passionpeach Posted June 9, 2007 Posted June 9, 2007 It's been one year since I last seriously blogged. I guess 2006 has really been a long and tough roller coaster ride for me that I almost lost touch of myself. It has been so excruciating an experience that whenever I look back, I still feel everything... happiness, stress, tears, love, fear, hatred, and the others that I can't even put to words. I can still feel them like fresh wounds that I have been trying to mend for so long. It feels like it was just yesterday. There were times that I felt so enraged that no matter what happened i still kept fighting for what I know is right for me. There were times when I was so hurt and I just gave up. There were times that I felt joyous yet I found no satisfaction at all. It was void. I can no longer tell happiness from madness. I was just so lost. I felt empty. God never left me, I know. But I have already given up on myself then so it became quite difficult for me to experience the difference between having Him beside me and being blocked by the thought that He never existed. I was so in doubt. It was harsh I admit but that was how I felt. It is a good thing though that the world turns letting us have what we call the past. Now I am facing another year, another battle, another challenge, and another chance to pick myself up and start anew. I am not aware of what lies ahead but now I am determined. I will persist. I will persevere for I am now stronger after going through that storm that just passed. Now all I want to be is.. Happy.
ahah2322 Posted June 10, 2007 Posted June 10, 2007 hey thanks for your insightful reply. i know you will be strong too. happiness is infectious so do be that way. anything else that comes your way is definitely the icing on the cake. so be happy
funkify Posted June 10, 2007 Posted June 10, 2007 Great that you want to be happy. But only you can do this for yourself. You have persevered and showed great strength...now use that strength to make your dreams come true. Start by making a list of your ultimate desires. Break them down into small steps...one by one start making those steps towards happiness. It IS possible. Happiness just doesn't 'happen' to people...they MAKE it happen Good luck
CaliGuy Posted June 10, 2007 Posted June 10, 2007 God never left me, I know. But I have already given up on myself then so it became quite difficult for me to experience the difference between having Him beside me and being blocked by the thought that He never existed. I was so in doubt. It was harsh I admit but that was how I felt. God will never put you through more than you can handle in this life. Our trials and tribulations are meant to teach us lifelong lessons. They are also to help prove our worth to Him. After all, if we can not handle treasures here on earth, we will not handle them in Heaven. God will never give up on you. It is us who gives up on Him, often well before His will has been made clear. Keep the faith. If you want God to bless a part of your life, you have to make Him first in it. Cheers
madgun68 Posted June 10, 2007 Posted June 10, 2007 You are an amazing person passionpeach. You say that you gave up on yourself, but you are still here.. Still fighting for what you believe in. That inner strength you possess can allow you to reach great heights. Never let anyone tell you or prevent you from reaching out to your goals in life. You deserve to reach them. Your struggle is proof that you can. Give yourself a hug for me, okay? You truly are a special person.
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