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[Xemyd]

Hey L, I still miss you like crazy. The past 15 or so months have been absolute hell on me, I want you in my life, I want to talk to you. I worry about you all the time, especially knowing that you're working out of town and the weather/roads aren't too good. You're not the safest driver.

 

I still love you and I wish I had told you, I hate myself for not telling you how I felt.

 

I wish you would reach out.

[BroknHart]

I miss you, I miss you like I've never missed anyone or anything before. I've never felt this horrible, it's a bunch if emotions that consume me every second of everyday.

Did you ever think about how much you would hurt me? Didn't you know just how much I loved you? I told you I was so vulnerable to anything about us because of the love I had (and still have) for you, yet you preferred to throw it all away. That's what gets me. You seem as though the relationship didn't mean much to you, while it meant the world to me. You walked away from what we has without a problem.

Is it so easy to fall out of love with me? Or did you not mean a lot of what you said during the years of our relationship? I hate myself for falling in love with you. I hate that I put you as my priority while I wasn't yours. I always did what I though would make you happy because seeing you happy made my day. I know I was picky about certain things sometimes, but that was after I would give in to you getting your way most of the time. How could you not see that? Why didn't you ever try to think about what it was like for me?

The crazy thing is that even though I hurt more during our years together, I still don't think we had it so bad to end us. Life and love aren't perfect. You need to understand that. You have to work for the best things in life. You can't just give up so easily. Why did you give up? I never wanted to give up. I was so sure you were my soulmate, but then you did what you did.

You killed me inside.

[Avante91]

I wrote a letter today at work I spent 5 hours writing all my thoughts and feelings and memories to try release some negative energy. I re read it 8 times and then something clicked....

 

"I've re read this 8 times and now I realise I deserve so much more. You will never get to read this letter but at least I can have peace of mind. I gave you everything and so many chances but you were never happy, I was never enough.

I don't need anti-depressants, or to visit my doctor or counselling - I've realised it's you! You drag me down, you lower my self esteem, you walk in and out of my life keeping me on a chain that you yank when it suits you, and slacken when you can't be bothered. Before I met you I had never heard of depression, I loved life, everyday was exciting - I had tonnes of friends, I was the life of the party. Your constant puppeteering of my emotions caused me to deteriorate emotionally. I convinced myself everything was my fault.

 

I loved you and think I always will but you are jealous, insecure and immature. The worst part is you are so subtle you manipulate every situation so that you are the victim. You use the word love as a label to justify the pain you cause.

 

Love to me is unconditional. You said each time I hurt you that you loved me a little less, and a small part of you still does love me - your behaviour speaks volumes, actions speak louder than words.

 

I long for the day I am fully healed and I can smile at you without malice, just to show you I am okay. I don't want to play your games anymore deep down I don't even want you back - I miss what I thought we had, who I thought you were. I miss what we once had, but the girl I fell in love with no longer exists. You are but a shell of the girl I adored, a ghost who haunts me frequently.

 

I deserve more for myself and I will not give up on life. No matter what you try and do to provoke a reaction I will not react; get with whoever you want, try humiliate me publicly and online, bad mouth me to your friends and family. I was once strong without you and I can be strong again and I can walk away with my head held high knowing my intentions were pure and my heart was always engaged. It is you who has lost something special.

 

Remember that love is unconditional; I will always follow my heart because I am genuine, sensitive and real. It doesn't phase me to cry or show vulnerability - I am human I make mistakes, I learn from them and I grow.

 

I will no longer bend to meet your insecurities, no longer comply to soothe your jealousy and possessiveness. I know you feel a sense of pride having ended it - that's okay call it my leaving gift. I am satisfied that you will realise one day what a mistake it was, and to be perfectly honest with you it's already too late.

 

My ego will heal, the rejection will pass, one day the pain will leave. The only thing left will be indifference. I truthfully wish you all the best in love, life and happiness - I wish you no hurt or harm. I will never be in contact with you again - I know you will try in a couple of months but I'm changing my number, you give up the right to talk to me as a person when you blocked me on everything and shouted at me in public.

 

I don't hate you - I still love you right now - but you are not good for me you are toxic. Hate causes too many problems in life and resolves none. The heartbreak I feel right now is intense - but I enjoy it, it proves at least my love for you was real and this will motivate me to better myself.

 

Hopefully one day we will not be friends, nor enemies - just strangers with memories.

