Post here instead of contacting your ex!

[Cherrybreeze]

I'm still thinking of all the good things, but I can't tell you...you don't want to hear it. You making dinner for me when I got done with work (and vice versa, I would make dinner for you and the boys, and when you all loved it, I felt so satisfied and needed). Movies, popcorn, coffee, football, even the Laundromat. We did so many things together and we loved it. When I had pneumonia I was so sick. The day I went to the ER, you had dinner waiting for whenever I got there. That night when we went to bed (you bragged how you'd never get sick, even with my high fevers and everything else)...I said, thank you for dinner. You said, "thank you for not dying today" (since we joked about that over text when they told me I might have a blood clot in my lung and I truly got scared about sick I really was). We spent the week on your couch, and I know you took good care of me. I think that was one of the turning points. You started acting like you did when we met, after that. How could you think I would betray you? How could you not believe, when I was with you EVERY DAY, that I could have, or would have, been with anyone else? It kills me that after everything, you would run away like you did. And despite YOUR faults and mistakes, I still love you. You dick.

[Cherrybreeze]

I can't imagine anyone taking your place, even though someone has likely already taken mine. I hope you miss me for the game tomorrow (the jersey you got me will be lucky...again) and I hope you miss me on Saturday. I don't know what you told your sons or your friends about what happened, and I'm not sure I want to....oh what the hell, of course I want to. I'm not the total bad guy. I think we could figure it out, but I don't think you will. I'm trying so hard not to contact you. I want to. I still have your Christmas present, and I just may send it to you and the boys...I know it's something you'd all love, and despite it all, I want you to have it. You may get angry, I don't know. If I do it, I hope you keep it. And think of me, when you watch it. (and I hope you don't buy it first, I've TOLD you not to buy anything else before Christmas! You boys can fight over who gets to unwrap it.)

[Cherrybreeze]

I'm pissed that I have even more to say...no one wants to read this ****. I'm pissed that I keep checking my phone...I probably said that....but I know you won't contact me and I'm torn. I want to rebuild, and that WOULD be on my shoulders, but as you said, "the ball is not on my court." My hands are tied and I hate that. In general I hope you're missing my absence, it was so normal for me to walk in the door by six. I miss playing Dr Mario for 8 hours on a Sunday, while watching football, and drying out my contacts beyond belief. I hope you're reflecting, when in reality you probably have someone there. I'm five minutes away, I could drive by, but I can't. I don't want to know. I would forgive you anyway. But I won't do it, because I wouldn't be able to forgive myself and I'm still holding out hope. Stupid goddamn hope.

[me85]

Approaching 3 weeks of NC. I was very drunk last night and wrote out an email to send you but stopped myself. I'm very proud of myself for that but not hearing from you is hurting me, for whatever reason. You've never gone more than 9 days without reaching out. You always cave but I guess not this time. I'm having a hard time accepting that you no longer want to reach out to me. I know that sounds very egotistical and maybe I am but I'd rather that be the reason instead of missing you for a far worse reason…because I'm possibly still in love with you when I thought I was over you. For so long I've felt over you. I've never remained friends with exes but I'd be lying if I said I didn't wish we were still friends. You've been the only exception for a lot of things in my life. It astounds me.

 

Anyway, I really do miss you and truth be told, I missed you even when I told myself I didn't. I buried my feelings for you but didn't realize I had buried them. I thought they were just gone. Now I know otherwise.

Edited December 8, 2014 by me85

[Heartbroken Eagle]

Really thought I was over you, less than 2 years after you threw me away. Was having fun with friends when out of the blue, you came back in my mind again.

 

Why do I still miss the 'Nice' you and forget about the 'Real' you???

 

Will your new husband be there for you like I was during the tough times? Or once your 'mask' falls off, will he run like the wind like I should have done and saved myself from you?

[Magnet]

It's been 5 months since we broke up.

