Scotty Boy Posted June 18, 2007 Posted June 18, 2007 Well the short version of all the background stuff is i never went outside, i really was anti social and completely devoid of any social life. But thanks to kind words and encouragement from everyone on a forum, i felt alot better about myself and decided to go outside. At first it was just small stuff like i offered to go outside and go to the shop to get milk and/or bread for my mom (should have seen her face when i said i would actually go outside ) Now where i live theres a skatepark on the way to the grocery store on the corner and id always glance across cause the people there at least looked kinda like me. Well after a couple months of just goign back and forth to the store to pick stuff up, i was becoming more confident and even looking up at people as i passed, sometimes saying hello (sounds lame but this was a HUGE step) Well some relatives from a long way away came to visit for a weekend so i was pinned with the job of keeping my 15 and 13 year olds cousins entertained, (15 was a boy 13 girl) At first we played on my cousins new wii in the living room, just wanna say now i totalyl rock at bowling, but pretty soon everyone was tired of the kids running bout the living room and they wanted me to take em outside somewhere. My cousin found out theres a skate park near by and turns out hes into skateboarding so im forced to take em there. I kinda panicked, i mean id walked past there before but never really gone in or talked to anyone, this was a massive step i wasnt ready for. Wasnt up to me though so my cousin grabbed his skateboard out the car and we started walking down there, i was serioulsy almost shaking, this was scary for me. Jacob (bored of calling him my cousin now lol other ones called Jasmin btw) was off straight away which just left me and Jasmin to go sit on the grass and talk off the side of the skate park. There were a fair few other people about using the sakte park since it was a nice day and then a pretty large group of people talking and jokin off in the other corner. So im chatting to Jasmin about school and how shes doing (she had a crush on some guy, was kinda cute she was askign me for advice) andi m lookign across at these people chatting when i hear a huge thud and see my nephew lieing on the side of a ramp. I rush over to see if hes ok, turns out to just be a minor fal nothing too major to worry about, he hurt his leg a bit so i help him across back to Jasmin. A few minutes later some of the group come over and check if hes ok. The group that came over wasnt alot from the people who were standing in the corner talking but there was 5 or 6 of them, a couple were gusy but the other 4 were girls since most of the guys were out on the skate park. They were just asking if Jacob was ok and stuff when one of the girls says sehs seen me about and asks if i lived near by. Naturally i make up some excuse saying i moved here a while ago and been busy with exams and school work which is why ive only been out a little bit and not very often. We start talking and the rest of the people who came over start chatting as well. Well eventually they go back over to the rest of the group and invite us to come, im absolutely petrified at this point, i really dont do well in social situations but before i can make an excuse my cousins Jasmins like "yea sure " So we head over and start talking and to my surpise, its actually going pretty well, turns out they like the same music so i tried talking about that and it was great Honestly guys i cant even describe what i was feeling, these people, who id never met before just accepted me, and talked to me, treated me as one of their own it was ****ing magic, id never felt better before. Jacob starts talking to one of the older guys, something about tricks on a skateboard, i was totally lost and jasmin was talking to some of the girls, we blended in so well, sorry to go on but you have no idea how amazing it was. One of the girls, her name was Emily, was absolutely amazing, we ended up having alot in common and she was so beautiful, i swear i saw Jasmin giving sly smiles at me so musta been fairly obvious Well after bout 3 hours or so i had to leave to take my cousins back for dinner and just as were leaving Emily grabs my arm and asks if ill be out again tomorrow or if i had more work to do. I just stood there speechless, this was a girl, an attractive girl, the perfect girl asking ME if i was coming back, i was totally stunned >.