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[CopingGal]

You lied to me about everything under the sun. I don't even know your real name. You are a compulsive liar, a sociopath, and a narcissist. You are pure evil. You are not human. You are some thing....some evil thing that should have never been born. You ruin everything you touch. You are just pure filth and evil. You're a whore, a bastard, a con artist, and a jackazz all rolled into one. You are the most disgusting thing I've ever met. You are pure evil. You are worthless. You are a joke. You are nothing but a thing...an evil, pathetic thing that everyone grows to hate. You are nothing...just nothing. Screw you, azzwipe.

Edited February 1, 2015 by CopingGal

[Xemyd]

I wish we could still talk. I feel like I'm going to have a mental breakdown this week, I miss you so bad. It's been complete NC for a year and I'm dying, I literally don't feel right without you still. Please come home.

[FixItCris]

Happy birthday baby. It feels so wrong to say it knowing you don't care. I still love you and I miss us.

[love1336x]

I took you off Facebook, deleted your number, and deleted my own Instagram.

Ughhh, I don't wanna look anymore. I don't wanna look anymore. We try to make this work.... Five times.... We broke up and got back together five times. In a year....

You're so sweet and down to earth, but I can't love you anymore. I love myself more. I need to love myself more.

Breaking up and getting back together again isn't healthy over and over again. Ugh. I wish we could have made it work. You have no idea how much I loved you, adored you, ugh. I miss you now more than ever. :\

[lostsoul6486]

It's Superbowl Sunday and I'm a little drunk. I've been dating someone new and things are pretty good so why are you the person on my mind right now? I miss you a lot despite all of the ****ty things you did to me and I don't think you'll ever understand how much you meant to me. With all of that said, I'm proud of myself for not succumbing to you and ignoring that text you sent me a week ago. It hurts to say this but you are poison to me. I just wish you wouldn't be on my mind at all anymore.

[guest569]

I've got a fricken amazing promotion. I knew i would. I believed in me. My life is back on track and i am fine without you. I hate you but i still love you and feel sorry for you at times, not sure why. Because I hate being angry at you? But in my entire life i have never experienced such pain. I don't want to be bitter and angry but you have caused me so much grief. I've been far too busy to think of you as often as i used to. But i still have these low points.

[love1336x]

I feel like a weight been lifted off my chest.

I hope I keep feeling this way. Must be a good sign that I'm healing.

[Crampaholic]

Oh Hey C!

 

Just calling to let you know that after our conversation last night after I begged like an idiot and you kept telling me that you didn't love me anymore, that you didn't fancy me anymore, that ran out of love and that you saw me 2 days ago and didn't feel the urge to talk to me? Well, I just wanted YOU to know that I picked up the few dignity I had left and thought that you are a piece of crap! 2 years where I knew you loved me! where you begged for me to never leave you and now, after a month of our breakup you are just over it? F you! Keep getting drunk at bars and partying like there was no tomorrow, make out with every person you want! I figured, if you're over it so fast, you never loved me as much as you said. Sure, I did make mistakes, I am sorry I turned into a jealous controlling freak! But overall I was a pretty good girlfriend, hell! Even your family loved me.. Whic had never happened with your previous relationships. So yeah, I won't be feeling guilty anymore. If you had little feelings for me or show some appreciation, you wouldn't be so harsh. I will move on now and stop idealizing you. You're not worth it, finally showed your true colors. Goodbye.

[dyna85]

As much as I like moving on, sometimes I stop and think of him, and feel like noooo, I don't want him to slip away. I don't want him to be gone forever.

 

If he's not on my mind, then I'm not on his mind. Right? That makes me sad. I want him to at least think of me.

[stellamaria]

I hate you. I love you. I mostly just miss you. It's hard. I feel sorry for myself. I feel more sorry for everyone I hurt because of this, because of us.

[love1336x]

I almost check your facebook.... What... the... flick...

I hate snow days.

[na49]

lol I posted in this thread almost 2 years ago, and here I am again. Mourning the loss of the same person.

 

I've got nothing to say to you. I have millions of reasons why I think you really left, but they really don't matter. I play earlier today in my head, and wonder if I could have done things differently. I am convinced that you made your mind up last week. I think that you just love attention from all of your male friends, and want to date the guy who has a crush on you. Good luck in that relationship. There's not a snowball's chance in heck it will last as long as we did. I loved your family, but your mom thought this was best. That's fine because my mom thought I should have left you last week. (and should have never taken you back in the first place)

 

I'll be graduating next spring, and you'll be stuck here for an extra semester (or more if you don't get your act together). Good luck, and good riddance! I'll miss you and everything we had, but you lost me for good. I wish the next guy you date a lot of luck. You aren't perfect either sweetheart. Everything could not have been my fault like you think it is. You'll have to realize that at some point. I guess I did have some stuff to say to you. Oh well. Bye. Again.

[love1336x]

I like how you are suffering as much as I am.

I love facebook..... Breaking NC wasn't bad at all today.

It gave me false hope as usually, but it made feel... happy.

[me85]

As much as I like moving on, sometimes I stop and think of him, and feel like noooo, I don't want him to slip away. I don't want him to be gone forever.

 

If he's not on my mind, then I'm not on his mind. Right? That makes me sad. I want him to at least think of me.

 

I fully relate to every word in this comment. Anytime I may be tricked into thinking I miss my ex it's really just my ego wanting him to miss ME. I don't really miss him ... who he is ...

 

But they do think of us and miss us. In their own way, they hurt too, even if only a tiny tiny bit.

[dyna85]

I fully relate to every word in this comment. Anytime I may be tricked into thinking I miss my ex it's really just my ego wanting him to miss ME. I don't really miss him ... who he is ...

 

But they do think of us and miss us. In their own way, they hurt too, even if only a tiny tiny bit.

