krzr Posted May 11, 2007 Posted May 11, 2007 day 33 huh? not bad im on month 4 NC and its still tuff. ive fought off a few txt msges from her the most difficult one was march 26th it would have been our 3 year anniversary and i think i would have proposed to her on that date because she had given me a 3 year ultimatum or i was wasting her time as she had put it which is understandable. anyway she sent the txt "hey just want you to know i didnt forget about today" well if i can stay strong and not reply to that then u can be strong too!!! to be honest i really dont know how i would have replied to that txt anyway its way beyond playing games so i figure she just wanted me to to know hey im thinking about u today.
Author AriaIncognito Posted May 13, 2007 Author Posted May 13, 2007 I assume birthdays/anniversaries/holidays are probably the hardest. I've got birthday coming up, for both of us. Had quite a bit of a setback this week that was both good and bad. It was good in that I got some insight into my situation, and it was bad in that well, it didn't help me move on. So here I am. I wish love were easy. I also wish I could make myself erase love for a person who doesn't deserve it. :( I want out of this funk.
Teacher's Pet Posted May 14, 2007 Posted May 14, 2007 Someone's gonna get her ass squeezed on Friday..... That's all I have to say on the subject. -tp don't squeeze the charmin? f you!
Trialbyfire Posted May 14, 2007 Posted May 14, 2007 aw, I agree that you shouldn't respond to his comment. He's testing the waters of NC and wants to bait you back with so little. Stay strong and keep working on moving on. You've already done 33 days which is admirable, considering how you still feel. One day at a time. You can do it.
Author AriaIncognito Posted May 16, 2007 Author Posted May 16, 2007 Well, I'm resetting the NC counter. Though I know it'll be reset again at weeks end. Had some contact with the ex this weekend (he was somewhere I was). Wasn't really expected...sigh. It's left me, confused. However, I know I must trudge forward, onward, and know that I can't sit around waiting for someone who can't make up their mind, when the answer is so clear.
MagnoliaJane Posted May 16, 2007 Posted May 16, 2007 someone who can't make up their mind, when the answer is so clear. What is the answer? My ex was unclear about his answer to me because he couldn't exactly tell me in person that one woman isn't enough for him. Because he's waiting for the "perfect" woman. I wish he would have told me straight out about how "big" his heart is. Would have saved both of us some heartpain... Don't we tend to idealize the ones who left us? I hope your ex is different... I know I thought mine was... until now...
Author AriaIncognito Posted May 17, 2007 Author Posted May 17, 2007 Eh, I'm sure he's no different. He's just lonely right now more than likely so he resurfaced. I wont lie, it was nice to see him, but I'm not disillusioned as to think anything could have changed on his end in a month. What's clear, from my perspective, is I'm the embodiment of what he wants in a mate. What's not clear to him, is that I'm who he wants. lol. It was nice to find out that the girl I went NC with him over, didn't allow him to take her out again LOL. (we were friends and i told him as soon as I knew he was on a date, I was outta there, and I wasn't kidding). When it came up the other night, he said he never saw her again, and I asked why, and he said she didnt want another date. Ha. Dumbazz. I got some, well almost ego boost, from the fact that for once, he was missing me. However, I know it wasn't necessarily for the reasons I'd want. So, I'm still doing what I can to move on. Time will tell. I know we cant be friends. Well, I know *I* can't be friends with him. So, this contact, isn't going to be very long. I need to get over him and can't do that if I'm too involved in his life. The NC was helping seemingly both sides. He did indeed say he missed me and thought of me etc, and I was indeed not crying daily anymore. It'll be a long time, though, before I'm over this one.
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