Screwed too much up?

[confusedandlost]

I'll try to make my long story as short as possible.... it may be heard to do. I don't date much, actually this was only my second "real" girlfriend. We dated for around 6 months. Everything seemed to be going great, really great. No problems ever arose. I can honestly say it was the happiest time of my life, hands down. It was a long distance - in college - we went to 2 rival colleges about an hour and a half apart. But we saw eachother fairly often, at least 3 times a month, and we talked every single day. Then she dropped the bomb around Thanksgiving that she needed to break up with me.

 

She said it however, as we were just going too fast, and she wanted a break. She wanted to do everything possible to "make us work." We did no contact for about a week... I don't think either of us could take it. I got texts asking how I was doing, and then calls. The next month we talked very often, many times reminiscing on dating. She still said she had something for me, she just wasn't sure what it was. Then around finals time (mid-December) she went back to no contact because it was "too confusing" for her. This lasted until end of December. I hadn't seen her since the breakup, but I saw her end of December. It was very awkward however. After this we started talking again, fairly often.Then through January, where I went to visit her again. We had a great time together, going to a movie, out to eat, etc. Once again, following this, we stayed in close contact.

 

I still really liked this girl. Well, something changed in January.... all of a sudden in about February, she went back to NC. Didn't talk to me for about 2-3 weeks. I tried to call, email, text, with no reply. Nothing. We have facebook - and she deleted all her pictures of us together, erased everything of me off there. She also told me I couldn't "post on her wall anymore" - facebook has a wall where people can right eachother. - she told me this was because everyone else thought she shouldn't stay in touch with me at all. parents, friends, siblings, I guess they all gave her crap when they knew we were talking. She also started dating another guy about this time.So now, fast forward to beginning of april. time in there was mainly NC, with an occasional email, but never any calls. Now April comes around, and boom, just like that, she's back to contacting me on a nearly (if not) daily basis. Started about 2 weeks ago, with emails, sometimes 2-3 a day. Some days are just 1. But mostly just emails, and the occasional text. Then 2 days ago she called for the first time in over 2 months. We talked for about 2 hours.

 

So.... theres the story. I would love to stay friends with her (I think). But maybe its because I still like her. I loved her at one point. All this time (even today), I still wonder what she's doing, check facebook to see her updates, look at her pictures, and get heartsick seeing her pictures with another guy. I just need some honest, 3rd party advice here. I'm confused. I'm sad when I'm not talking to her, I miss her. But I'm sad when I see her with another guy. And also, I don't know whats going through her head, what she wants. I need some help here... summer is just around the corner. Last summer we talked all the time (before dating). We emailed, texted, laughed, had fun. I don't know what to expect this summer. I'm just stuck in a rut. Can't get over her, want to be friends, at least I think