Jackieblue Posted May 6, 2007 Posted May 6, 2007 [sIZE=2] It’s been 10 years since I’ve been backstabbed by a couple of friends of mine, and I’m still a having a hard time coping. I don’t go out much anymore. Most of the time I stay home because I hate going out alone. I get so sick of being lonely!! I’m having a hard time making new friends ever since I lost my other friends. When I think about what they did to me, I get very angry and depressed. I thought I can trust them, I thought they were my best friends until they stab me in the back. It affects me so much that I get bitter towards my family and other people. I’ll never forget it. One of them said she doesn’t want anything to do with me anymore because we have nothing in common. I find that hard to understand because we’ve been very good friends for a while, we always go places together and chat all the time. The first time it happened is when she hung up on me for no reason, then decides she no longer wants to be my friend, and I heard my other friend saying bad things about me behind my back, then my other friends turn on me. If I did something to them unintentionally then they should talk to me about my mistakes instead of holding grudges. "NOBODY’S PERFECT" Sometimes I develop low self esteem. I tried Counselors, Support Groups, but none of them helped me. I go into rages, cry a lot, having suicidal thoughts. Now I’m suffering from depression, I had to be on medication to keep me from having a nervous breakdown. I don’t have much of social life anymore!! I had enough going through this B.S.!! + Being hassled at home and at my job!! My life is so pathetic; I don't know if I can deal with it any longer!! [/sIZE]
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