< Luckily Jasmin spoke up "yea hes finished most of it now, hell be here tomorrow" i was just like " uhhhh yea got the main part done thikn ive earned a break " as we were walking home Jasmin couldnt stop looking at me and giggling "What?" "hehe you like her dont you" What could i say, she was right, id only met this girl today but i was totally entranced :$ So i go back the next day and Emily's there and she looks even more amazing than yesterday I dont have my cousins with me today so feeling kinda nervous and vunerable today but i carry on anyway, this girl has me totally mesmerised and im not gonan give up that easy. When i got over there i suddenly felt so comfortable, it was just like yesterday, everyone just talked to me as normal, i was even greeted when i went over there We were talking like i had known them for years it was so awesome. One of the people who skateboarded offered me his board to try it out after i said id never tried it but uhh, well i didnt wanna makea fool of myself infront of Emily so i turned him down lol I jsut sat and talked to Emily nearly all day it was so good, it turned out she liked near enough the same music as me and she had such a brilliant sense of humour, i think the rest of em kinda noticed we were flirting with eachother all day and she gave me her msn so i could chat to her on there and i also added her on myspace. After that i spent nearly all my free time talking to her online, we were inseperable. Fast forward a few weeks and while were out one day, one of the other guys (was Dan but names not important) jokes and says "so when you just gonna grow some balls and ask her out" i straight away went bright red and kinda looked at the floor :$ but i noticed she was blushing too. By now i had become a fair bit more self confident so i thought screw it, now or never and asked her if she would wanna go out. Admittadly in ALOT more clumsy way, but she said yes. YES I TELL YOU it was amazing it was the single greatest feeling id ever had up to this point. After all my life of being rejected and never accepted by any girl this amazing beautiful girl said yes, perfect in every way, an angel trapped on earth, the walking entity of beauty xD The relationship was going great and we were both really happy so when it came to her 15th birthday i decided to take her out to one of the local gigs. Was one of our friends bands playing along with a great band from nearby she liked, i had started to going to the local gigs again thanks to my friends band (had to go support ) This was fairly recently and its here where things start to go wrong for us By now our relationship was getting pretty serious, she was a catholic (not really hardcore she went to a normal school but she attended curch every sunday which i thought was cute ^^) and i was her first proper boyfriend. A few times she had said she loved me and had hinted towards..... well ya know. We met up at her house for the gig along with a few other people, it was only at the bar at the end of the road but it was nice to meet up and all go together. This gig was sorta planned for her birthday and so she got dressed up for it. Wow, just wow, it was the only words to describe how she looked, i had never seen her look so beautiful before. When i told her she was kinda embaressed but she really appreciated the comment, but she said she'd repay me for it later As the night went on she was really enjoying herself and so was i, we were all drinking a little and she kept giving more comments like before and getting really close to me. I somehow knew it, finally it was that night When all the bands had finished and we had helped pack up our friends bands gear, i walked Emily home. She had drunk a bit much and had a lil trouble walking lol, so i got her home and managed to keep her quiet and upright and took her up to her room. When she got in she just flopped onto the bed, i could tell the way she was sprawled out this was it so i crawled up on her bed next to her and kissed her on the cheek. She smiled at me and, well ill spare you the details. She jokingly pushed me away at first which was really sweet, it was a really weak push so she didnt mean it, and mumbled something. I didnt know alot about catholics but i had tried to learn a little bit about her religion and remembered they were agaisnt contraception so i made sure not to use it to respect her beleifs. She tried stopped me at one point, i think she was feeling sick so i just grabebd her a bucket from the broom closet jsut incase, i wanted it all to go ok. Afterwards she was just crying her eyes out so i cried too, it was so beautiful it moved us both i think. I left afterwards cause i think she wanted to get some sleep and to be honest i was exhausted too. After that night though, she wont talk to me, ive tried sending messages, phoning, going to her hosue, everything. She wont see me though and im afraid maybe i was so bad she doesnt want to see me anymore, im totally lost without her and now cause shes stopped talking to me all my friends have as well, im reverting back to how i was staying in all the time. I dont know what ive done and she along with everyoen else has blocked me on MSN. I need help guys, what did i do and how can i make everything alright again?
