skeletonindacloset Posted June 2, 2007 Posted June 2, 2007 So recently a girl I was seeing and really getting along well with ended our relationship because she was afraid of the baggage that her jealous ex would bring to the table cuz he's kinda crazy in a really bad way. Though dissappointed, I respected the fact that she didn't want me to have to deal with her horrible ex dude cuz he's an ultra violent guy but it's still a bummer cuz things were going so well. But that's not my issue at all. The first time we met I began to miss the last woman I first really really fell for a few years back. There was no similar appearance about the two, different tastes in music, and one was a vegetarian and the other not so much. It could've just been the fact that they had same gender in common, who the hell knows. But everyday we'd see each other I'd begin to long for this other woman more and more each second. When this last relationship ended I felt a sigh of relief because now I wouldn't feel guilty about being with one woman and thinking about another woman. I guess it was a moment when I really felt aware of my own personal "baggage" and how glad I was that someone else wouldn't have to deal with it, kinda like her not wanting her ex to beat me up. Who knows. But I do know this. Everytime we were together I pretended like she was my love from so long ago and I felt like an awful person just using someone. So it would seem that this is all for the best. Do ya hafta be religious to join a monestary:)
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