 

I wish I didn't but I still love you. When there's a quiet moment in the corner of my mind, my thoughts turn to you.

 

I didn't realise how lucky I was to spend the time I did with you. I took you for granted. I really love you and I'm devastated right now. SO DEVASTATED. You don't know but I'm really hurting and my beautiful girl is gone.

[JFReyes]

I've never remained friends with exes but I'd be lying if I said I didn't wish we were still friends. You've been the only exception for a lot of things in my life. It astounds me.

 

I am astounded as well for having similar feelings. Hope we get closure soon...

 

Peace :-)

[me85]

I am astounded as well for having similar feelings. Hope we get closure soon...

 

Peace :-)

 

Least I know I'm not alone.

 

Peace (=

[Mandy26]

You're a lying douchebag!!!

[NopeNah]

Almost called her just now....damn..set the phone down,after getting my guys to their job sites...Horrible feeling! Empty. Is where Im at.

[Chrystopha]

I wonder how often you think of me and if you miss me as much as I miss you. You were my best friend and what we had was true love. I don't believe I will ever experience anything like what we had ever again. For that I am glad, but utterly devastated.

[tryingtodealwithit]

i miss you today. has me feeling like i wish things were different. it's too late for all of that though. i wonder when and if i will hear from you again. i hope you're doing well and making good decisions. i still want good things for you.

[Mandy26]

Had a great time at my team party tonight, thought of you on my way home, how I wanted to call you and share it with you...kind of miss you...then I ground myself back to reality and know it wouldn't work..that just sucks...miss you but do not want to be with you...feeling tormented...want to break NC...but won't ...working on myself and therapy so that i can one day be open to someone new rather then jaded and closed...sad is what I am

[DenverDude]

Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuc*

 

i really want to email you

[Firestarter1069]

Hey, it's me, I almost picked up my phone to text you but I just couldn't. I just want you to know that I'm not mad at you. Recently I found out you've been talking about me to your friend at work. I want you to know that you don't have to be prideful, pick up your phone and text me, I won't ignore you. How could I ignore you? I miss you...A LOT. I miss the little things most of all. I miss cooking you breakfast, I miss my little buddy(the pet cat), I miss taking our walks, I miss our breaks at work, but most of all I just miss being in the same room with you. I hope you are doing well...I Love You.

[WillLoveAgain]

This is my first day of complete no contact. We broke up nearly 3 months ago now and every day has been miserable! We kept contact and i thought that there was hope so i took a chance and told him I miss him. I am miserable without him and i want to get back together. He didn't want to get back together so I am ending all communication. I haven't talked to him in 4 days but i have checked facebook ooops!!!

 

It's been more than 24 hours of radio silence. I am having withdrawal signs already! This is the hardest thing I have ever done in my life since we talk everyday via text, email and phone. I miss the jokes, the security of knowing you are always there but most of all I just miss the person.

[CopingGal]

Never thought I'd be posting about a woman here. You acted like you were so healthy. You are not. You are screwed up. If you were not, you were not have hurt me the way you did. I guess in your mind I was only good for when you needed someone to go to the store with you. You never asked me to go anywhere with you and you always invited yourself along to the store with me.

 

We had good time- laughing, talking, then there was nothing. There you left without saying good-bye. Who does that?

 

You can act like you are healthy, but your not. You are not wrapped too tight. I'm sorry I ever let you into my house...loser!

[CopingGal]

Hello, you loony bastard,

 

Yeah bastard, I'm writing about you now. You are vile and filthy and an insult to the human race. That woman you are with looks mentally challenged and it wouldn't surprise me if she were. After all, you are a sociopath.

 

I can't believe I wasted 3 years of my life on a good-for-nothing like you. I'm done with losers, you loony bastard. Screw you!

[CopingGal]

What will it take for you to stop this cruelty and torture? atleast tell me what I have done for you to be this cruel with me. You got what you wanted, you cheated on me, you lied to me, you made a fool of me, you made your friends laugh at me. You got everything, why to be cruel now.

