pricillia Posted April 28, 2007 Posted April 28, 2007 This song popped into my head today... Makes me think of my situation and all of yours... just something to think about. http://members.tripod.com/mariah_diosa/do_you_know_where_you_re_going_to.htm
Author pricillia Posted April 29, 2007 Author Posted April 29, 2007 LOL... no one even knows how to reply to this thread.... That's fine, was just feeling silly today peace all
sadbuttrue Posted April 29, 2007 Posted April 29, 2007 i think it is sad, but then, i think a lot of things are sad these days
Author pricillia Posted April 29, 2007 Author Posted April 29, 2007 i think it is sad, but then, i think a lot of things are sad these days what is sad that no one replied or the song itself...
sadbuttrue Posted April 29, 2007 Posted April 29, 2007 i was speaking of the song. it is very sad. there is no open door. why do we keep turning around to look at it? do we think one day it will be miraculously open? doubtful
Author pricillia Posted April 29, 2007 Author Posted April 29, 2007 i was speaking of the song. it is very sad. there is no open door. why do we keep turning around to look at it? do we think one day it will be miraculously open? doubtful Well today it just poped into my head.... or it could mean move on and don't look back
sadbuttrue Posted April 29, 2007 Posted April 29, 2007 Well today it just poped into my head.... or it could mean move on and don't look back very true pricillia, i guess it just goes to show my insane mindset that i would obviously think of the closed door as MM's life and how i wish i was more a part of it.
Author pricillia Posted April 29, 2007 Author Posted April 29, 2007 very true pricillia, i guess it just goes to show my insane mindset that i would obviously think of the closed door as MM's life and how i wish i was more a part of it. I understand!
Author pricillia Posted April 29, 2007 Author Posted April 29, 2007 i wish i didnt I did not mean to make you sad
scaredinlove Posted April 29, 2007 Posted April 29, 2007 I should send that to my MM. It is said and it reminds me of my situation and his. I guess I don't know where I am going he dosent know either. I decided to stay and take one day at a time.
scaredinlove Posted April 29, 2007 Posted April 29, 2007 Once we were standing still in time, Chasing the fantasies that filled our minds. You knew how I loved you, but my spirit was free Laughing at the questions that you once asked of me. Do you know where you're going to? Do you like the things that life is showing you? Where are you going to? Do you know? I decided I will e-mail him this better I will give it to him next time we meet.this two paragraphs are our A story.
Author pricillia Posted April 29, 2007 Author Posted April 29, 2007 Once we were standing still in time, Chasing the fantasies that filled our minds. You knew how I loved you, but my spirit was free Laughing at the questions that you once asked of me. Do you know where you're going to? Do you like the things that life is showing you? Where are you going to? Do you know? I decided I will e-mail him this better I will give it to him next time we meet.this two paragraphs are our A story. Wow scared in love!
Author pricillia Posted May 4, 2007 Author Posted May 4, 2007 So I still do not know where I am going to... I was really upset last night ( much to do with that time of the month ) I get very depressed during that time. I was wishing for him to get the hell out of my life because I want a good relationship. I miserable with my personal life and am tired of putting on a happy face but don't want to turn anyone off either. Being in this situation sucks over and over and over again. sigh... I went to therapy but only went once, I just did not want to have to sit there and tell someone that I don't even know what the heck was going on.. have here right it all down ask me questions about childhood my mom ect ect just to think that she knows about my issues... it just made me feel very uncomfortable and I never went back Anyway... I want to love a good man and want to be loved by one with the passion and tenderness and fun... I am tired lonley sad and frustrated. ha... rubs eyes... I don't even know what I want anymore that is the thing, I often ask myself is this all that I deserve.... I am beginning to wonder.
scaredinlove Posted May 4, 2007 Posted May 4, 2007 So I still do not know where I am going to... Most of us don't I was really upset last night ( much to do with that time of the month ) I get very depressed during that time. Sorry you are depressed I was wishing for him to get the hell out of my life because I want a good relationship. can you push him out I don't even know what I want anymore that is the thing, I often ask myself is this all that I deserve.... I am beginning to wonder. You deserve to be happy, whatever happy means too you. You deserve someone loving and passionated. If he is not the one don't blame yourself and go look for him.
overandout Posted May 4, 2007 Posted May 4, 2007 So I still do not know where I am going to... I was really upset last night ( much to do with that time of the month ) I get very depressed during that time. I was wishing for him to get the hell out of my life because I want a good relationship. I miserable with my personal life and am tired of putting on a happy face but don't want to turn anyone off either. Being in this situation sucks over and over and over again. sigh... I went to therapy but only went once, I just did not want to have to sit there and tell someone that I don't even know what the heck was going on.. have here right it all down ask me questions about childhood my mom ect ect just to think that she knows about my issues... it just made me feel very uncomfortable and I never went back Anyway... I want to love a good man and want to be loved by one with the passion and tenderness and fun... I am tired lonley sad and frustrated. ha... rubs eyes... I don't even know what I want anymore that is the thing, I often ask myself is this all that I deserve.... I am beginning to wonder. Pricillia, I had to reply; you sound so sad. Sounds like you are reaching the end of the line with your mm. You DO NOT DESERVE this for one moment. Do not say that, or the next thing you will settle for being his OW full-time and I doubt that will make you happy and you will completely lose your sense of self worth. Only you know what you want, but this affair seems to be dragging you down and many of us have been there--the depth of despair, consumed with him. The bad times start to outweigh the good times. I got to the stage where I felt like a f *** buddy and had I stayed, then that is exactly what I would be and all he would see me for. Since I stopped seeing him, my xmm has come sniffing back but I am not going back. At least he bothered to try and get back with me and I didn't go running after him asking to restart things this time. In one sense it doesn't matter though. I do not know if some time away from him would do any good--just so you can get your head clear. If you get some space and he misses you it will show that he really does love you (if he contacts you first). If however you make contact and go running back to him, it does not show that he loves you. He will accept the affair as long as it doesn't interfere with the main relationship. If he had been missing you then he will contact you; if he doesn't, it shows you are not that imporant or significant and he is happy enough with his wife and children. I just hope that you an decide what you want. A path with mm is a path to nowhere. Good luck.
scaredinlove Posted May 4, 2007 Posted May 4, 2007 Only you know what you want, but this affair seems to be dragging you down and many of us have been there--the depth of despair, consumed with him. The bad times start to outweigh the good times. I agree with that. I was feeling horrible and the affair was dragging me down. I am still in the affair but I decided to distance myself a little, I don't meet him as often and I don't call much anymore , I let him call me first.And I realised that he won't leave and it is up too me to stay or go. You have to decide to be happy, that is the only decision to make. If you cannot deal with the situation anymore jump out. If you cannot leave (my case) then you have to approach it differently. Either way is hard but you must and deserve to be happy. Forgive yourself, him and the situation and find the best way for you. Good luck.
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