Shadowdog36 Posted April 29, 2007 Posted April 29, 2007 OK, so this may seem like some random message, but there's a reason for it, and you'll understand in a moment. I had a friend spend the night on Friday. I know she's been pushing me for more, and to be honest, we did have one night together, where she begged me for sex, but I turned her down. I knew that it would complicate things with her, cause I could sense her getting clingy already, and I knew that this was just for that night. Guess I was bored or lonely, I don't know. I thought she understood what it was. Anyway, fast forward to Friday night. She tells me that she had too much to drink, and asks if I could take her home with me. I agree, knowing what I was going to do, and hoping that she'd get the message. I put her in my room, and slept on the couch. Figured she'd get the point, right? Now here's where the story may seem a bit random... My computer is hooked up with a tv tuner card, and I use it as my only tv in my bedroom. Sweet little setup, with radio remote and everything. Problem is, when the tv is on, the computer doesn't lock, and all of my passwords and such are automatically entered since I'm the only user. Last night I get a call from her. She starts into me with how she can't do this to herself, and why would I take her home with me just to ignore her, and I lost any chance with her. Fine, no problem. Oh, and just so I know, she sent an email on Friday night from my computer. Now get this...she went looking through my Explorer history, found the link to LoveShack and found my screenname and apparently read some of my posts. Then, according to her, she went into my email, found K-'s address and sent her a message telling her to look me up!!!!!!!!! I don't know if this is some twisted little game this woman is playing, or if she's really this manipulating, but I have no way of finding out what's real, so.... K- if you are reading any of these, please respect my privacy and don't read any more. None of this was ever meant for your eyes or for anyone who ever knew who I was. Chances are, this was some stupid little game that she was playing with me, hoping to get a reaction from me, and I'm talking to no one here. But, geez, I'll never get it. I'm either moving too fast or too slow, or too into her, or not into her enough. I'm tired of all this sh*t. I'm just gonna take a break for a while. It's apparent that in my attempt to make myself feel better, I'm leaving broken people in my wake. Yeah, it's nice to know I still 'got it' and maybe that's what I've been telling myself for the past month or so, but I'm just tired of all the crap. I don't want to figure anything out any more, and I just want to be happy for a while. My best friend's mother died on Friday, and it really brought up everything I had to deal with 6 years ago when my dad died. Rough weekend, and maybe, I'm just feeling the effects of all that, but I am so tired of all this crap anymore.
searchingforanswers Posted April 29, 2007 Posted April 29, 2007 Shadow, That's really....over the top. I can't explain why anyone would do something like that except to accept the fact that everyone has a "little crazy" in them. It just takes getting the right buttons pushed. Maybe she really wanted something from you and when she didn't get it she snapped. Why she did it doesn't really matter though. She did what she did and it really compromised your privacy. You have every right to be confused and angry. I also wanted to comment on the clarity of death. I recently had to attend a funeral as well. My grandmother passed away. These things can bring out feelings and emotions that are difficult to process and maybe we don't want to process. I don't know, maybe I'm full of it. Death forces you to look at relationships and interactions and what is present and what is gone. Sometimes it helps you let go and other times it makes you want to hang on even more. I can understand what you are going through. Although the experiences are diffrent, I feel somewhat similar. Good luck.
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