 

If my death will stop your cruelty, I pray to God that you get this wish. Today my flight almost crashed at landing and I thought of you getting what you want. Alas, I am still living. I will have to pay for my mistake in judging, trusting, believing and finally loving you.

 

I will pay, and I will suffer.

 

This person you are talking about sounds like a sociopath. Screw that person...loser!

[Sucker for Love]

Oh thank god! I'm not only not the only one who was dumped via text, I'm not the only one who thinks its despicable and horribly immature!!

[Dobie]

you blindsided me you bitch !! You sat there planning our wedding while all the time u had one foot out the door ... To top it off you probably have been lining up my replacment or at least kissing guys while you went away the weekend before our BU ... I loved you and cared for you and spent six years trying to make u happy and be there for you, and you left me in the **** took everything from our home , ruined my birthday left me with debts u promised to pay charged me for anything you left and showed not a shred of remorse or empathy then had the cheek to tell me you are a "good person"and have nothing to feel bad about . To top it off our dog died with strangers because i had to rehome him and you showed as much empathy to him as you did to me .

 

you are the most selfish person i have ever known may god destroy you!

[Mandy26]

so tired today, dreamt of you last night, very bizarre indeed. Dreamt that I drove to your house,( but it really was not your house), I was there on the street trying to figure out if I should knock on the door or just text you ...I miss you, then I woke up because none of it made any sense. Today I could not get you out of my head....what an exhausting day ...makes me sad...you suck

[sadsoymilk]

So we saw each other last night for the first time since I spent the night with you. I had to be there during your shift, it couldn't be helped. I didn't even look at you. I tried to stay strong and unaffected. How did you feel, being completely ignored? I hope it hurt a little, even if it can't come close to how bad you hurt me... I knew you were trying to get my attention, hovering around me, standing next to me, trying to join the conversation... I didn't even glance your way. I was proud for that. Did you notice how hard I was shaking? I wish I knew what you were thinking. I'll just have to see what happens during tomorrow's shift, and I honestly have no idea what to expect..

[amorydiver]

sunday. where are you. I miss you. please call me. I wont pick up, but, at least id know you were thinkin of me.

[StrangerThanFiction]

Well it's been exactly 3 months and a day since we broke up. I told myself that I'd have a little break up anniversary pity party for myself on the day of but it seems I forgot about it till today!

 

Wow. Three months already. I'm doing a lot better than I was even a month ago I'm happy to say. I've finally accepted that we're over and that there's no going back. I'm not in constant agony anymore. Yes, sometimes I hurt and I miss you and still think about you more than I'd like, but I'm getting better. I can see a future without you now when I couldn't before. I haven't cried about you in...hell, I don't even know how long anymore! More than a month anyway. I can't help but feel a little sad that our 6 year relationship boiled down to no more than this and it still hurts a bit knowing that you're with someone else but I can feel the hurt fading and slowly being replaced by indifference. This, I think, is a very good sign.

 

I've had you blocked on my phone for about a month now. There was once, just once, where I unblocked you in a moment of weakness. That lasted 2 minutes and then I quickly reblocked you. Why? I felt sick. I literally felt ill knowing that you could contact me again. That was a real eye opener for me. I don't want to hear from you anymore! I don't want know how you're doing! I still miss you sometimes when I'm feeling lonely, but I know that I really don't want you back in my life! There's times I wonder if you've tried to contact me and how you felt when you received no response due to being blocked. My guess is that you haven't tried, but I can't help but wonder sometimes.

 

I still can't honestly say that I wish the best for you yet so I know I still have a way to go before I'm totally healed, but I can finally see that there will be an end to this one day. I didn't believe that there would be, but something's changed over the last few weeks. The magic of NC perhaps?

 

Anyway, it's been 3 months and a day since we broke up and almost a month of total NC and I think everything's going to be fine one day.