coffee_addict Posted May 7, 2007 Posted May 7, 2007 er.....hey... ok im gonna go for it. basically one of my friends, who is a guy (im a girl) is into tae kwon do and like, martial arts, jujitsu n things, and regularly fights/trains with his best mate, another guy. im attracted to my friend, and ive told him im interested in learning about the moves n self defence n all that, an whenever we are at one anothers houses, we tend to have a physical fight. (not like beating each other up, he never punches me in the face or head, an has never drawn blood.) the thing is, im not at all interested really in learning the moves, i just like to have a fight, and we do properly go for it, hes knocked me out a couple of times from basically cutting off the air to my brain - i know it sounds horrifying but its not its just like falling asleep. (he is trained btw so he knows what hes doing.) i really dont think im making any sense here, but basically im worried that i enjoy being hit or something, which i know cant be right. i like it when he pins me down in a hold n i cant move, theres something sexual about it for me. im worried im wrong in the head :( :(
kepners Posted May 7, 2007 Posted May 7, 2007 i think ur addicted to the brother touching you! hehe oh... and addicted to the whole fight thing... i have had sleeper holds done on me and its doesnt hurt, but you can kill someone VERY easliy! (there is a doorman who killed a punter recently like this!) i suggest you get with him, and stop the whole putting to sleep bollox, because your not a fighter and honestly its not clever! AT ALL! and i know what i am talking about. just quit the games!
Author coffee_addict Posted May 7, 2007 Author Posted May 7, 2007 i know, i realise its a very dangerous thing, and i would never do it again, but the problem is that i cant just 'get with him' because i have a bf, he has a gf, but i love him anyway.....its complicated. we are only messing around though, and apart from the knocking out, hes never done anything dangerous to me. im just worried that i enjoy fighting, and being hit, and that something is a little twisted in my head. and i honestly dont think how i feel or think is right.
Enema Posted May 9, 2007 Posted May 9, 2007 If it's becoming a sexual thing you should stop now, it's very unfair to your boyfriend. Why don't you introduce some S&M into your sex life with your bf? There's nothing wrong with being into that sort of thing, as long as it's with your partner.
Author coffee_addict Posted May 9, 2007 Author Posted May 9, 2007 well its very complicated about how i feel about my friend, but i honestly dont think he feels anything sexual when we fight, even tho i do. me n my bf have only just got together, like 3 weeks ago, an ive never had sex, so unfortunately theres no chance of me getting anything like this from my bf at this point. boo
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