 

(3 year relationship 2nd major breakup 30days LC, last year she came back in 3 months with no contact - this year I hope NC moves us both on and I don't take her back)

 

[love2ride]

Going through fb and finally deleting any comments you left on pics. I have you blocked but your profile pic still shows up. You look gorgeous. I get sweaty and feel it in the pit of my stomach when I see and read your sweet comments. Gawd I miss you and want to contact you so bad. It hurts so much I hate it. **** my life!!

[candie13]

I decided to avoid seeing you indefinitely. Best way of going forward is no never look back. You don't deserve to even catch a glimpse of me. You will never know. No one will ever know. This charade took long enough already. May I never see you. May I never hear your name again. May I simply forget you ever existed, like children waking up from a nightmare and realizing it's not real. You're not real. I have imagined everything behind you. And like all chimera, may you disintegrate at the first light of sun .

[Lunara]

I removed you from all my contact lists because I loved you too much. Our relationship was too painful. You couldn't let go of your ex to just be happy with me, but that's okay. If she's who you want to be with, fine. I hope you'll be happy. It hasn't even been a day but I already miss you more than anything in the world. I honestly love you with all of my heart and I'm so sorry that things weren't working between us.

Edited December 30, 2014 by Lunara

[love2ride]

I dont understand why you keep hurting me. Why you think its ok to contact me and string me along then ignore me again. How do you just shut people out of your life so easily. Its not fair. It hurts. Do you miss me? Do you even care at all. I miss you so much I don't understand so much of this. I want the pain to stop!

[Jingle14]

Do you remember New Years Eve 2010, my darling? The start of 'our year'. Only it wasn't, was it, because you bailed on me. I sacrificed so much for you but you still bailed. But I still love you, my darling and beloved D. Please think of me.

[Jingle14]

Do you remember New Years Eve 2010, my darling? The start of 'our year'. Only it wasn't, was it, because you bailed on me. I sacrificed so much for you but you still bailed. But I still love you, my darling and beloved D. Please think of me. I'm so tired of pretending I'm over you and of trying to be normal. I'll never be over you.

[Petunia20]

Wow! I havent visited this site since July 14 2014 according to the welcome message. Not sure when my last post was. Today is the last day of 2014. I will be 30 years old in about 6 weeks. My life sure isnt how i expected it would turn out. I wanted a baby by the time i was 30. I dont even have a boyfriend now, occasional hook ups but those dont really matter. And the boyfriend potential guys i meet, i dont really care for. I feel like after a year and half I should be completely over this. However, i am not. I am close but not quite there yet. I no longer want you back. I dont see any scenario in this world that would ever bring us back together. I dont expect to ever see you again, although i must admit, im very curious of seeing you. I loved you so much, you could literally do no wrong in my mind. You were the perfect man for me, and when you betrayed me, it was like my eyes were finally open. I'm doing quite well for myself. I have everything I could want and need. I'm missing companionship. I feel like I'm ready to be in a relationship now with someone else, but i havent found a person who i can see a future with. While you plan your wedding with the side chick you left me for I struggle to find love and comfort in another man. This guy, he really loves me and I would love to give him an opportunity but my heart is just not into him. I feel sad. i feel like i owe him my loyalty and myself for him loving me and treating me so well. My mom says "love and protect those who love you, dont love and care for those who dont" so she's basically telling me to learn to love this guy. Not sure, I hope this new year brings more changes into my life, good changes. I can honestly say I have not forgiven you for what you did to me. And i dont think its fair for you to be happy with her. I dont wish you happiness and maybe thats one thing i have to work on, forgiving you without you asking for it. You were a deceiving and selfish human being towards me, so why is it that you're having the happily ever after ending?

[Cupid's Puppet]

