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[Familia]

Polly - I know you don't miss me nor will you ever reach out to me. I will not contact you either as I need to respect your decision that you do not want to be a part of my life anymore. I just want you to know that I have spent the past month working 100% on myself to make myself a better person. I wish it was for you although reality is I am now making myself a better person for myself and someone whom may come into my life in the future. I just wish this change within myself was for your benefit.

 

Polly I love you so so much and right now cannot imagine my life without, I always awake at night with vivid dreams that you have wanted to reconcile our 7 year relationship although I know that will just remain a dream forever now.

 

Poll / Anni - I love you more than I have ever loved anyone before, I now agree that you do not know what you have until its gone, I will never make that mistake again. Love you and wish I could just hold you again xoxoxox

[J007]

Well im at the train station for the first time since I saw you and met you here . Hardest thing Iv had to go through in such a long time . I keep thinking you're gonna be meeting me and giving me that Hug I always wait so long for . Im having a bad week this week . You keep appearing in my dreams and its putting me in a bad mood all day . I hope you're thinking of me as much as I do with you . I guess I just hope the girl I fell for is somewhere in that body of yours and comes out realising what she has lost before I find someone else

 

Love your Jimbob

[HBK3317]

D,

 

I miss you so much my baby. I love you so much. Be happy wherever you are, with whomever you are.

[Jonp219]

I hate Friday's

 

This is the day I use to reserve to see you every week. We use to go to TGI Friday's and the diner to sit down and talk about our week, I miss that. However, the way you ended the relationship was immature as hell. Not to mention the Twitter stuff, like grow the **** up. You have absolutely no integrity, if you want to talk then just contact me, stop being a coward. I understand your frustration, but if this is how you handle problems then **** it, stay where you're at. It's a month and counting since I last spoke to you.

 

I hope you're happy...

 

And most likely, you are.

 

Bye

[smellysocksuni]

Why would you do this to me? You know my life has been difficult enough. I don't have the strength to get over yet another obstacle. Why can't you just come back? I love you.

[FancyFace]

I wish life was a Tyler Perry movie so you would reap what you have sown in me, instead of running off into the sunset happy with your new girl while I cry into my wine glass every weekend.

 

If not, I hope you get denied entrance into the gates of Heaven for what you have done to me.

[anduina]

My heart hurts. I miss you so much, miss our fun times, our moments of silence and quiet.

[BlackbirdSong]

Babe,

 

I'm struggling. Matty told me to write you an email and try to establish contact, but I'm torn as if to that is the right thing to do. Do you need more space? Are you gone forever? Are you just about to contact me and I shouldn't blow it by reaching out? Tell me what to do. Help me. I have helped you so much in the past as you've always told me that I'm "smarter" than you, but this one time I need your help.

 

What do I want to tell you? I want you to know that I do want to marry you. As soon as possible. I want you to know that I do want to have children with you. I was afraid that I couldn't handle the responsibility, but I know I can. You're the only girl that I want to be the mother of my children. I want you to know that I do enjoy spending time with your family and I do enjoy the holidays. I want you to know that I'm not spending money on stuff I don't need anymore. I'm paying off my bills and trying to save. I want you to know that there are many great job opportunities coming to me in the next six months, not the year and a half that I originally thought. I want you to know that I am a planner and I don't always just act spontaneously. I want you to know that I'm so much more positive about my life and living in this area. I was able to figure out what my issues were and I'm intensely working on them. I want you to know that I want this to work. I want it to work in the worst way. I know you're the one for me and I'm willing to do whatever WE need to do to take our relationship to the next level.

 

I want you to remember that I was a great boyfriend. Your parents said that I was so good for you and was a very positive influence. We would have beautiful children. Okay, I think that's enough for now.

 

Missing you,

BlackbirdSong

[na49]

Was it really worth throwing away 3 years with me, for one month of sex with your friend's brother? Was it REALLY worth it?

 

It's honestly insulting how you can play the victim at all. You look like such a fool now. I wanted you, he didn't. You thought he wanted you, and that I didn't. Well, you were wrong. Karma is a b*tch and I'm so happy it got you. I don't feel bad that your parents hate you right now. I don't care that you are upset. I don't care that you feel "lost". I don't care that you feel used/abused. I don't care that he probably broke your heart. I don't care that you feel like you will never find love. You're probably right. You'll never find love, because you have no idea how to love someone. I loved you. I don't even really know if I love you anymore though. You definitely aren't the only girl I see myself with anymore. You told me you didn't mind if you weren't the one who was making me happy in life. That is cool. I think when I'm honest with myself I know that I'd never be really happy with you anyway. You've hurt me too bad. How could I ever trust you?

