blairsy Posted June 11, 2007 Posted June 11, 2007 I have two kids one of which is with my husband. We got married 5 months ago, we've been together for 3 1/2 years. For the past 15 months he's been gone though. I kicked him out last march and then stayed together even though he moved away to live with his parents, then we completely broke up in may til june, then he left for the army in aug. then we were married in jan of this year. We constantly fought the first couple years together and continued to fight, not quite as bad for the past 15 months over the phone while he's been gone. We've only seen each other 6 times in the past 15 months. I was about to move me and the kids out to seattle in 11 days, but a few days ago i called it off and decided to file for divorce. This had already surfaced a few times in the mere 5 months of marriage, from mine and his mouths. I don't feel like we make each other happy like a husband and wife should but its so hard for me to cope with this and let go. I do love him but it just hasn't worked forever now. I keep telling myself this will pass i'll stop feeling so lonely and missing him. It seems everytime we have broken up, we've gone running back to each other but i think its cuz were both so lonely. I don't know what to do. I'm so confused. It's so hard to imagine life without him but i'm kinda excited to starting seeing other people. i also have had alot of thoughts about staying apart for a few years and possibly one day getting back together but that possibly couldn't ever work could it? I guess its just something that gives me strength through this. Will i stop feeling so sad and lonely? I'm so confused, please someone give me advice on how to cope!
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