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[Blehh]

it's been a little more than a week and i'm not over it, i still write stupid tweets on an anon account and sometimes i'll rage on some random notes in the depths of my computer and literally everyday something reminds me of you.

it doesn't help that my friends /used/ to talk to you and as soon as that happened you detached from everyone but they randomly mention you and it just brings this flood back of memories.

you aren't even with that girl and you said you cut her off because she didn't like you, but you still tried to pursue while we were in a relationship. i have a right to be upset right? but why did it have to be this way? why throw a year away of something that was so great? we had so many ****ing plans and i thought you wanted this like why did you have to lie and then not even attempt to keep us?

i don't understand people

[stellamaria]

You emailed me again saying we'd "catch up soon". Er, no we won't. I don't want to catch up. I want you out of my life for good.

 

I've survived over a week without you propping me up each day, I don't need to go back to that.

[Cupid's Puppet]

Why did you send that text on Christmas? What did it even mean? What did I do to deserve that text? I had not even contacted you. It's like you were telling me you were done with me when that was obvious when you broke up with me. So why did I have to hear that again on Christmas? And if you love me, then why couldn't you be direct with me? I feel left with so many questions that I have to make answers for to move on.

[na49]

I still can't believe it's over. Are you sorry at all for what you did? Did your friends really think I was that bad? Did you tell them any of the good things I did for you? Did I do anything good for you? Maybe you did make the right decision..

[FixItCris]

Saw you on the motorway again today. Why can't I care as little about you as you do about me?

Oh yeah, that's right. I have a conscience.

[Nascarfan]

My cousin said he saw you at Frank and Son's yesterday with some fat neckbeard. I know the guy you left me for was there too. You're all part of the same friend group. The people you ditched me for when I was your only friend and did everything to make you feel special. Hell, I'm the one who first took you to Frank's. You probably don't think about things like that though. I'm hurting now, but there will come a time when I won't be. I'll be with the girl I was meant to be with, and they'll put you to shame. Be ready, karma will be coming to collect.

[Crampaholic]

I slept with someone else...

I didn't like it, I will definitely won't do it again. It was very weird... to sleep with someone different than you..

[JollyDays]

I don't know why I feel this way, but, I left you alone because you asked me to A DECADE AGO, and pretty much called me a child of Satan as a partner. Yes, I wasn't emotionally ready for you, but I moved on. Then you popped up on Yahoo IM a few years ago (6-7 years post-breakup) wanting a conversation, and I shut you down real quickly. Why did you do that to me, when my heart had healed? Ever since, I have wondered about you, and why should I? I know that I wasn't the best partner towards you, and I could be rude and indifferent (I've grown up so much since that time), but not telling me you were okay in the weeks and months after Hurricane Katrina was simply unforgivable. How could you think we could be friends after that? Yet I still have love in my heart for you, and I sometimes hope that we can talk and have some sort of amends. Yes, I'm a dumbass.

Edited February 8, 2015 by JollyDays

[KBarletta]

I saw your face the other day for the first time in almost two months and for a few moments (OK, a few days) I was back to square one. You were with another guy, and you were smiling. I wish I could say "I hope you're happy" but I am not at that point yet.

 

Right now, I hope you regret leaving me, and I hope you are as sad as I am. I loved you more than anyone I ever knew, and I still do. I wonder if you'll ever find someone else who loves you and takes care of you the way I did. I doubt it.

 

I didn't deserve to be abandoned, kicked aside without any warning, because you decided you "didn't feel the same" any more. I still feel the same, and damn it, I sure wish I didn't.

 

I keep going back and forth between feeling that I still love you and being angry with you for leaving me here with all these questions and nobody to answer them.

 

For so long, when I thought about the future, all I saw was you. Now, I don't see anything, and that's what hurts the most.

[na49]

I felt great earlier. I was really angry at you. I should be angry at you. Why do I want someone who thought so low of me that she disposed of me twice and carries on with her life like nothing is wrong? Why would I want to marry someone who bails when things get difficult? We are 20 and 21 respectively. I think we could have ironed out the problems we were having, and marriage would have made things harder. You loved to call me your "fiance" because we had bought promise rings. Did those rings mean nothing to you? Could I have been replaced with any random guy? Did you really love me? I thought it was a little early, but I actually was dumb enough to believe you. I saw the rest of my life with you. Now you aren't going to be in it. That sucks.

