a wuss when I do that! We started talking about our jobs, and I broke down out of the blue. I could barely speak. My brother was trippin' out on me. I was saying how desperately I wanted to make something of myself. I got a degree and I'm not even using it. I'm 26. I'm not making great money. Don't get me wrong, I am grateful that I do have work. My dream is to travel the world. My plans were to be able to that by now. But I won't stop chasing my dreams. I'm just kind of stuck right now. Lost. It feels like I'm having a mid-life crisis at 26. I’m uncertain of myself and my future. It scares me. I haven't had a long-term relationship ever. So I tend to always think something’s wrong with me. I think that I'm unlovable. Maybe I'm just looking too hard. Expecting every girl I date to be "the one". My self image is twisted and my self-esteem is low. I'm depressed. A million thoughts race through my head all the time it seems. I wish I could just snap out of it already. I'm so tired of feeling like this. [/COLOR]
jackmerridew Posted June 24, 2007 Posted June 24, 2007 Like you said, it's probably anxiety from your dissatisfaction with your life. I dunno. For me, I've always been kind of a settle-down guy. Guys like are us are just the kinda nice guys that are insecure, and we just want that security through our jobs and our relationships. I'm lucky to have a lot of friends. However I also date girls hoping they're going to be the one, no matter how they're a bad fit for me logically. I just keep hoping I could settle down, and I always think about the future and how I could make the present serve that future. I also fear uncertainty. It's why I decided to pursue my own career so aggressively, and now I have the job I've always thought I wanted. It's a great job too, with decent money. But I seem to be lacking in my relationships. My current girlfriend and I are on the verge of breaking up, if we haven't already broken up already, and it's tearing me apart to think that me, a 25-year-old career man, can't seem to hold down a relationship. I am easily one of the most successful men among my peers, and I can't keep this girl? I feel stuck too pal, and I'm just right at the beginning of the break-up phase, and every minute is heavier than the last. My chest feels perpetually caved in, my arms are numb and I can't see straight most of the time, even when I'm not drinking myself to a stupor. I'm going to have one final drinking binge tonight, and it will be my last because tomorrow I'm going to do what you did. I'm going to say, "Jack, you're a likable guy, and there's nothing wrong with you, except that you need to hit the gym!" And I'll do exactly that. It will be with lead shoes, since I probably would still not have heard from my girlfriend by tomorrow (she hasn't called me in three days). But what can I do except live on, and prepare my body for the next girl. I'm sorry you feel this way, and I'm sorry I feel this way too. I know how you feel: I want to take a magic pill that will just make me forget it all, or use that machine from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind to forget this. But I can't, and my days will be filled with suffering.
oavada Posted June 24, 2007 Posted June 24, 2007 youre depressed...the only thing i can say is just try to get your energy back up or try an anti-depressant...more exercise and more focus..anything you can do to get your energy and motivation back up and flowing.
funkybassplayer Posted June 24, 2007 Posted June 24, 2007 Hi its pk and normal to be like this. I have been dumped by my ex and her 3 kids, i miss them all so much. I dont have contact with them. I m ok some days then, wollop it just hits me and i get tearful. Its normal, and means like me your a caring guy. It takes ages for the pain to pass and i have been tearful at gigs and at home, and stuff. Theres no point trying to fight it just let it all come out man. There are still some cool girls out there that want a caring guy.
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