cecil brown Posted May 9, 2007 Posted May 9, 2007 As of this moment forward, I accept the end of my relationship.... Since late November, I have let my emotions destroy me both physically and emotionally. The stress, the grieving, the weight loss, the drugs; they have all taken a tremendous toll, and they all must stop now. I want my life back and I want my self confidence back. I will no longer be a shadow of my former self. I refuse to sit here wasting away and pining over someone who doesn't want to be with me. I refuse to beat myself up over the failure of my relationship any longer. Yes I made mistakes, I'm sorry. I'm only human. However, I have tried very hard through counseling and self help/study to become a better person and fix my shortcomings. I have nothing to be ashamed about. I tried my all to give her something true. In the end, it just wasn't good enough. So be it... And to my ex, baby, I want to say I'm sorry that things didn't work out. I know we once had plans of a bright future together. It's very sad to see them die out. I also apologize for my temper and my overbearing and needy ways. I know that's what ultimately pushed you over the edge. However, I do somehow wish you would have been a little less selfish, and worked harder with me to form a stronger us, but it's OK. I harbor no ill will towards you. I truly hope you find the happiness you are looking for. To qoute a song "Thanks for the good times, for they were the best of my life, I spent with you.......And I still love you." A special thanks also to all here on LS who have helped me cope and realize that life goes on. God Bless and may we all have a brighter tomorrow.
Trialbyfire Posted May 9, 2007 Posted May 9, 2007 However, I have tried very hard through counseling and self help/study to become a better person and fix my shortcomings. I also apologize for my temper and my overbearing and needy ways. I know that's what ultimately pushed you over the edge. Your post has touched me because some of the things you've said were things I would have killed for from my ex. If he had been able to show me that he was so willing to get professional help and enact self-help by research to change and if he'd ever apologized and meant it by showing me with consistent actions that he had changed, things would be way different than how it exists today. As it stands, we all make mistakes and have to move on with our lives. Good luck in finding yourself again. If you ever decide to approach her again, try not to point fingers back at her because it will negate all your good words and push her further away. I find it so sad that two people who probably care about each other, can't communicate effectively but I guess sometimes there's too much hurt and mistrust to break through.
Lizzie60 Posted May 9, 2007 Posted May 9, 2007 As of this moment forward, I accept the end of my relationship.... Since late November, I have let my emotions destroy me both physically and emotionally. The stress, the grieving, the weight loss, the drugs; they have all taken a tremendous toll, and they all must stop now. I want my life back and I want my self confidence back. I will no longer be a shadow of my former self. I refuse to sit here wasting away and pining over someone who doesn't want to be with me. I refuse to beat myself up over the failure of my relationship any longer. Yes I made mistakes, I'm sorry. I'm only human. However, I have tried very hard through counseling and self help/study to become a better person and fix my shortcomings. I have nothing to be ashamed about. I tried my all to give her something true. In the end, it just wasn't good enough. So be it... And to my ex, baby, I want to say I'm sorry that things didn't work out. I know we once had plans of a bright future together. It's very sad to see them die out. I also apologize for my temper and my overbearing and needy ways. I know that's what ultimately pushed you over the edge. However, I do somehow wish you would have been a little less selfish, and worked harder with me to form a stronger us, but it's OK. I harbor no ill will towards you. I truly hope you find the happiness you are looking for. To qoute a song "Thanks for the good times, for they were the best of my life, I spent with you.......And I still love you." A special thanks also to all here on LS who have helped me cope and realize that life goes on. God Bless and may we all have a brighter tomorrow.` You said you were in counselling... from what I read here, you had the problems, not her...and you pushed her away... but you apologized but... you are also trying to put a little guilt on her STILL... 'I do somehow wish you would have been a little less selfish, and worked harder with me to form a stronger us' I hope you move on but you still have a lot of work to do on yourself.` Good luck with your counselling!
Author cecil brown Posted May 9, 2007 Author Posted May 9, 2007 Lizzie, We both had problems. I choose not to air hers. I am just taking responsibility for mine. Could she have done more to fix her issues? I think so. My counselor (who has met with us in the past) thinks so. Not trying to place guilt, just stating my feelings. And you are right, I still have a lot of work to do on myself. But I will make it...
randuff Posted May 9, 2007 Posted May 9, 2007 Good to hear you are making the next step. My first counseling appointment is tomorrow :/ kinda nervous about it...
Author cecil brown Posted May 9, 2007 Author Posted May 9, 2007 Rand, Glad to hear you are going to counseling. It definitely helps. Best of luck.
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