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Hey,

 

Since you left me for her, I've been feeling numb and indifferent. Sometimes I feel that it's a good thing, yet, I still find myself thinking about you and worrying about you. Why? Because you were so good to me in the beginning and all I have are good memories of you; but you don't feel the same way I do.

 

Sometimes going to sleep makes things easier for me, because even if I have nightmares, I wake up and realize I'm still alive. However that feeling of emptiness where you used to be settles on me... and I busy myself with my morning routine so I could stop thinking about what you did to me.

 

I had faults too. I was a cruel person to you and didn't learn to cherish you. Even though I want to fix everything, it is all now too late.

 

I'm turning to God more and more nowadays. The emptiness you left for me is being slowing replaced with my love for God. And I think that's something I should really thank you for because you made me believe in a Higher Being and I don't feel as alone as I do before.

 

I don't hate you, S., I really don't. I have so much regrets but with the help of my friends and therapist, I hope I can learn to forgive myself for the things I did to you. For the things we did to each other.

 

I always imagine you will always be in my heart, but for now, I just want to replace you with other things, just like you did me with her.

[KBarletta]

I have missed you more in the past week than any time since you left.

I miss the feeling of you next to me, on top of me, under me, holding my hand. I miss the sound of you talking to me. I miss the smell of you in the morning, at night. I miss hearing your footsteps, watching you sleep. I miss cleaning up after you, folding your laundry, doing your dishes, cooking for you. I miss kissing you goodbye in the morning, making you coffee, kissing you hello in the evening. I miss talking to you about absolutely nothing at the end of the day, laughing with you.

 

I miss making plans with you. That's what I miss the most.

[na49]

I wanted to see you today so that I could show you how strong I am. I wanted to see you, and look right past you like you are nobody.

 

I saw you briefly walk into class as I was leaving. I don't know if you saw me or not, but damn did that hurt. You saying hello to one of your friends before making your way to your seat. It's like you never broke up with anyone, and have been living your same life for months now. but you did break up with someone. You broke up with me. Twice. How could our relationship be so disposable to you that you are moved on so quickly? All of your promises feel so empty now. I don't understand why I believed that you wouldn't leave me again. Everyone told me it would happen, and it did. I guess I am the fool.

[minimariah]

I miss you.

 

and I'm in a lot of pain. i know it wasn't your intention to hurt me... but you did. and you're somewhere... happy and relieved. you probably don't even think about me. you probably forgot all about me and about us, all of our memories, all those sweet things we did together, all of our happy moments. and it's life, i know. it happens. what hurts me the most is how quickly i was replaced and how quickly i became irrelevant to you. i never saw it coming.

 

i hope you finally found happiness.

[kabukicho]

I saw you this afternoon with him...

 

i think i never felt so numb, sad, depressed in my life. The moment i saw you with him, my heart was torned apart, i heard it shattering and i felt empty.

 

Do you know i am still worrying about you? Love you and miss you? You are the first thoughts i have when i wake up?

I really really miss you and cant accept the situation and move on. For some reason i cant find closure and i am suffering.

 

Valentine is coming and soon your birthday...i am not the person next to you anymore or hold your shopping bags. Nor the person that stands next to you and helping you with cooking, cleaning or joking.

 

I dont see the essence of life anymore, i cant find basic happyness around me.

Sometimes i wish you well, but sometimes i hope you see how much suffering i am going through...

 

I still miss you my love.

[FixItCris]

These last two days have been amazing. I have my happy back. Last year I thought my happy came from you.

it didn't.

It was always in me, you were just there to share it

I am Happy again, and you are not here.

I will always treasure the time we had, and I will always dispise the way you ended it

So long. Thanks for all the good bits.

[minimariah]

i'm trying not to miss you.

i'm trying not to think about you.

i'm trying not to think about when... at what exact moment did you stop loving me. i'm trying not to be mad. i'm trying to accept the things i cannot change. i'm trying to be happy for you because i love you. i'm trying NOT to be mad.

 

and still... i miss you. i think about you, your feelings, what went through your head when you did what you did. i think back abut all those moments when we seemed happy, when YOU seemed happy. i'm mad at you - for breaking my heart, for not being honest with me, for not even trying to save what we could've saved, for not caring about my feelings and for me not being enough to stop you.

 

i'm so very sad today... imagining all those future moments i'll have to see you happy with your The One. and imagining that weird squeezing in my throat and the pain in my chest when i'll be, once again, reminded that there is someone you put before me.

 

i don't feel like i have the right to go through all of our memories, pictures, gifts... because i don't think you were ever truly happy. so i'm burning, throwing away, getting rid of everything that reminds me of you. every gift, every picture, every video... everything that has anything do to with US.

 

i'm going to pretend that you were just a mistake.

just like you really think i was.

 

Edited February 13, 2015 by minimariah

[na49]

I've been doing okay without you today. I remember how you said you didn't want to be with anyone but me. I was so stupid for believing that... The girl who had no problem dumping me when things got difficult doesn't want to be with anyone but me.

 

I have moments where I reflect on every single thing that I did wrong in the relationship. Then I remind myself that I could have done everything "right" and there is still no guarantee you would have stayed. I did plenty of things "right" in the relationship. Nothing I could have done would have been enough for you though. When the opportunity presented itself for you to be someone you deemed "better than me" there wasn't anything I could do to stop you from leaving. You were always looking over your shoulder for a better option while buttering me up like I was the best guy in the world. How could I be so stupid to believe you?

