LostSheep Posted April 26, 2007 Posted April 26, 2007 Sighs I dunno where to start it... I want to make it short because it's a long story. I was with my boyfriend since Feb 1st 2006.. I still remember the moment he asked me it was like yesterday. EVERY moment I was with him I cherish it, remembered it, we have fights about things... things he doesn't want me to do. He's controling. He controled my life. I lose so many friends for him and I didn't regret it if it makes him happy, but he never do the same for me. I didn't get mad at him even Im upset about it. I tried talking to him, tried so many times NOTHING gets in his head... he never put himself in my position and realize the pain I'm going through... one time he was like "Oh is this how you think of me now? ok I'm leaving and im not going to unblock you" It's icky me so much I just cry randomly. I tried getting an answer from him but all he said it's I don't know or ignores me, never pick up the phone.. probably now changed his phone number today. The most funny thing is... he messaged me saying "why didn't you tried to talk to me" and thats it... I tried... and im so tired of trying. Whats going on in his mind right now, does he wants me anymore? he gives me little and little. I loss all my friend and I have no one to talk to.. I can't believe he ruin my life like that.. just leave.. I mean I can see the ending... it just... I can't love anymore..i don't want to love anymore... he took everything from me. If it's really coming to an end.. this pain will probably ick my heart every morning I wake up... for years.. I dunno maybe 3 years I know I need to find other things to do.. I can't.. I don't have any friends. I'm always by myself I'm so suprise I didn't kill myself yet. If this is going on in someone else's life I'm sure they would. Some of you might said "move on" I'm a person cherish people alot, cherish memories alot.. it's hard, it's icking, sometimes i just feel like i can't breathe, i can't cry like this everyday... but i can't help it...
catrocks Posted April 28, 2007 Posted April 28, 2007 Forget him. He is NOT worth it. Try talking to your friends and explaining the situation. If they can forgive you they will help you through this tough time and they might be able to help you to rebuild your confidence and be able to trust NICE men. The main thing to know is that this man has controlled your life for long enough. It has to stop. It's YOUR life and YOUR friends and if a man doesn't like that then he is not for you. Cut him out of your life. If you keep in contact it will be much harder to rebuild your life. It might also be an idea to talk to a therapist to try and understand why you let this man control you for so long. Good luck and be strong
In_thespurofthe_mome Posted April 29, 2007 Posted April 29, 2007 Lostsheep, Please, have hope. You sacrificed a lot for him, you tried to make him happy, and he didn't respect that and wasn't thankful at all. Realize that you did everything right, he was wrong. I'm sure you are the perfect girlfriend, and he just couldn't see that. Don't lose hope! There are many people out there who live happily without a partner Try traveling, writing, listening to music, watch a movie, read a book, or go to an amusement park, maybe get a pet too! I'd prefer traveling because you can have the sense of leaving bad things behind and experiencing fun and new things. And making friends isn't too hard I'm sure you are a very kind person, and it's just like when you were little, going into a new school and meeting new people. The world is like that everyday--you go out and meet new people! Everything changes.. days come and go, i'm sure you don'tever want to feel this way again, so just leave the bad memories behind. Only take the good ones, like when you first met. You had a life before him. He's just a raincloud passing, the sun will come out. There is always hope, good luck!
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