Wow! I havent visited this site since July 14 2014 according to the welcome message. Not sure when my last post was. Today is the last day of 2014. I will be 30 years old in about 6 weeks. My life sure isnt how i expected it would turn out. I wanted a baby by the time i was 30. I dont even have a boyfriend now, occasional hook ups but those dont really matter. And the boyfriend potential guys i meet, i dont really care for. I feel like after a year and half I should be completely over this. However, i am not. I am close but not quite there yet. I no longer want you back. I dont see any scenario in this world that would ever bring us back together. I dont expect to ever see you again, although i must admit, im very curious of seeing you. I loved you so much, you could literally do no wrong in my mind. You were the perfect man for me, and when you betrayed me, it was like my eyes were finally open. I'm doing quite well for myself. I have everything I could want and need. I'm missing companionship. I feel like I'm ready to be in a relationship now with someone else, but i havent found a person who i can see a future with. While you plan your wedding with the side chick you left me for I struggle to find love and comfort in another man. This guy, he really loves me and I would love to give him an opportunity but my heart is just not into him. I feel sad. i feel like i owe him my loyalty and myself for him loving me and treating me so well. My mom says "love and protect those who love you, dont love and care for those who dont" so she's basically telling me to learn to love this guy. Not sure, I hope this new year brings more changes into my life, good changes. I can honestly say I have not forgiven you for what you did to me. And i dont think its fair for you to be happy with her. I dont wish you happiness and maybe thats one thing i have to work on, forgiving you without you asking for it. You were a deceiving and selfish human being towards me, so why is it that you're having the happily ever after ending?

 

 

I don't agree with your mother. There are a few men after my heart, but I am not into them. I have tried to fall in love with them, but my heart's not into it. Don't try to force yourself to feel what isn't there or you'll go crazy or be miserable or both.

 

 

I'm also in the same boat as you where I'm pushing 30 and wanted a house, husband, and kids by now. I think us women are the only ones who fret over this because of the biological clock. You know our life ends at 35. -sarcasm-.

 

 

Anywho, so why is he having the happily ever after ending? That question sounds like you think you won't have a happily ever after ending. I think you will. Every fairytale doesn't have the same storyline. Some have more chapters, longer chapters, and are that much more exciting.

[polaske93]

It's been 4 months now.. and a full month snice I sent you a message. I finally felt like I was getting over you, when you snuck back into my mind tonight. I shouldn't feel this way after everything you put me through. I gave you everything I had, and so much unconditional love, and in reality you never even cared for me. It's weird.. I felt like I was perfect for you, but for some reason I wasn't. Anyway I was just outside smoking and I got the feeling like you were here, like you gave me a hug, and your head was resting on my chest. I thought about your smile, and the songs you used to sing to me.. I realized how much i miss that, but I don't miss you.. I could never look at you the same, but at the same time I miss those moments.. I wish i could roll back time and that I could just experience the happiness I felt with you just one more time

[JFReyes]

Happy New Year J...

 

Hope it turns out better for you than the last one.

Health and happiness.

 

(Texted her the exact same message she sent me 1 year ago today, several months after dumping me unfairly after 10 years together. Today our situations are reversed and I don't expect or care about a reply. Call it petty revenge if you will -- although I truly wish her well -- but it goes to show that life's a wheel that goes around and sometimes you're on top, and sometimes on the bottom; never forget that.)

 

Peace

:-)

Edited January 1, 2015 by JFReyes

[love2ride]

I thought the new year would magically help me let you go but it hasn't. Im thinking about you a lot today and I miss you. I wanna see you. I shouldn't have feelings of love for you. Your such a heartless bitch to me. All you ever do is use me when you are lonely and shut me out when your not. You never say anything loving towards me or nice.

[me85]

I've been promising myself for 2 months that once 2015 arrives I would no longer be in contact with you and I intend to keep that promise because I want this year to be soo much better for me. And every year after. It's time for me to completely let you go now. No more wanting to keep in touch with the likes of you. You're so unhealthy for my well being. I've never been mean to you. Maybe I should've told you how I really felt about you. How much you hurt me and what a bad guy you are to people, especially to me. I'll never know why you dislike me so much. I never treated you badly. Anyway. This is really the end of ever talking to you or seeing you again. Goodbye.

[ZiggyZoo]

I don't want to contact you, exactly, but I sure want to unblock you on FB and see what exactly you commented on that on of our mutual friends responded to. Something about pissing in a pool? It may be nothing, but of course my mind went right to you and some new girl renting a hotel room somewhere with a pool and inviting people over. I know that if this proves to be the case, it'd kill me right now and undo all the good that NC has done. So I'm going to keep you blocked and keep my ignorance intact. I've done three and a half weeks NC, three days since I checked the group we're both in to see if you've read any new posts. I'm proud of this and am not going to wreck it.

 

And FWIW, I'm pissed that I cried over you, when I thought I was getting over you. But setbacks are fine, and so am I. You missed out, jerkwad.

[FixItCris]

Happy new year. I hope it's treating you well.

I just wanted to say I'm sorry I reacted like such an ass. I have issues of my own that I am working on now.

I wanted to start this year off with a clean slate with no regrets.

