sunshine79 Posted April 30, 2007 Posted April 30, 2007 so my man and i went to my friends house and stayed hte weekend and then went for the day yesterday to my parents house. it was a blast and i'm still recovering right now from teh lack of sleep. well today is my birthday...my fiance texted me this morning before his work meeting to tell me he loved me and a big ole happy bday. but i'm sad. he surprised me with tickets to see chris sligh(from american idol) tonight but i'm the least bit psyched right now. i'm turning 28 so it's not like a monumental bday...i don't know why i feel like this. i have a huge final for a class i'm taking for my job on wednesday andi haven't studied once. maybe this is stressing me? then i start getting sad that my fiance only texted me to say happy bday (although i know he's really busy at work and meant it with all sweetness when he sent it) i'm just emotional. i don't know why. i want to crawl under my desk and just cry. i miss my fam and my friends (we live 2 hrs away and dont' see each other much) so maybe i'm having withdrawls. i dont know. thanks for listening....
tashsih Posted April 30, 2007 Posted April 30, 2007 yeah you just sound kinda emotional right now ... I would prob either cry it out to lighten the pressure or sometimes when i leaste expect it a coworker, a customer or my bf will totally pull me out of it with a joke.. .something funny online maybe? youtube a topic you like or write out some goals for stucture or just daydream...im betting you feel better though already since you wrote it out HAPPY Bday!!now go get your free birthday shot!
Author sunshine79 Posted April 30, 2007 Author Posted April 30, 2007 i do feel better already since i got to write it out but i'm still blah. i just wish i had a day off work but it's almost lunch and my pepsi is kicking in so i'm not too tired. oh and my fiance called and said he apologized for not calling this morning but he was in a bad mood from lack of sleep so he sent a text. that was actually the smartest thing he has done in a long time...realized to wait! lol
Author sunshine79 Posted April 30, 2007 Author Posted April 30, 2007 one other thing i wanted to mention which may explain why i'm emotional is when we were at my best friend's house my fiance and her bf hang out all the time WHEN we get to see them....they do things off on their own and vice versa. well this time we went to lucn has couples and were talking and having a good time...i called him out in front of the other bf that he had spider webs on his teeth...you know the saliva that gets stringy after you eat sometimes...welllll....he cussed at me and told me to shut up....in front of this friend!! now, did i embarrass him and he had to regain his MANLYness or what? he is a sweetheart and i don't want people to see him in that way, that he's bad to me...he's not and i asked him about it on our ride home nad he didn't think it was that big of a deal but i did embarrass him. so why yell and degrade me??? he knows he shouldnt' do it and i told him he better not do it again (not in a mean, threatening way) anyway i had to throw that in there....sorry i'm jumbled...trying to get past this.
tashsih Posted April 30, 2007 Posted April 30, 2007 yeah he knows ...and i know what you mean /explaining whats said sounds so cold in typing sometimes .. but you know him so you know he just blew up for a sec and then felt like an ass... Im sure he beat himself up about it in the car Its not the kinda attitde you want to let get out of hand though. Emotional abuse is hard to get out of but you sound like you already know that. I wouldnt even pay it attention. Being choosey about your battles is usually best approach. You know I think I say the wrong thing sometimestoo or say it w/ an attitude i really dont mean and most ppl do that from time to time...we should all just give each other a break sometimes and not over annalize:D
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