Pixie-Minx Posted June 21, 2007 Posted June 21, 2007 Hey Peeps, not sure who is familier with my story, but for some reason today i have been feeling terrible! Im only 5 days into NC but was feeling so liberated and suddenly i cant stop thinking of him, the urge to get on msn tonight or check his profile is overwhelming but i know that if i do it will only hurt me more! I know in my head that this guy is severaly messed up inthe head and so not right for me, but i cant stop my heart being torn apart and wanting so badly to reach out to him. If anyone there can give me some advice that will be amazing :-) xx
Living_For_Me Posted June 22, 2007 Posted June 22, 2007 Pixie One of the things i have done to help me through the almost uncontrollable urge to call my ex is to step back and take a look at the action i'm about to undertake and what the outcome will be. This is much easier said than done, however it does work and you do feel stronger for having resisted the urge to contact the ex. There was a time where i would look at my Ex's Myspace page atleast once a day. It was a horrible habit because it would just send all those feelings coming back. One day when i was about to open up her page, i just asked myself what will be the outcome of what i'm about to do? Answer: I would feel like **** and waste time thinking about her. Do i want that? NO.
Author Pixie-Minx Posted June 22, 2007 Author Posted June 22, 2007 Well unfortuantly i gave in and loked at his profiles last night...i came to the conclusion that if i forced myself to deal with the pain of seeing him with another girl, then it would be like ripping off a bandaid. My god did it hurt!!!!!!!!!!!!! But then he appeared on msn, i was about to log off and he sent me a hello (up popped a lovely picture of him and his gf!) i sat for a minute and tried to decide what to do, eventually i said hi back. He said " i dont wanna kick of or anything but why did your brother text me?" Story here being my brother had had enough, he never gets involved but he sent a message to my ex last week sticking up for me and my ex never replied. so it was a bit of oa stupid question on my ex's part really, it was glaringlty obvious, anyway i just said did he? and he replied no i made it up! (cheeky sod!) so i replied he never mentioned it and shut my computer off. arrrrrrrrrrgggggggggghhhhhhhhhhh that was so pointless why did he bother other than to shove that picture in my face, i mean what did he expect me to say, cos your an arse and people other than me have had enough! or was he just testing to see if i would talk to him..? It hurts but i guess like i said dealing with it all in one go now will be easier than getting hit hard later!
vivrantflo Posted June 22, 2007 Posted June 22, 2007 You say you were in no contact for five days, yet this guy is on your msn list.. why?? He didn't shove the picture in your face cause you're allowing yourself to see it. Block and delete him.. why is he on there?? and why are you looking at his profiles? You know he's dating, so what's the point of hurting yourself by looking at the pictures. You can't be mad at him, it's all on you. You're hurting yourself. Stop looking at his profiles, and take him off your msn list. No contact, means no contact!
Author Pixie-Minx Posted June 22, 2007 Author Posted June 22, 2007 To Be honest i had forgot he was on thier, he always goes and deltes me off all interente connections everytime we break up so i forgot about him being there! so it was a bit of shock when he signed on. I guess like i said i though the best bet was deal with it in one hit rather than put it off, if i didnt look i know my friends would have and told me..we are all very interent connected! The guy, was with this girl a week after splitting with me while on the phone telling me he loved me! he does all he can to screw with my head, (on and off for months cheating lying) but your right i guess, if i put myself in the situation to be hurt i cant blame him, even if he knows what he is doing.
alasia Posted June 22, 2007 Posted June 22, 2007 that was so pointless why did he bother other than to shove that picture in my face, i mean what did he expect me to say, cos your an arse and people other than me have had enough! or was he just testing to see if i would talk to him..? He was testing you I reckon. Men can be idiots...my ex loves telling me how much he hates me, he's still controlling my life to some extent because he's a bus driver (on the bus I have to catch into town on a friday and saturday night), but now he keeps swapping his shifts round so he appears on seemingly every bus I go to get on! He does it deliberately then won't just let me get on and sit quietly at the back, he has to say "don't talk to me" (wasn't planning to!) or something equally snide. Last time I spoke to him was the other day when again he'd appeared on a bus he shouldn't have been on and he decided to accuse me of sleeping with another ex! Like it's got anything to do with him what I do...it's just a control/ego thing, my ex thought what he said would get me wondering if he still had feelings for me, your ex made pointless contact to see if you'd reply.
Author Pixie-Minx Posted June 22, 2007 Author Posted June 22, 2007 He was testing you I reckon. your ex made pointless contact to see if you'd reply. i think your right....there was no need for it, if he was that bothered he could of called or text or shown up but no he hid behind msn as usual. i replied, but i was short and sharp. (probably bothered him more) made the decsion to stay away from msn now when i know he has access for a few weeks give myself time to heal.
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