funkybassplayer Posted June 17, 2007 Posted June 17, 2007 Today i was having a bit of a downer i was missing my ex and her kids. and started thinking, what do i miss about her..... I put my time to use and i have been doing research and found out that my ex was truly high maintenace, the internet pages described her to a t. An energy vampire. In the relationship, she did drain me of all my enegy with her constant aggression and her generally being a real hard cookie to be with, It made me feel better as i stuck this person for a year and a half, and her mad ex hubby and her family, that says lots about me, and her. Yes i miss the kids, and today i had a bit of a downer, but im feeling better now, much better! . Is it the challange that i miss or her??? hmmm im starting to wonder. Am i still full of high energy that i had to have with this woman? Lets see how well the new guy copes! im sure she will poke her head up again at some point, but im done with her. She could'nt love me, or anyone, she didnt know how to love her self! I do. I did the best thing last week i put all her stuff in a package and send it back, no note, and i havent spoke to her since!!
Tony T Posted June 17, 2007 Posted June 17, 2007 It sounds like you're moving on. We always miss people, even though they weren't good for us. If a rattle snake was out in the front yard every morning for years as you left for work and then one day you never saw it again, you would miss it...even though its poisonous venom could kill you. Missing someone is normal. We tend to just think about how it could have been or how we would have wanted it to be instead of the reality of what it was. It seems you are getting very near the point of realizing the futility of that relationship and soon you'll feel the great high of being rid of her and on your way to happiness. Sometimes we even get addicted to pain and remember nothing else. We only feel right when we return to it. Right now, you may be in that place. Soon, you will see what it is to be stable, content and happy with yourself and your life. You have a lot to look forward to.
Author funkybassplayer Posted June 17, 2007 Author Posted June 17, 2007 thank you. I have seen myself go through so many emotions in the past weeks, im no kid at 41, but this relationship end, really kicked me where it hurts, but i really feel now more and more that she lost me. Last night i was doing a gig (im a bass player) and i was thinking im cool, and this is one thing she loved, was me playing, and now she's lost that too, and she will miss me, and i am a good guy capable of giving my all. When she dumped me, she also beat me to the ground, but i really have picked myself up, and dusted off and starting to belive in me again. I dont think she could ever had made me happy, and as the fog is clearing, im seeing a better future for me.
JCD Posted June 18, 2007 Posted June 18, 2007 Your heart is telling you one thing and your head another. You need to listen to your head and at first your heart will be winning but then as more time passes your head will pull ahead and you'll feel better. I know about these emotional vampires, they suck the life out of you. They need to fix themselves before involving another.
AriaIncognito Posted June 18, 2007 Posted June 18, 2007 FBP - I'm sorry to hear you've been having a bit of a tough time of things, but it truly sounds as if you've got your head on straight and are doing things which will lead you to happiness. I can't offer the solution, but just wanted to offer the support. I hope each day finds you (and me and all other LSers) stronger.
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