funkybassplayer Posted June 11, 2007 Posted June 11, 2007 today i took back control over my life. After 5 weeks of pain, hope, anger, and greaving, i sent all of my exs stuff back with a note saying i miss you all and you know where i am should you need me. Now no more waiting for a text or an email, she has her stuff and now i can move on. She wanted friendship after the split, i did not,she cryed, i agreed,after two weeks of our breakup she met someone new, and then threw the promise of being able to see the kids, and being there and friendship in my face. I still wanted conact as i was very close to her kids, but realised that it was making me depressed. So today i put it all in a pack, and sent it back. Her c.ds money i owed her dvd's. Thats that, and at last i feel i have control again of my life, i have lost a self centred, selfish, inscure girl (who i loved)and she lost me who would have stuck by her no matter what (and belive me there were lots of problems in her life) now they are someone elses.!! but im sure he does'nt know it yet!
passionpeach Posted June 13, 2007 Posted June 13, 2007 Nice. I want to congratulate you for being able to put up a brave face in front of your ex. Not all people can do that. Some just tend to be so weak around past lovers as they can easily break ones defenses. Right now just keep on doing what you are doing. Keep yourself busy and happy. Love will come once the time is right.
Outofluck Posted June 13, 2007 Posted June 13, 2007 Good job, that is definitely a step in the right direction. My ex also has two kids which I was very close to. I haven't seen them in almost a year. Even though they were a pain sometimes to deal with, I feel like I lost three people in one shot. I think that makes it harder to get over. Good luck to you..
Author funkybassplayer Posted June 13, 2007 Author Posted June 13, 2007 thats really interesting, most people on here just lose an ex, but we lost a family and a way of life. Its been 8 weeks or so today since i last kissed my ex on the lips the hardest part is that i cant contact them. Did you wake up in the morning thinking of the routine, like making tea and getting them ready for school, and the little things like the kids saying they love you? that is what i wake up to in the morning, and it makes me feel so low. How long did you feel that for? Im trying to be positive, and made very little contact (only over possetions) and hoping one day she will let me say hi to the kids, but its these feelings in the morning that i hate, like i still love this family and want to be there and protect them. I still feel i want to be there and not waking up on my own (or with the cat!)
Recommended Posts