Steveto Posted June 18, 2007 Posted June 18, 2007 and kissed her on the cheek. She smiled at me and, well ill spare you the details. She jokingly pushed me away at first which was really sweet, it was a really weak push so she didnt mean it, and mumbled something. I didnt know alot about catholics but i had tried to learn a little bit about her religion and remembered they were agaisnt contraception so i made sure not to use it to respect her beleifs. She tried stopped me at one point, i think she was feeling sick so i just grabebd her a bucket from the broom closet jsut incase, i wanted it all to go ok. Afterwards she was just crying her eyes out so i cried too, it was so beautiful it moved us both i think. I left afterwards cause i think she wanted to get some sleep and to be honest i was exhausted too. After that night though, she wont talk to me, ive tried sending messages, phoning, going to her hosue, everything. She wont see me though and im afraid maybe i was so bad she doesnt want to see me anymore, im totally lost without her and now cause shes stopped talking to me all my friends have as well, im reverting back to how i was staying in all the time. I dont know what ive done and she along with everyoen else has blocked me on MSN. I need help guys, what did i do and how can i make everything alright again? well...that was loooong to say the least, but I think this mess up was permanent...maybe write her a note or something and make it SHORT because she is not about to read a novel. At this point - " and kissed her on the cheek. She smiled at me and, well ill spare you the details." you really should have backed off..if anything..crash on the floor or sleep but nothing else. That was just a friendly hint to say..hey..that was sweet, but nope. Next time let the girl make the move... "tried to learn a little bit about her religion and remembered they were agaisnt contraception so i made sure not to use it to respect her beleifs. She tried stopped me at one point" I'm sorry..don't want to be harsh..how old are you? Catholic..if she is devout wouldn't go that way until AFTER marriage. But hey..this is the 21st century...My speculation..you probably took her virginity and being slightly drunk on her bday isn't exactly how I would have liked to remember my first time.. nonononono...I don't want to say it..but you need to know that this was borderline date rape..you gotta be careful..maybe she went for it..I don't know...if she cried afterwards, I don't think it was in happiness..more like sh*t...what did I do...so maybe she blames herself as much as she blames you..but she's mad that you didn't have the brains to say no. Did you try to continue after she stopped you? I have been in similar situations...when alcohol is involved..uhuh..no way..actually one time I did take a drunk girl home..put her in bed..kissed her on the chek and said "later"..THEN she said..."wow..you're such a nice guy" then the next day..she asked a mutual friend of ours.."is Steve gay?"..like WTF? I just had to laugh. I screwed up many times in my life and have been burned by women on all sides..This is something you will have to learn to deal with..don't keep it bottled up..this crap will make you go crazy. Learn your lesson... my 2 cents
Author Scotty Boy Posted June 18, 2007 Author Posted June 18, 2007 Yea apolagies about the length but you needed to know the whole background. Im 19 almost, i just really wanted to make sure it was perfect so i didnt wanna risk annoying her over her religion. Now i think back i guess she did try and stop me, at one point she rolled over and crawled forward but i though it was just an invitation to try anal so i just put her head over the edge of the bed incase she needed to hurl and went for it.
halfarock Posted June 18, 2007 Posted June 18, 2007 Im 19 …her 15th birthday… i walked Emily home. She had drunk a bit much and had a lil trouble walking… She jokingly pushed me away at first which was really sweet, it was a really weak push so she didnt mean it… She tried stopped me at one point, i think she was feeling sick so i just grabebd her a bucket from the broom closet… at one point she rolled over and crawled forward but i though it was just an invitation to try anal so i just put her head over the edge of the bed incase she needed to hurl and went for it… Afterwards she was just crying her eyes out And, you can’t figure out why she doesn’t want to talk to you anymore? You need help, prison time, and a severe beating.