I wish you happiness and love and light.

[cmack102]

Each night seems to get a little better, but then there's nights like tonight that just set me off. Something hits me that reminds me of you, and it sets off every bit of my body in rebellion to the thought of you, but part of me likes it and wants you to stay in my head, and some nights I'm too weak to fight it. I'm not going to to let tonight be one of those nights, you're not missing me, why should I miss you. But oh god I do, so much. I'm not sure what I miss exactly, we barely had anything concrete, but God, I ****ing miss you.

[FancyFace]

I just wanted to say, from the deepest part of my heart, F*%# you and the horse that you rode in on. I wish you nothing but absolute unadulterated ill will, 7 years of bad luck and poor health for the rest of your life. Good luck with you ex that you rebounded on using me that you have now run back to like the pathetic weak puppy that you are. She treated you terribly through the relationship, cheated on you and then left you for another man. This time I hope the man she leaves you for is your brother. Oh and the co-worker that you were flirting with, shes not that special but I hope she messes you up too. Punk!

[dyna85]

I hate that I had hoped you would have contacted me on Christmas or New Years. I hate that I had hoped you would have contacted me in the days beforehand, just to give me some form of closure out of the kindness of your heart. Then again, I have considered whether your response would have hurt me worse than the silence. Time has proven though that any response would have been preferable to none. Your silence is like a dagger to my heart. If the purpose of your silence is to hurt me, you have succeeded. I didn't think you could be so cold and completely cut me off without explanation. I would wish this pain upon no one.

[JFReyes]

Time has proven though that any response would have been preferable to none.

 

No response is a response; I know, I've received it way more often than given it and can understand it. I has been said that the opposite of love is indifference. Please move on for your own well being.

 

Peace

:-)

Edited January 2, 2015 by JFReyes

[The Poster]

I really miss you babe. I have no idea what you're feeling or what you're thinking. We may not have been together a long time, but I still believe in us. I still believe in you. I remember all those things we talked about, all those things we said. I still feel like we are a great match. That we both want the same things in life. I remember all those long phone conversations we had when we were getting to know each other. I was mesmerized by how magical it was. How similar we were and how strongly we connected, how strongly we clicked. Even our differences meshed well in my eyes. We could have and still could be great together. I absolutely believe that with every ounce of my soul, but it takes two hearts to beat into one.

 

I know that this had to happen to me though. I needed a wake up call to work on myself and get my life turned around. It hurts but it's what I needed. Maybe soon, when my life is back on track and I'm moving in the right direction, God will bring you back to me in some way. You don't know this, but you have helped me so much in my personal transformation. You helped me see good things within me that I was too blind to see myself. I'm a more confident and positive person because of you. I'm working so hard to sow a new mentality and get my life back on track. I've made some nice progress already.I hope you were able to get some positive things from me as well. Every kind, caring, loving thing I ever said or did for you was 110% genuine. Sometimes you may feel like you don't deserve it, but you do.

 

When we split I know you were going through a lot of stress and struggle in your own personal life. I really hope things are going better for you now. I hope your family and your dog are doing well. I know that if it's meant to be, you'll come back somehow. I trust God's plan. Whether that plan involves us being together or not, I wish you all the best in life and love.

Edited January 3, 2015 by The Poster

[Jingle14]

No response is a response; I know, I've received it way more often than given it and can understand it. I has been said that the opposite of love is indifference. Please move on for your own well being.

 

Peace

:-)

 

 

If only it were that easy, none of us would be on here and there'd be no need for the forum. I wish that were the case.

[Eddy Street]

Hey *****, I just finished watching Contact with my mom and it got me thinking of you. It sure beats Interstellar, no comparison. You were right, it is the best science fiction movie ever made. I hope all is well! Hope you found someone and if not, I'd love to hear from ya. That idea has crossed my mind a lot since we last spoke, that you would write to me, randomly... I daydreamed about it quite a bit and I even thought a message from somebody else was a message from you for a split second back in November. Sometimes the urge to write to you is very strong... I miss you, but I know I made a decision and I still believe it was the right one. Hope you found someone special, you deserve it.

 

Hope your 2015 turns out amazing.

 

Love,

Eddy

Edited January 3, 2015 by Eddy Street

[JFReyes]

If only it were that easy, none of us would be on here and there'd be no need for the forum. I wish that were the case.

 

I didn't say it was easy, but it is necessary. I haven't healed completely myself, but by now can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Give it time.