 

You won't get the ending you want. I know you want this to blow over, I forgive you, and I let you cry on the phone to me when you and your newest boyfriend are fighting. No way. I will never be your friend. EVER! My parents hate your guts now. You always said you loved that my parents loved you. Well they used to love you. Now you are dead to them. They have had it with you breaking my heart. They have had it with you cheating on me. They actually love me, and they know I deserve better. You got what you deserve. You aren't a catch at all. I'm much more of a catch than you are. I'm smarter. I'm funnier. We both know I am more mature. I will have much more to offer. Keep telling yourself whatever you want though. Keep having your friends talk you up. All of your friends are just as clueless as you are.

[darkbloom]

Okay A,

 

I am tired of you taking up space in my mind. Please, I am asking you as a last favor to me, go away. Let me be free. I am not this person. Every time I say your name, I want to cut my tongue out. I know you are not coming back. Please stay away, for my own good.

 

There is so much to say and also no words with which to say it. My mind is all over the place tonight. What the hell did you do to me? I just want one last moment with you when I knew that for right now, everything was at peace. I hate that it feels like we are in a silent war that is now been taken across state lines. You always knew when I was upset, maybe you can feel it this far away.

 

This raging storm inside me needs to dissolve into sunshine.

 

This is me pretending not to miss you tonight,

 

DB

[CopingGal]

Hello Dummy!

 

How are you today? Did you destroy any lives today? Or did you just tell your garden variety lies? Boy dummy, you sure are stupid. You've pretty much got nothing going for you. You don't have a man's body except for the hair that hangs out of your ears. Boy Dummy, you sure are pathetic!

[Cupid's Puppet]

My mom isn't doing too well. She's been in the hospital for over a week. I feel like I sent her there by sharing my burdens. Ever since we broke up I've been depressed and I shared with my mom my suicidal thoughts. I didn't realize how much pain I was causing her. If she died, I would never forgive myself for all this mess. I have so much guilt over what I done to us that I cannot bear anymore guilt if something were to happen to my mom. I feel I should have taken a job closer to home with my parents getting older like this and having health problems. I am the youngest and should be there for them. I am so mad at my decision. Well, that's all I wanted to say. It's just been kinda tough these last weeks and I have no one to talk to about this. How's your parents?

[HBK3317]

I want to be with you D... Please come back please... I will make it work We will make it work... Somehow anyhow... Please come back my baby... I love you so so much... You are the one and only person I ever want to be with ... Please D don't do this... Please come back

[smellysocksuni]

I miss my friend, more than anything. I miss our jokes and little things we'd talk about. I miss you, today. But in a warm way, not a sad way. I guess I'm happy for you, being happy now. We all deserve to be happy. I wish we could still talk. Maybe one day. Still a lot of healing to be done over here. I hope you're well. X

[anduina]

Do you remember walking in the summer rain, too caught up in each other to find shelter?

[Jonp219]

trfjfjsdfjksdfjklsdfjklsdfsdfsdl;fl;lsdl;'sd'sfd,'!!!!!!!!!

 

I've been at work all day thinking about you, and contemplating on whether or not I should check your Twitter. What the **** is wrong with me?? Why am I so anxious the feeling is overbearing. I would never be friends with you but i'm scared of losing you forever smh

[smellysocksuni]

You don't even miss me, do you.

[ApexTitanium]

You lie to me when you say you miss me, you miss me being around....you miss my hugs. But you don't miss being in a relationship with me. I'm tearing myself apart thinking of you I just want to be with you. I messed up in the past and I'm trying so hard to do better and you don't care. I just want to drink until I can't feel the pain anymore.....its so unbearable.

[BlackbirdSong]

Every time I think I'm starting to feel better....i fall apart.

I think I'm starting to accept that you're never coming back. You're finished with me. You don't see a future with me. The timing was wrong. I go to the gym we used to workout at, everyday, hoping that I'll see you there, but then I remember when you told me that you wouldn't go there anymore. You're at your other fancy gym.