 

You haven't mourned the loss of your relationship with me once. The first time you were glad I was gone, and had the rock star douche rocket lined up. This time is no different. You just pursue a relationship with your friend's brother who has a crush on you.. I should have figured that you had feelings for him too. Getting rid of me was your only obstacle, and you got through that with no trouble. My being gone is something that you celebrate with your friends. I was the best boyfriend I could have ever been to you. I was honest. I wanted this more than anything. My feelings never mattered to you, so I'll need to find someone who cares.

[JollyDays]

I just realized something: I don't hate you, and I can't say that I dislike you. I just find the way we broke up kind of sad and tragic. In any event, I don't miss you. I miss consistent conversation, and being in a relationship, which is a stark difference from missing you. It's just like I said when you broke up with me years ago---you're just one lady in the world. Someone better---who is designed for me in every single way---will come along, and I will share my happy with her. Because my "happy" comes not from a woman, but from WITHIN. Goodbye everyone, and hope you all find your "happy" in life as well.

[batt]

**** you and valentines day, most over commercialized piece of crap

[The Poster]

Hey babe. I am beginning to see a light at the end of the tunnel now. Though this morning I was thinking about some of the things you said during our two months together.

 

You said you were mesmerized by me...

 

Once you saw my character and my values and how I treated you, you said you couldn't believe I was real...

 

You said I was making it hard for you NOT to fall for me...

 

You said I was the greatest man you've ever met...

 

You said you've never had anyone like me in your life before...

 

You said you saw so much potential in us...

 

You said I was an amazing and wonderful boyfriend...

 

...but still you broke my heart.

[CopingGal]

Hello you filthy whore. How are you? You are the biggest bastard who ever walked the earth. You are a waste of space, a waste of oxygen, and a waste of life. Screw you, you dirty slut. F-you, you balding bastard.

[Avante91]

Why should I be sad...

 

Yes I lost someone who didn't love me.

 

But they lost someone who loved them.

 

Such is life...x

 

Regards

Avante

X

[JFReyes]

Why should I be sad...

 

Yes I lost someone who didn't love me.

 

But they lost someone who loved them.

 

Such is life...x

 

Regards

Avante

X

 

I hear you friend. I don't know or understand either.

 

Peace

:-)

[CopingGal]

Hello Stupid!

[kenmore]

WTF? How are you getting satisfaction out of my suffering? Why does this make you happy?

 

You told me you love me. Now you say you are happier alone! It can't be both ways. Is everything you say a lie?

 

I just want you to know one thing. If our divorce goes through, you will NEVER hear from me again. I won't be a stupid dangling "friend" like your other exes. Once that gavel comes down, you will not see me again.

 

I will find a new woman. One who will stick with me even through the bad times. One who actually does love me, not just a play-acting show. She will hopefully be my last wife. The one I thought you were.

 

Go on. Keep the drama going. Continue your fun. It will be the last enjoyment you ever get out of my suffering. Five more months, then it's over. If you don't want that, then you had better change your tune quickly.

[kenmore]

Actually, that was not as satisfying as I thought it would be. :-|

[Agent Orange]

Before, I was afraid of everything. Now, I'm still afraid, but at least I know why. It's not much but it's progress. Too bad that isn't enough for you. Nothing was ever enough, me most of all.

 

Eventually I'll only remember you as the one who always made me feel inadequate. That is, until the day I forget you even exist.

[love1336x]

My mother won't be here tomorrow.

I have a funeral to go to.

I have to drive to New York.... a city where I am most nervous.

They will be tears, fake talks, just a stressful day tomorrow.

 

I want to ask you if you will hang out with me tomorrow after the funeral... I want that so badly.

[love1336x]

She SLEEPS with ANY ONE and EVERY ONE. You are not special... If you want to get your d*ck wet.

Go ahead. I don't care.

It's just you told me...

How much you didn't like her. How you didn't even kiss her.

You dated her already for a month. It didn't work out. So, why you barking up that tree? You know she's crazy.

Pshh, like I care.

pshh, like I care....

pshh... i do.

[Agent Orange]

Every time my anxiety flares up I feel like I need a Prince Charming to come and rescue me. That used to be you. Once I stop feeling anxious, I remember two things: I don't need a man to rescue me and if I did, it wouldn't be you.

[Crampaholic]

The past few days have been awful. I've been thinking about you a lot! I still feel better and keep doing my things, but gdi, the past few days...

What have you done to me! I keep replaying the last conversation we had, hell! you told me you didn't love me anymore, just like that... after 1 month being apart. Wtf is wrong with you, how can you be this cold!!! A month earlier, during your bday, we argued, and that day I felt I didn't wanna be with you anymore, yet you cried and begged for me to stay, that you loved me so much! and then the next day, when that awful night took place, the very next day you told me that you wished you were the one in pain instead of me, that the sight of me screaming and bleeding was heartbreaking and that you so wished to be there instead of me! that you knew right then that you loved me sooooo much. But now, you just don't love me anymore???? wtf is wrong with you!

Gosh.

[MagicRat09]

I've been very worried about you. I hope you're taking care of yourself. Because I can't, and I shouldn't. I wish you Health and Happiness.

[na49]

Hi.

 

You are a horrible person. Everyone in my family hates you now. Keep thinking that everyone loves you because you are just living a lie. Some of your "friends" even make fun of you. You are too stupid to realize it though. I always told you they were but you always denied it. They think you are horrible. I think you are horrible. You are horrible.

 

Bye.

 

(that felt good )

[love1336x]

I'm officially done. Cooked. Baked. Whatever.

Get me out of the oven please. Lol.

I feel so stupid, but I know your the idiot...

Le sigh. I hate you.