randuff Posted May 10, 2007 Posted May 10, 2007 Today was my first day of counseling. It felt good to get my feeling out on the table. I explained to the counselor how I knew it wasn't going to work and how I knew the timing was off but I still missed her so. So after the counseling appointment I messaged my ex. I miss you I miss you too - she replied The reason I messaged was I went to her mysapce and she has a new song up... Last Night by Diddy Here are some exerps of the lyrics... "Last night, I couldn't even get an answer. Tried to call, But my pride wouldn't let me dial. And I'm sitting here, With this blank expression. And the way I feel, I wanna curl up like a child." If I told you once, I told you twice, You can see it in my eyes. I'm all cried out, With nothing to say. You're everything I wanted to be. If you could only see, Your heart belongs to me. I love you so much, I'm yearning for your touch. Come and set me free, Forever yours I'll be, Baby won't you come and take this pain away." *sigh* Why was I so weak????? Thats it. I didn't send a message again. I went to the gym and signed up and got a personal trainer for the next 6 weeks. Hopefully this gets my mind off stuff. Ugh this sucks.........
krzr Posted May 10, 2007 Posted May 10, 2007 if you love her and miss her then why are u pushing her farther away? thats all that does is make her feel even more guilty for doing what she did if in fact she called things off. no contact will do 2 things make her miss u and by not contacting her make u get better so do it. and if u need to talk to davis and find your backbone women dont want a sobber they want a man.
Author randuff Posted May 10, 2007 Author Posted May 10, 2007 Now after about 3 hours she messages me.... Her : "Did you go to counseling today?" Me : "Yeah" Her : "how did it go?" Me : "Ok" Her : "Good" Her : "Have you paid on the cards?" Me : "Not yet the check will be in in 30 days. Sorry" Her : "No worries just checking." Damn why did I ever message her!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! And why am I messaging back!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I tried so hard for NC, even posted in other ppls posts to not do it. I knew better but I did it anyways.
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