funkybassplayer Posted June 23, 2007 Posted June 23, 2007 The last time i spoke to my ex, i said i was getting better and moving on and had a couple of dates (all true) but the last couple of days i have been feeling crap. She is now in a new relationship, and seems happy. I feel that although true, it was wrong to say this, as i really do still miss her. I have not contacted her now for a few weeks, and sometimes i feel that i want her to know im still missing her and the kids. I dont know why, but i know that im on this up and down ride at the moment. I feel that i want to date, and when it comes to it, i back out. Maybe im not ready to date. I hate the fact that i may never speak to her or the kids again, and finding it hard. one day i feel good and rid of this women, next i feel sad and really missing her. it always seems to happen at weekends, and days that i know shes home on her own. It was long distance. I have been in no contact out of respect for her and the new relationship, but sometimes im really suffering and want to send an email or text, as i felt that i still have so much to say and whenever i did talk to her since the split, i paint a pic of a guy thats moving ion, and at the time i guess its how i was feeling. This woman seems to have such a hold over me, i dont know what it is. Maybe its male pride, or ego, or the fact that shes happy without me. I do see her on msn, but just sighn off, and i havent been on it for ages. I know i have to respect her new relationship, but at the same time i want her to know that i am still missing her and the kids. Do you think i should email or text? I know i sound weak, but i havent texted her or anything as yet. Why do i remember all the good so much, and its eating away at me, when she came to my gigs and camping, its this time of year last year that we were really blossoming. I really thought that she was the one for life, and wanted to pace things. Do we all go through this or am i haveing it really bad? Right up till the last night of our relationship and after for 2 weeks, we were so attracted to each other, and even when she met this guy (i never knew at first) She still liked talking intimate with me. I guess she reall y F.............d my head up. Its not the loss of the relationship, its the loss of her as a person that i miss. Thats a good way to put it. Also i sent back all her stuff with no note, and im thinking that she maybe thinks i have closed the door, which is'nt true. I guess i must seem pretty tough to her no contact and sent all her stuff back, but over here im haveing an up n down ride of emotion.
Pixie-Minx Posted June 23, 2007 Posted June 23, 2007 Hey funky, sunds like your really going through it, bt dont worry your not alone, its so natural to be fine for a while and then suddenly it can hit you later on.. i hae had just that happend to me this weekend. What do you hope to achieve from this contact it you make it..? in your gut how do you think she will react?
AriaIncognito Posted June 23, 2007 Posted June 23, 2007 FBP, I am totally right there with you. I understand how hard it is. I too am on an emotional roller coaster. One day, I'll feel self assured and know that one day, my turn will come and I'll find that certain someone. My ex is seeing someone now too. He met her like one week after the last time we slept together. He was all happy and told me what a good date he had, and well, since then I've been no contact. He's not tried contacting me even though I didn't say "no contact" to him, and often I wonder if he's thinking about me or whatever, but well, what good does it do us even if they are thinking of us. Fact of the matter is, they chose to no longer maintain their end of the relationships, and we are no longer with them. It's so hard to move forward. One day I feel ready to look for someone to date, the next I think I'm insane to think I'm near that. I'm babbling. I guess I just wanted to show you that you're not alone in this. It's terribly hard. Sometimes I wish I could bottle the "good days" feeling and take it whenever I'm having a day (or 12) as I've had lately. Don't you?
Author funkybassplayer Posted June 24, 2007 Author Posted June 24, 2007 Thanks girls. Iv just come back from a wedding (played) Today i feel so much more confident agian, with a possible date for tom, altough im not sure ill go for it as im not sure she s for me! but may just go for the hell of it! Well i sent ex an email, but it was just regarding a cheque that i sent, which is now no good as i have changed banks, but that was it. Could'nt be arsed to get into missing you baby and all that! (i guess she knows that anyway) Hope you both are ok, and thanks for the words, its kind of good to know that im just going through normal stages. Today im haveing a 'thank god im out of it day' ! I think to be honest, i would like to be friends to say hi now and again to her and the kids. I dont want the relationship again, thats for sure.
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