Og fool Posted June 14, 2007 Posted June 14, 2007 This morning after the my workout I was in the kitchen and it hit me I was in a good mood. Singing, not crying, doing dishes, feeding the dog, not crying, etc. Then the wife comes back from her run and I was actually able to control my wanting for a hug or kiss. Could I finally be accepting the almost positive upcoming divorce. She dropped me off at work and I gave a wave goodbye and again able to resist wanting to give her a kiss. Please tell me the bad days will be gone soon:)?
IfWishesWereHorses Posted June 14, 2007 Posted June 14, 2007 Good for you OG. You know, as acceptance gradually begins to take the place of hope then you get to a better and better place. Then you start to dig deep and learn who you are and remember what it is that you love so much about being you. THAT DOES NOT MEAN that there won't be bad days or set backs, but if you continue to practice acceptance it gets easier. There are days though that for no apparent reason I can't conjure up "pollyanna" anywhere, then in a day or two she's back and the times between her absences get larger and larger. It takes some retraining of the way that you are used to thinking and it gets easier with practice and then before you know it, it becomes second nature! Good for your good day. My mantra to myself is, today is your day (24 hours and I can be as happy or miserable as I decide come what may.) Its just a little empowering when you find out that in the end you really do have control over your own outlook and mood.
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