Author Scotty Boy Posted June 18, 2007 Author Posted June 18, 2007 I dont understand, i thought she was ready for this, she was flirting with me ALL NIGHT and she's the one who said she needed to go to bed. I thought this was what she wanted
Steveto Posted June 18, 2007 Posted June 18, 2007 1. yeah it's for real .. 2. if you aren't sure..don't do it..and if she even in the slightest gives you a sign to stop..YOU STOP..now I'm sounding like a goddamn commercial 3. really...let the woman make the first move, though some would rather have the guy make the first move.. 4. USE PROTECTION ALL THE TIME..even if god doesn't want you too..Well, some women don't like it..so if she says no protection...use your judgement.. 5. Get some female friends..they can give you some decent insight. 6. I suggest you move or hang out in a different part of town. 7. now you'll never get to be president 8. Try dating women closer to your age..although difficult for me because I look 10 years younger. 9. If her parents find out..you're toast 10. I would not suggest locking yourself up in a closet again, but think a bit more before you do and I would study to become a lawyer if I were you..just in case.
jcster Posted June 19, 2007 Posted June 19, 2007 Now i think back i guess she did try and stop me, at one point she rolled over and crawled forward but i though it was just an invitation to try anal so i just put her head over the edge of the bed incase she needed to hurl and went for it. Are you really that out of it? I think maybe you are. This is what happens when people watch porn before they've even had sex. she's the one who said she needed to go to bed Needing to go to bed does not mean the same thing as wanting to have sex. I'm going to give you the benefit of the doubt and assume that you really didn't understand that what you were doing was wrong. But it was. You can't fix this - so do both of you a favor and don't contact her again.
frygirl Posted June 19, 2007 Posted June 19, 2007 This thread has made me physically ill. I hope this is just some one's idea of a joke to get people all riled up. If not, then the OP should be in jail right now. He raped a girl who repeatedly tried to get him to stop but was too drunk to fight him off. I really hope this isn't true. I feel horrible for that girl.
torranceshipman Posted June 19, 2007 Posted June 19, 2007 Yea FryGirl, I feel the same, this is just so awful and sick - it's a horrible story and I really feel so, so sorry for the girl.
Author Scotty Boy Posted June 19, 2007 Author Posted June 19, 2007 How was i to know though? everything pointed to it being the right time. I enjoyed it so maybe she did too really? She was all over me all night she must have wanted to do it too
Nezero Posted June 20, 2007 Posted June 20, 2007 WOAH, this looks bad, very bad. Firstly your 19 and you were dating a 14 year old (15 yr old now I guess). Secondly I assume you bought her alcohol or either that its legal whereever or the place was dodgy. Thirdly WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFf, you know rapists enjoy raping people but does that mean the victim likes it? Alcohol + girl usually equals more flirty girl. DOESN't mean she wants sex. How can everything have pointed to it being the right time? I mean she's drunk, possible throwing up it means it sexy time?
LucreziaBorgia Posted June 20, 2007 Posted June 20, 2007 You misread things so terribly. She pushed you away because she didn't want to have sex. I'm not sure why you would read that as "joking". She tried to stop you because she didn't want to have sex. I'm not sure why you would read that as "her feeling sick". You assumed she didn't want to use protection because she is Catholic. Now she could be pregnant, and one or both of you could be carrying an STD (unless you were virgins, and then that would be bad because she lost her virginity to someone who date raped her - this will scar her likely for life). Afterward, she cried. I would too if I had been raped by someone who didn't use a condom. Doubly so if I were a virgin. Then you left, assuming she needed sleep. That, to her looks like you raped her and left her alone afterward. Her not talking to you is the least of your worries. Right now, I would be thinking more about pregnancy and a jail sentence. Regardless of your perception and what you think, your "perfect date" was a date rape, and you can be put away for a long time.
PinkAngelStar Posted June 20, 2007 Posted June 20, 2007 This thread makes me feel physically sick too. It's horrible.
grape Posted June 20, 2007 Posted June 20, 2007 The loli in question was clearly leading you on, and you had every right to hit it 'til it was raw.
Steveto Posted June 20, 2007 Posted June 20, 2007 Oh, I sooo don't like where this is going..I was light on you, but the fact is...this happens more often than people think...unfortunately, I think it is our education system failing the young adults of today....but I just came back from a great day and don't want to crash my parade. I will leave it at that.
BoBs Posted June 20, 2007 Posted June 20, 2007 You absolutley did the right thing. She clearly wanted to have sex with you regardless of what it looks like right now. Most likley she is just to embaresed to talk to you right now. Perhaps if you went to her house you might be able to help her get over her embaresment.
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