randuff Posted May 9, 2007 Posted May 9, 2007 I will keep posting daily because for me it is a release of my hurt, anger and frustration. This is day 3 of NC and I still miss her. Actually I am concerned about her and her money situation right now. I want so badly to call and ask her if she needs a few bucks to make it but I can't let myself do that. I couldn't sleep last night. Tossed and turned all night thinking of her and couldn't get my mind off her. I even called work and told them I was coming in late because I had to get some more rest. I catch myself going to her myspace page DAILY to check if she has changed her profile and she hasn't. All of the pics of us together are still there and in her status it still says in a relationship. What do I make of this? Is it just she hasn't taken the time to change it or is it she still has hopes or am I just being stupid? I thought it would be getting easier and to some degree it has but sometimes the pain is unbearable, my heart just aches and I feel miserable. I know this is part of the process but it still remains hard. NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC NC I must remember this.....
cecil brown Posted May 9, 2007 Posted May 9, 2007 That myspace is the devil. Through all my losing battles with NC, that is one thing I have finally been able to ween myself from. I used to check her page constantly, but one day I convinced myself nothing good could become of it and I stopped. I just passed the 90 day mark of no myspace. I still think about it from time to time, but when the urge comes, i just walk away from the computer. Now if only I could ween myself from calling and e-mail her. Keep the faith man; things will end up OK.
Icantletgo Posted May 10, 2007 Posted May 10, 2007 Me strong. I was miserable for the first few days of NC. All you wanna do is hear from them or talk to them..but it'll just make you even more miserable. Be strong, breathe in and life goes on.
AriaIncognito Posted May 10, 2007 Posted May 10, 2007 I'm on day 32 of NC. Though technically, I dont think any of us that do any cyber looking, can truly consider themselves NC. I've not spoken to, emailed, texted etc him since 4/8. He has commented on a blog of mine, but I didn't reply. (this was on day 28 of nc). But, the fact that I can tell all of this without thinking about it, proves that I've got a long way to go before I'm over it. But, i'm 32 days better than i was. I've been able to get my mind off of him at times, and that's promising. Someday you will too. Try to ease up on the myspace stuff. Limit yourself as much as you can. Set rewards if you achieve a goal of not looking in X amount of time. Whatever works.
mat56 Posted May 12, 2007 Posted May 12, 2007 Im on day 11 of NC so trust me I know how you feel. I still check his myspace all the time too. Just because she hasnt changed her myspace status to single doesnt mean anything. I know its not what you want to hear. When my boyfriend broke up with me he didnt change his status either. It took him about a week and he finally changed it. A week later I changed mine in hopes that would bother him, but it didnt and doesnt. She will change it eventually and it doesnt mean anything that she hasnt. My ex is even in another relationship right now (it took him a whole two weeks)and his status is still at single, so honestly dont use myspace to judge your relationship. Just be strong and keep NC.
frd150 Posted May 12, 2007 Posted May 12, 2007 That myspace is the devil. I do not know if she has changed anything regarding status on her page. I have had many opportunities to check but i am scared. Fear is keeping me from doing it. I usually like to know everything but this i cannot do. She had/has pics of us and everything on there. Damm you myspace!!!!!
confusedandempty Posted May 12, 2007 Posted May 12, 2007 Absolutely true what they've all said above. The fact that she hasn't changed MySpace doesn't mean anything. My ex broke up with me 7 months ago and she still has a photo of us in her album. But she has deleted me from her Top 12. We've all been where you are right now and I know you know that NC is the only way to go. I started NC a week after she broke up with me. From it lasted for 2 months then I sent her a Marry X-mas text message and I got an answer. Since then I haven't spoken to her except this one time I met her in a mall. Then we chatted for 2-3 minutes. After meeting her for the first time I just felt devastated and I went straight back to point one. But it only took me few days to get back on track. I still do check her MySpace once in a while, even though I know it doesn't do me any good. It's stupid....I know
Author randuff Posted May 12, 2007 Author Posted May 12, 2007 I went on myspace on friday and changed my profile to single. Noticed that later that night she looked at my profile (I have a tracker and know her IP) and she changed her status to single as well. I am still first on her friends list and our Vegas trip pics are still there. Kinda made my heart drop when I saw it but at the same time I need to move forward.
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