 

We are going out to dinner for my dad's birthday this weekend, and I'll be miserable thinking about how awesome it would have been if you were joining us. My parents liked you, and you liked my parents. You are dead to my parents now. They told me you aren't welcome here anymore. I don't care though. They'd learn to love you again, like they did the last time. I just wish you'd come back. Is life really that much better without me in it? Do you want to text me and just fight the urge like I do? Will you contact me again? Should I want you to contact me again? My heart was broken by you twice, but that doesn't matter to you at all. When we are apart, you are just a different person. You are this cold villain instead of the angel I always thought you were.

[JFReyes]

J, after last month's crisis I hope you're feeling better now. I'm glad I had nothing to do with it but still sad because it seems bad enough that you've been getting religious counseling, something you never even considered in our 10 years together and almost 2 apart. You're no longer the lady I fell in love with and with our new lives we may not get back together again but I'm still your friend. I pray the Lord to deliver you from this plight.

Edited February 10, 2015 by JFReyes

[Jet Lag]

I feel you are scared with time i will see you more negatively and leave. My personality type indicates that due to my empathy even if you do fall of the pedestal, I would adjust.

 

I feel we never discussed what happened. I felt that was unfair to me. You had been working through all this stuff in your head but you didn't share. You excluded me. Then in about 2, 2 minute conversations (with other people present) it ended - and you left. Went overseas. No further chance of discussion. You just withdrew. I feel I had no closure, no understanding.

 

I really believed we were special. I really believe what we had was special. You had helped me believe that with what you told me. Was this an accurate observation of what we had? Or did I read more into it than there was?

 

The last time you were here with kids running in and out all I got was you had withdrawn. I didn't get understanding so I'll go back to the last phone call. I need some sort of closure because all the phone call did was confuse me.

 

This is what I heard, you are not willing to look at a real relationship with me because if it didn't work it would be devastating because you believe I leave when things get hard. Your fear of abandonment means you are not willing to try. There are no promises. I remember you telling me once when things were really bad with Sam when I asked why you didn't leave and you responded that you were comforted, felt secure with her because she promised she'd never leave you. There are no promises, no guarantees. What I do know is that I am loyal to a fault. I don't leave as you stated when things get hard. I tried to "leave" you again and again because what we had was not healthy for any of us (I was trying to do the right thing) but I was never successful.

 

If we did get together and it didn't work out, it would be devastating but that would be due to how good it would be. Meaning, if it did work out, we would have one of those special relationships everyone want, one where we just love sitting together on the couch, one where the sex is fantastic and frequent, one where we miss each other when we are apart.

 

You say I see you as better than you are. I thought about that a lot. I see the best in you. I see the "you" that you overlook for whatever reason. It is still "you". I recently read a study pertaining to the probability of a relationship lasting. When the participants described their partner and their relationship in positive terms the expectation of the study was that the relationship would last.

 

I think the lack of a real end is what is making it hard for me to move on.

[Familia]

We were together for 7 years and have had our ups and downs, you walked away 2 weeks ago and I have been no contact for 8 days now.

 

I have just stumbled across a present you gave me the past Christmas, a book where you had written you looked forward to 2015 and being together for ever, I have just broke down and was about to just drive to your house or call. I know I can't make you love me or be back in my arms. So here is the release instead of making myself a mess when turned away in I turned up on your doorstep.

 

Polly I miss you and just want you in my arms, a long distant dream now xo

[KBarletta]

These past few days have felt like the beginning again. I know it won't last but right now I feel like I'm going to miss you forever.

 

It's hard to know whether to be sad over what we've lost, or angry at you for destroying it. I feel both, every day. It's hard to decide whether it would be easier to love you or to hate you. I feel both, every day.

 

When will I wake up and NOT have my first thought be of you? When will I stop wondering what you're doing? Why do I even care? You left me. Why would I want someone who considers me disposable and who walks away when we had so much left to do? Who bailed when we still had so much of our lives left to live? WHY should I want someone who would rather be with someone else?

[JonjMie]

I dreamt of you last night and it's had me on the verge of crying all day, I haven't cried since we broke up but i dreamt we held each other and you said you loved me, it's had a very profound effect on me today.

 

I drove past your house just to connect with you again but I know your not coming back.

 

I miss you

[KBarletta]

Why do I even CARE, when you didn't?

Why do I want to be with you, when you don't?

Why do I still love you, after you stopped?

 

I wish I could turn this feeling off like a light switch and be done with you. You don't deserve these feelings that I still have for you. I hate that I still love you.

[FixItCris]

I Still miss who you used to be. I still miss us. I'm getting back to who I used to be though, which I love. I still have conversations with you in my head, but mostly these days they're more like arguments. We never argued, so I guess it's my brain making up for it. I would say I hope you're happy, but I don't really care. I hope karma gives you the great big bitch slap you deserve.

