Michaela Posted May 10, 2007 Posted May 10, 2007 I just broke up with my boyfriend of nine months yesterday. The reason this was the hardest breakup is because I cared about him, and I wanted things to work out, but he was just not the right person for me, and I am fully aware of that. He never opened up to me emotionally, and his immaturity and selfishness ruined our relationship. He placed me on the back burner and made his friends his priority, and never attempted to get to know the REAL me. He kept everything emotionally superficial, except he slapped the term "girlfriend" onto the so called relationship and I was fooled into thinking it was going to be fulfilling. I know in my heart that he was not the right person for me, but there's still a sense of mourning of the ending of something, and for me, the what ifs, what if he were more emotionally open, what if he had invested more into the relationship, and why's, why didn't he invest more into the relationship, why did he remain so distant, why didn't he attempt to make the relationship work, etc., etc. It's odd, but although he was practically a dead beat boyfriend, we did talk often (albeit about himself!), and suddenly not having him in my life is painful. In addition, I think he represented my past. I am graduating law school in 3 days, and am moving on to bigger and better things, but there's a part of me that's afraid of what the future holds, so in that sense, I may be attached to him and the relationship because it represents something familiar. I know I did the right thing, but why does it hurt so much?! I know I'll get past this, I have in the past, but I am just so disappointed that it had to come to this!.......................................................................................... ................................................................................................ How do you get over the disappointment that gnaws at you, or the anger that the person didn't even try to make it work!!??
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