 

I think you're right. I don't miss how he made me feel once his true colors showed, though it makes me sad that someone could turn so cold. Sometimes I wonder if he does miss me or hurt though. He told me how quickly he got over one of his exes, so I'm not sure. He's probably going about life like I never existed, meanwhile I'm still hurting so deeply.

 

Typically, a few weeks would dull such pain, I would think. Yet, for the past 2 days, I have felt like I've gone all the way back to square one. It hit me last night and then continued on through this morning. Makes no sense. I'm not checking his fb. I'm strong in terms of nc. However, I just feel so upset at times and like I'll never get over it. I just feel like time is standing still, yet I'm at 42 days nc. The more time that elapses, the more I realize he truly doesn't recognize my worth, my value as a human being, and it makes me both sad and sick at the same time.

[Crampaholic]

I'm feeling a bit anxious and filled with doubt right now..

 

So, last time I saw you.. I was a bit drunk... I saw you dancing with that girl... yeah the one I used to be very very jealous of... I saw you dancing very very close to her... and I thought I saw you two kiss... however I saw you just for a few seconds. I couldn't stand the sight..

 

Now I'm not sure... maybe I saw what I wanted to see? this won't change anything and I won't approach you... but I just wanna know if you actually kissed... because if you didn't.. then I guess I still have some work to do regarding jealousy and seeing what's not there..

[me85]

I think you're right. I don't miss how he made me feel once his true colors showed, though it makes me sad that someone could turn so cold. Sometimes I wonder if he does miss me or hurt though. He told me how quickly he got over one of his exes, so I'm not sure. He's probably going about life like I never existed, meanwhile I'm still hurting so deeply.

 

Typically, a few weeks would dull such pain, I would think. Yet, for the past 2 days, I have felt like I've gone all the way back to square one. It hit me last night and then continued on through this morning. Makes no sense. I'm not checking his fb. I'm strong in terms of nc. However, I just feel so upset at times and like I'll never get over it. I just feel like time is standing still, yet I'm at 42 days nc. The more time that elapses, the more I realize he truly doesn't recognize my worth, my value as a human being, and it makes me both sad and sick at the same time.

 

I'm sorry to hear this but look how far you've come! It really doesn't have anything to do with them at all. It's how we are adapting to change. That's not easy to do. You're feelings are going to be all over the place. There's no time limit for the healing process.

 

The hardest thing to do is get over what they think of us...why don't they love us? What did we do/not do? Even when don't ask ourselves those questions, it's still hard for us to accept they don't want us anymore for whatever reason but you know what? We're truly so much better off without people in our lives who don't value us.

[Itspointless]

Typically, a few weeks would dull such pain, I would think. Yet, for the past 2 days, I have felt like I've gone all the way back to square one. It hit me last night and then continued on through this morning. Makes no sense. I'm not checking his fb. I'm strong in terms of nc. However, I just feel so upset at times and like I'll never get over it. I just feel like time is standing still, yet I'm at 42 days nc. The more time that elapses, the more I realize he truly doesn't recognize my worth, my value as a human being, and it makes me both sad and sick at the same time.

You are right that feeling of them slipping away is horrible. It took I think seven months for me (three months no contact) to feel for the first time relieved for some moments. These days I function like normal, but still can feel that ache as it is still there (ten months no contact). I can't say that I am really happy, but there are moments I really enjoy. What else can we do than go on? Contacting them does not bring any solution, although sometimes doubts still hit me (what if).

 

Be strong, it will get better. I you had said it ten years ago to me I would have had trouble believing you, but now I think it can happen again. It is just that our baggage gets bigger as well. I guess that's the price of age.

[love1336x]

I check again!

You deleted your sad entry.

Why? Blah.

=(

[Itspointless]

I check again!

You deleted your sad entry.

Why? Blah.

=(

I think I only added an enter I do feel a bit depressed tonight though.

[Brokenpenguin]

I know we had our problems. I know I did things I should not have done, but I never treated you like sh;t. I have never said a single bad word about you and I never will.

 

So how come you leave me for someone else, braking my heart, yet you and your new boyfriend go around telling people I tretead you like **** and just make me out to be an absolute horrible person when you know I loved you with everything and gave it my all to make you happy, sure I made mistakes but I don't deserve this.

 

I know you don't care but how do you think I feel that I have to see you with him everyday?

[na49]

I want to text you, but I don't know what I want to say. Do I want to apologize to you for everything? Do I want to ask for forgiveness, and another chance? I forgot how much this hurt the first time, it may even hurt more this time. Even though I know so much more now. You have class soon, should I wait until after your class to text you?

[dyna85]

me85: Thank you for your kind support and the gentle nudge forward. You're right in that healing is a journey full of various hills and valleys and we need to find our own way and it's about us. I have also thought about how I wouldn't want to be with someone who didn't value me. I think my heart is far too lenient in that regard.

 

Itspointless: It is nice to know that as more time passes, it won't be as bad. Not looking forward to even the persistent ache though. You're right that we must press on because contacting them will not bring any solution. Lord, have I learned this the hard way. That's one thing I know for sure, though I'm with you on the doubts creeping in from time to time.

 

Letting go is never easy. That's for sure. Sometimes I envy those who find peace of mind so quickly and aren't affected by a breakup. But then I realize that if you're a feeling/sensitive person and deeply moved by love, how can you not be affected?

[Itspointless]

Sometimes I envy those who find peace of mind so quickly and aren't affected by a breakup.

I often have wondered about that.

[Crampaholic]

Hey C,

 

So... it seems that I saw what wasn't there... I guess I mentally owe you an apology. You weren't kissing that girl. It doesn't change things and I will not reach you.. I just have to work harder regarding that aspect.

*sigh*

I'm sorry