[JollyDays]

Well A, I had some business to take care of, which I guess is a good thing (in a sense), because I really haven't been thinking of you. In fact, the last two days have been going pretty well for me. I don't know how you are, if you now have a family of your own, and, quite frankly, I don't think I should care. It's just my mind playing with all of the "What ifs" of our former relationship. Well, here's the reality A: you broke up with me, and there's no reason to wonder about someone who isn't thinking about me. Have a good one. I'm about to watch old school MLB playoff games.

[na49]

I hate having to act like a stranger. Can we please just go back to the way things were? I'd do anything.. I miss you so much.

[jam3s84]

Oh hey A, I noticed you emailed me after I blocked your number.....

Hoping I was doing OK?

Yeah after the three years of continuous lying, cheating, blaming, projecting...

After you kept the dog I raised...house we built....everything I purchased....

Hustled me out of money when you make 2X what I do...

Continued to lie and use my love for you even after I left....

Worked your magic to keep me on a leash, just far enough back for your comfort....

Refused to make any changes or work on yourself, even when I paid for your counseling...

After you faked a pregnancy....to keep me invested.....

Started dating a month after our engagement broke off.....

Called a girl I was dating after I was honest with you about it, hacked into my phone account to get her number, creating drama and chaos......

Convince me there is something wrong with me through the three years of torture.....I endured....

Knew my past and what I wanted in life, nothing more then a family a loving stable family and you pretended you did too until you got everything you could from me....

You're 140 lb plastic parasite, your as sick as your alcoholic father and gambling mother, as hopeless as your brother, as ignorant as your sister.....

You are the prototype of narcissistic

I own my co-dependence, my mistaken beliefs about what someone would do for love, for security, for a healthy family, I own my decision to keep trying, I face the insanity I kept alive, ultimately today I can face myself in the mirror

I don't need you, don't want you, don't think your anything more than a helpless moron who's sole attribute is fading day by day, minute by minute. One day you will face everything you have done, I hope your life flashes before your eyes long before your dead, because you will end up on the other end of a bottle or poker machine just agonizing until death saves you.

Love J

Edited February 10, 2015 by jam3s84

[na49]

I hate having to act like a stranger. Can we please just go back to the way things were? I'd do anything.. I miss you so much.

 

You know what? on second thought, let's keep being strangers. I don't know you anymore. Everything I thought you were doing was right. You were looking for a way out. You did want to be with your friend's brother. You are an evil witch, and I don't want to go back to the way things were. I deserve someone much better than you. Good luck in life. You'll need it. I miss the relationship. I miss who I thought you were. I don't miss you.

 

I won't show you how hurt I am anymore. If you can be so happy without me, then I can be twice as happy without you. I don't even care that much what your friends think of me. I will hold my head high when I see them too. I know the truth. You pulled wool over their eyes too. Eventually this will all catch up to you. No good man will put up with you like I did. Goodbye and good riddance. I start my life without you today. You won't continue to have this power over me because I won't let you.

[KBarletta]

I have wanted to e-mail you or call you every day this week. I am glad I haven't. Why should I give you the satisfaction of knowing that I miss you, when you haven't ONCE asked me how I am doing or shown the slightest interest in me in the past three months?

 

I look forward to meeting someone better than you. Good luck finding someone better than me.

[na49]

I was hoping that anger would last... but it didn't. I just got home from work, and I can't tell you anything that happened today. There's so many things that have happened since you left that I want to tell you. Every time something happens I think "oh! I'm gonna tell her!" then the curtain comes down on me, and I realize that you are gone. Forever.

 

I'll remember you as my first relationship, and a girl who left me twice. How will you remember me? Was I really that bad?

[Familia]

Do not break NC , somehow something came over me last night and I tried calling her not once but three times and a text message all with no response.

 

Far out I feel terrible now after 8 or so days going strong and I break down. This thread will be the new her for contact

[JollyDays]

I haven't been right in damn near 15 years. Yeah, pathetic, I know. You see A, it was hard trying to love you after selflessly loving someone in my younger days and having my heart ripped out in a previous relationship. So when we met, we never really had a shot to being with, since a year away from her hadn't healed my heart entirely. Quite frankly, I was always expecting you to leave me, never truly allowing you to see the love that I had for you, nor being open enough to allow you to express your love freely to me. I'm sorry for not being there 100% during our relationship, especially given that it was a LDR. I have been adrift ever since you removed yourself from my life a decade ago, proverbially hitching a ride (meeting new women) in an attempt to find my way home. I love you, and I miss you babe.

Edited February 12, 2015 by JollyDays