fordman95 Posted June 13, 2007 Posted June 13, 2007 havent talked to the ex in about a week now.she used to call or IM me everyday.i said a few things that i shouldnt have said one night and havent heard from her since.everything was fine,she was being all nice and lovey till this one night.she started the IM and was trying to get me mad for some reason.why would she do this?well since she stopped talking to me i started getting emails and phone calls from her sisters boyfriend.only contact ive made with the ex was emailing everything he sent me and all my replys to him to her.was kinda hopeing that he was telling her one thing and telling me another and she would catch him.then she would know i wasnt lieing about what him and the sister said to me.if it worked or not,i dont know. but anyways.i had a few drinks last night and wanted to call her.well i cant make calls on my cell phone at the moment.maybe thats a good thing.but when she signs on to aol i want to IM her but dont cuz i dont know what to say or what she would say. after all weve been through together,all ive done for her and the kids i dont understand how she can just get up,move out and forget about me.or say she doesnt love me.weve been together for 7 years.had a son together.wich was the biggest thing she has ever wanted cuz her first son died a month after he was born.even if i wanted to see my son on fathers day i couldnt.she is leaving for florida friday night for a week and is takeing him with her. what do i do?what do i say?do i just give up on life and love?give up on her and the kids? she said she wanted to spend the rest of her life with me.3 months ago she wanted a new washer,dryer and stove.she was gonna buy them.i told her "dont bother cuz you will be leaving me in a month or 2"she said "im not going anywhere,i want to be with you" and she bought them anyways.now look where we are.i dont know why she is doing this to me.everything i do reminds me of her and the kids cuz it was what i did for them.i didnt go out and work for me,i did it for them.i didnt fix thing in the house for me.i did it all for them.i couldve cared less about me i had to make sure they had everything they wanted or needed.everything in this house reminds me of them cuz i bought it all for them.i could never bring another girl home with me cuz this was all for my family and it wouldnt feel right.
Author fordman95 Posted June 13, 2007 Author Posted June 13, 2007 after writing the first post here i get an email from here that sadi nothing but "XBOX"so i checked my messages on the XBOX website and there is a message from heragain saying nothing but "XBOX"we both have xbox 360s where we can play and talk to people live online.i was a little hesitant on turning it on.but i did.so while doing a few other things i get a game invite from her.i was thinking about shutting it off but i had to go play with her and see what she wanted.i didnt say alot.she said "you know im mad and upset with you,right?"i said ya.and she said it was because i told her sister and her boyfriends some things that she told me not to tell them.i said "i figured that since you were only telling them what you wanted them to know,and since i was getting phone calls and emails from the sisters boyfriend saying i was harrassing you and threatening you that maybe they should know everything".a few minutes later she asks"wheres my dog?" i said oh MY dog is in the bed where shes been since you left.and she says "well i see your attitude hasnt changed".so i asked her what am i supposed to do?be happy about all of this?got no answer. i knew i shouldnt have turned the xbox on.oh well just adds more to my confusion i guess.
dbtmarley Posted June 13, 2007 Posted June 13, 2007 It's a conspiracy I tell you! You should ask her if she knows anything about the Kennedy assassination.
Author fordman95 Posted June 15, 2007 Author Posted June 15, 2007 other than the wise crack comments can somebody help me figure out what in the world she wants? last night(wednesday night)she called.i didnt answer and she called again a few minutes later<again i didnt answer.she wasnt online when i got home.so i emailed her in the morning just to tell her i missed her call.she wasnt online all morning till i left.i get home and check the status of the email i sent her and her myspace to see if she has been online at all.email is unread,and hasnt been on her myspace.now im wondering if something happened and going nuts cuz i didnt answer her calls.i finaly heard from her half hour ago through IMs.all that was said was hi,whats up and im tired good night.no conversation about anything.i told her i missed her call and said good night back. so here i am agian going nuts wondering if there is something she is trying to say,doesnt know how to say it or wants me to say something????i wish she would just come out and say whatever it is that she wants.i have an idea of what it is but wiating for her to say it or do it.she is supposed to be leaving for florida friday night.but i think she may have left last night but not sure yet.if she is trying to tell me she wants to come back she knows the door is open for her.i already told her that.but she knows what to do if she definately wants to end it with me.guess ill have to wait to see what she does while in florida.but im so freekin confused cuz of all the mixed signals from her.well they arent really mixed,everything she has said or done and the looks on her face and in her eyes,the tone of her voice and her body language all point to the same thing,it seems like she wants to come home.i just dont know why she wont.
dbtmarley Posted June 15, 2007 Posted June 15, 2007 Sorry about that fordman, I think it was very immature on my part. I do not know what her problem is..
Author fordman95 Posted June 15, 2007 Author Posted June 15, 2007 although i c see that im not getting much help here im gonna post anyways cuz it gets it off my chest for a few minutes i talked to her this morning through IMs.again from the few times weve talked this week i am getting the feeling that she wants to come back.but the tattoo issue is standing in the way of it. long story short.my dad got tattoos when he was younger,hes got Hepatitus C and so does my mom.doctors are 90% positive he got it from a tattoo and are 100% positive my mom got it from him now the ex knows this and knows my feelings about it.but she acts and says it dont matter to her and she is getting one anyways.i told her if she does we are definately over.but she says "Maybe someday u candeal with it if not then im sorry i do understand ur point but i want one".so i would take that to mean she does want to come back but wont if i cant deal with the tattoo. ok well there are other issues as well.i told her i would deal with the rest of the issues that bother me.but i am only asking her for one thing.and for some reason she cant compromise on it like im willing to compromise on about 20 other issues. she knows how i feel.she knows if she does it there is no hope for comeing back to me.do you guys think she will do it?maybe she will get to the place and think about and decide not too?im opeing that she doesnt do it.i love her and she loves me.but i dont know as im not there with her.is there anything you guys can think of that i could say to sway her in the right direction?ive exhausted every thing i have. heres the conversation from this morning and earlier tonight.i started the conversation this morning.
Author fordman95 Posted June 15, 2007 Author Posted June 15, 2007 for some reason it didnt work.i tried to post the IM.
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