 

Every time I hear a car pull up to my apartment, I pray that it's you....but it never is. I want to hear you knock on my door or when I walk up the stairs, see you there waiting to see me. To tell me that you made a mistake and want to try again.

 

I don't want to do this without you. I don't want to live without you.

[na49]

Ugh.. I should have known you were only talking to me because you were bored. You're back on campus, you're back to seeing your friends every day, and all of a sudden you don't really want to talk to me. I get that we agreed that we shouldn't talk, but you were so persistent this entire week. What changed over the course of a day?

 

Well.. nothing. You aren't bored anymore, and have your friends to help you get over your newest ex boyfriend. It honestly makes me sick that you had sex with this guy.. TWO WEEKS after you left me, you're moaning his name while he f*cks you senseless. You told me that he "took over" when you were having sex with him. :sick::sick::sick::sick:

 

brb going to throw up.

[kenmore]

I have been doing some soul searching, and though I will never be happy that our marriage is ending, I want you to know that I realize how awful it must have been for you to be trapped in such an unhappy marriage for so long. I'm adjusting my perspectives and I'm truly happy for you that it is coming to an end. Soon, you will have what you always wanted, to be alone. My best wishes for your future.

 

Ken

[smellysocksuni]

I was thinking about you earlier. And then I thought to myself... why? Why am I still thinking about you? You're with someone else. You're in a relationship with someone else. I'm not yours, anymore. You're not mine. It feels weird, but at the same time I don't really remember you. I get flashes of things you'd say or do, but.... I think I'm starting to accept it. I don't know. I can't gauge it because these feelings change every day.

 

I didn't contact you today despite the urge being strong.... it was hard but I don't want to be that ex that won't go away. That's embarrassing, and not me at all. I hope you're OK. I miss your cuddles. But you know what... I think it would be weird to sleep with you now, or to kiss you. The last time I saw you, you were acting so different from how I thought I knew you. We were never happy, were we. We weren't meant for each other, I see that now. Please let this feeling stay with me.

Edited March 23, 2015 by smellysocksuni

[ApexTitanium]

I know you want to be friends and are just trying to be nice to me.....but I can't let you deal with me and my emotions you don't deserve that. I'm sorry I stopped responding....I'm sorry you are worried. I just can't anymore.

I'm holding the ring I proposed to you with, sitting where I did it at drinking myself away. Just move on with your life and forget about me. You deserve to be happy and you deserve someone better than me.....and you know it.

[smellysocksuni]

I'm finding this thread very helpful - very therapeutic and cathartic, thank you LS.

 

OK. You know why I'm angry at you? You were supposed to be the one that saved me from my wreck of a life....I told you everything, everything about me and you just, well, you left. You left in perhaps the worst fashion anyone could leave another person. I remember seeing those pictures on your iPad; you naked in all sorts of poses, clearly pictures you were sending to other people. A couple of pictures of people topless - obviously pictures you'd received. And all this, at Christmas when I needed you the most. The time of year I find the hardest and this is what you were doing - you didn't even respect me enough to not do that to me.

 

You say the year with me was one of the most difficult of your life - was it really? Why did you stay so long, if it was? I think you just wanted me to blame myself rather than accept what you did to me was wrong and hurtful. Half of me would like to catch up with you in the future, but the other half doesn't - could I ever look at you without remembering all the pain I went through?

 

And now you're with whoever - I don't know who it is, and I don't want to know. I don't care. I know that once the shine wears off, you'll do it again to them. Just because you're successful career-wise and socially does not make you a nice person. You get what you want and then you just discard. I still carry shock with me that someone I felt "got" me could do this to me - could cut me off in such a horrible way. It will take me a long time to trust again. You did that. Do you know - out of all the women I have ever been involved with? You hurt me far more than any. They were all flings, not serious relationships...but you were, and you hurt me and disrespected me so much. I can't believe it. I can't believe you.

[KBarletta]

The strangest thing happened over the weekend that brought memories of us flooding back, and it was like you were there.

Our favorite TV show that we always used to watch together has been off the air for a while, and last night I checked the DVR and there were several new episodes that had been recorded. It reminded me of cuddling with you on the couch, making you popcorn, laughing together, being so at ease in each other's company. It made me sad, and made me wonder if I will ever find that kind of feeling again, with anyone. Part of me doesn't want to, because of how special it still feels that I found it with you. And part of me does, because I deserve better after how you walked away.