AussieChilean Posted June 11, 2007 Posted June 11, 2007 Hi, this is one of those rare occasions that i've looked for help to my personal problems on an internet forum.. Well here's the deal.. I'm 16 years old, 17 in a few days. 2 years ago I left Australia, to come live in Chile, while in Chile, I met a girl who was very nice, and I liked her, and I started thinking if she liked me. She was a few cm smaller than me and well, was attractive too and all, but the attraction I felt for her was a bit.. different.. Now, in my life, I've always been the nervous, owned-by-anxiety kind of guy, I had never had a girlfriend.. I could never work up the courage to tell her how I felt. I would think of her every now and then, seemingly unrealistic thoughts of how I would tell her how I feel.. How I would treat her nice and like a queen.. Ofcourse sex was a part of it, i'm a dude, but it seems that I wanted her to be happy.. We had things in common.. We both had never had gf/bf, we both had Problems @ home.. (my parents are not abusive, just other problems) we would talk and all, she once took me out back to some secret place behind the school, where 2 other people went out, memories huh.. Didn't do anything though :/ A few months after I met her we had to leave back to Australia due to family financial problems. I went to school, said good bye, she hugged me. Small world.. A few days/weeks (memory fuzzy) before we left, i saw someone that looked exactly like her, during school hours (I dropped out before i left.. Stupid me..) at a train station.. Anyway, I am now in Australia, and it's hard to stop thinking of her, i fantasize of rewinding time and telling her how i feel, i would feel heaps better even if she told me to "**** off" or some thing.. Atleast thats closure.. The thing that pains me is that I could of had a good life with her.. Sure.. it's just a teenage relationship.. And the majority of teenage relationships end in a month or less (My quote) I try to think that maybe she has a good boyfriend that treats her well and all, but I still.. Can't stop thinking about her. Now, it seems that.. Out of chance we might go back.. But this pains me more.. What if she's not there? I fear that something might of happened to her.. I'm obsessed.. I unrealistically try to see if she's in Australia for some reason looking at people and all. Theres this website "www.fotolog.com" that Chileans (in Chile) goto to post pictures, sort of like myspace but just pics, I go there and try to find her, I'm obsessed.. I need help trying to stop thinking of her.. It's driving me crazy.. The other day I saw the Truman Show again, nice comedy movie huh, but the scene where he has this collage thing, where he cuts up magazines trying to find the right eyes, the right lips and stuff to make up a picture of this girl that he loved. I fear that that's gonna be me.. Help? this has me depressed.. I'm not that familiar with this, but it damn feels like that feeling u get when your nervous.. but accompanied by sadness.. I have dreams of her, where i'm with her and we're happy.. Today I had a similiar dream, accompanied later by a nightmare dream .
directx Posted June 11, 2007 Posted June 11, 2007 Ok, you are smitten, and you are right in recognizing you might become obsessive and not want to be that way. I wish you would sum up your story in a few facts. This would both help other people read it and help you recognize the facts in your story. I kinda read it and get bored and started skimming. Here are some quick questions (that you may have already answered): 1) Can you contact her now? 2) If so, how? Phone, email, etc. 3) Is there any chance you two ever meeting up again? 4) Do you think you might like her because of her culture and not herself? Just a thought.
Author AussieChilean Posted June 12, 2007 Author Posted June 12, 2007 Nope, no way of contacting her.. Not even an email. And it is possible we might meet up again in the future.. Depends how things turn out if we go back or not. We have the same culture.. Maybe it's because we got along so well..
directx Posted June 12, 2007 Posted June 12, 2007 Chalk it up to live and learn. Hopefully you will meet her again. Everyone makes these mistakes if it makes you feel any better. Next time get a phone# or email. Dont beat yourself up too much.
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