Guest Posted May 4, 2007 Posted May 4, 2007 My boyfriend and I broke up over absolutely nothing on Christmas Day. Well actually he had been speaking really rudely to me in the weeks leading up to Christmas Day. The day before he said a cruel thing for no particular reason and I reacted by not including him in the family Christmas Eve dinner. He responded the next morning by breaking up with me. We didnt talk for the next month or so, even though he moved out at my request, and made no attempt to heal things between us. I stood my ground. I was confused as to why something so small meant the end, I thought for sure he would apologise and we would move on as he had never stopped saying he loved me. Anyway in early Feb we decided to continue on with a holiday we had planned. I saw him and slept with him a few times before we went, but there was no talk of getting back together, in fact he was making out like I was the one because of Christmas Eve that had ruined the relationship. We went away and while we were there, I found text messages, and phone messages from a girl in his phone. From what I could track it back, it looked like it had been going on before CHristmas. He said on being confronted it wasn't serious blah blah blah. But it all made sense the attitude before CHristmas and seeing the opportunity to end it and doing it. He said if it was serious = would he be on holidays with me? Regardless he was playing us both, and we have been together for years and we consider or did best friends (yeah right!). I found that out on the last day of the holiday, I cried and sobbed and screamed (not much) . He apologised and said, he had just got involved after we broke up and he was actually going to break it off when he got back from the holiday because being together made him realise it wasn't serious. I think hes a liar. We flew home, I smiled, hugged him said thanks for the holiday and immediately blocked my home phone no and got a new cell no. the next day. That was three months ago. It still hurts. I don't want him back. Don't get me wrong - he is a liar and a cheater, and has broken my heart. But god it hurts. When does it ease up? I feel really proud of my seriousness about no contact. And I love the feeling of not waiting around for the phone to ring, because he doesn't have my no. I have to admit, a little part of me thought he would turn up at the front door, and I am sure one day, when hes lonely he will. For those of you out there that have got to a year with NC how does it feel, I could do with your help at the moment!
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